2008 Transformation Contest

Three days left.  I want to end this contest with a strong finish so I will post my last video. The videos are not something that I will miss.  I dreaded them every week.  We all know that my favorite exercise is the bench press and I might as well finish on the right bench with a personal best.

Number 1 song goes to everyone out there doing this thing

We belong to the world we belong to the wind
We are the spirit of the competition’s end
Turning hours into days burning muscles feel the pain
The heart and soul of discipline my friends

We are sending you a challenge it’s very clear
We came to win that is why we are here
Demanding to be tested, tested by the best
Not to be forgotten like all the rest

The time has come all the training done
The muscle and the blood will come to pay

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

Today is the day all the training through
We have come for the number one not the number two
Let the contest begin play hard fight to win
Immortality victory and fame

The time has come all the training done
The muscle and the blood will come to pay

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

Today is the day all the training through
We have come for the number one not the number two
Let the contest begin play hard fight to win
Immortality victory and fame

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

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Finally got the camera, but not a good one, anyways here is me today with 233lbs

Number 1 song goes to everyone out there doing this thing

We belong to the world we belong to the wind
We are the spirit of the competition’s end
Turning hours into days burning muscles feel the pain
The heart and soul of discipline my friends

We are sending you a challenge it’s very clear
We came to win that is why we are here
Demanding to be tested, tested by the best
Not to be forgotten like all the rest

The time has come all the training done
The muscle and the blood will come to pay

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

Today is the day all the training through
We have come for the number one not the number two
Let the contest begin play hard fight to win
Immortality victory and fame

The time has come all the training done
The muscle and the blood will come to pay

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

Today is the day all the training through
We have come for the number one not the number two
Let the contest begin play hard fight to win
Immortality victory and fame

Let the game begin hear the starting gun
Play from the heart today we will overcome
When the game is over all the counting’s done
We were born to win number 1

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Finally got the camera, but not a good one, anyways here is me today with 233lbs

Mm.  6 days left.  

I don’t know if this is a good time for me to start playing around with medium chain triglycerides or not.  lol  I bought some coconut oil last night, as it is actually supposed to be good for your metabolism and increase energy output.  It is a bit scary, as it is pure fat.  And delicious fat at that.  Dipping into the tub of it last night I felt like the naughty little girl who used to sneak grandma’s butter.

I have felt good about this contest.  In the end it turned out to be exactly as I expected.  There have been real challenges along the way.  Both internal and external.  Both equally difficult to maneuver around.  

THIS IS PART OF THE PROCESS. 

You think those who make it to the top do not have challenges?  They have just learned how to climb mountains.  They have learned through trial, effort, and persistence, how to overcome obstacles.  How to not give up.

I am not unusual in my personal demons.  So many overweight persons out there share similar mental struggles as the ones I have been through.  The unexamined mind is what leads to stagnant lives, and putrid bodies.  I encourage EVERYBODY to search their personal history, and their mind, for what it is that holds them back in life.

IN THE END, THIS IS IT.  

This is YOUR expression on earth.  This is YOUR story and I encourage you to make it your own.  Have a brave heart.  BECOME a braveheart.

We all have battles.  This is our common denominator.

But like any good protagonist, YOU CAN come out victorious in the end.

It’s a matter of hope.  It’s a matter of faith.  

It is a matter of self-estimation, and what you believe you are deserving of. 

Finally, please never hold yourself back for anyone around you.  

There is such a thing as reverse discrimination.  In your quest for excellence there will be battles.  There will be struggles for dominance.

YOU ARE THE HERO IN YOUR OWN EPIC NOVEL.

  Heros don’t back down.

Unless it’s a strategic reversal.

The choice is this:  

You can stifle your best for acceptance.   Or, you can shake these people off of you.

Personally, I say, SHAKE, RATTLE, AND ROLL!

The weekend has arrived.  I am very happy about it.  I have lots do.  yep..workouts to plan…meals to prepare… steps to success to follow.  Oh and its Easter. You know what that means dont you?  The Easter bunny is coming.  Because candy is no longer in my plans, I am going to box it all up and send it to my competitors. They have been working so hard and I think some creamy chocolate, flavorful jelly beans, and you cant forget those sugary peeps would be a fabulous reward for all their efforts.  Me? I will stick with the carrot sticks left for the rabbit and pound the six things I can be proud of during this competition.  You know we only have six days left. Have a great weekend.

Six things to be proud of:

• I finished what I started.  I may have stumbled during the last 12 weeks but I got up and continued on the journey.  Unless you have a very firm grasp of this lifestyle, it is hard to stay on the right path.  Sometimes our old habits and thinking get in the way.  I am proud to say I made the adjustments and now I am walking across the finish line.
• I stayed positive throughout the contest. I think the positive mindset is the most important aspect of this contest.  Believe that you can overcome any obstacle and that you can reach your goal if you put in the effort is critical to success.
• I have dropped almost two sizes in clothes.  When I started this contest I was wearing a size 18 now I can buy some of my clothes in a size 14.  I am waiting on my lower half to catch up with my up half but at least there is progress.
• I learned to plan my meals and workouts. Ok I had been planning my meals and workouts before but I guess you could say I got more confident in these skills.  Daniel and Armond both helped me a lot in this area. I am very grateful to both of them.
• I have a great circle of friends.  They stood by me, offering words of encouragements, kicks in the butt, and a few laughs through the entire journey.  They wouldn’t let me stop if I wanted to.  Team c.w. is bound and determined to be declared the best damn support group out there.  You know I believe it.
• I never lost sight of who I was and why I was doing this.   A contest is hard.  Don’t let anyone fool you.  Especially if you are still learning and embracing a new lifestyle. 12 weeks to maintain a strict diet, positive attitude, and hit every workout is a constant effort.  When you are carb depleted it is easy to get angry, irritated, and wonder why in the hell did I sign up for this.  It is also easy to take this negativity and self doubt out on others such as your significant other or even your competitors.  I constantly reminded myself that this contest was a tool to help me succeed.  Not just any tool-a fun and challenging tool that was helping me be a success story. Because I never lost sight of that, I can be proud.

The last seven days to really kick it into high gear.  I need to lose seven more pounds.  Of course I would like to lose seven points off my body fat %.  Oh and seven more inches would be fabulous.  A size seven dress size…nah I can skip that one.  LOL

I could always add seven more pounds to my current lifts or maybe seven more reps.  I could go all out it hit seven sets per exercise.  What about seven more minutes to my cardio session or increase the incline another 7%.  I could eat 7 times more salads.  And say no seven times to the temptations that find me.  Shoot there are so many options with these seven days left.

I think I will read my goals seven times today.  Respond to at least seven friends who have stood by me through the thick and thin.  Oh and thank the seven sponsors…well eight when you throw in bb.com.  They have definitely made this contest enjoyable and very motivational.

Take the next seven seconds and breathe deep we are in the final count down.

It’s been one week since you looked at me
Cocked your head to the side and said “I’m angry”
Five days since you laughed at me saying
“Get that together come back and see me”
Three days since the living room
I realized it’s all my fault, but couldn’t tell you
Yesterday you’d forgiven me
but it’ll still be two days till I say I’m sorry

Hold it now and watch the hoodwink
As I make you stop, think
You’ll think you’re looking at Aquaman

I summon fish to the dish, although I like the Chalet Swiss
I like the sushi
’cause it’s never touched a frying pan

Hot like wasabe when I bust rhymes
Big like LeAnn Rimes
Because I’m all about value

Gonna make a break and take a fake
I’d like a stinkin achin shake
I like vanilla, it’s the finest of the flavours

How can I help it if I think you’re funny when you’re mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I’m the kind of gal who laughs at a funeral
Can’t understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt

It’s been one week since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air
and said “You’re crazy”
Five days since you tackled me
I’ve still got the rug burns on both my knees
It’s been three days since the afternoon
You realized it’s not my fault
not a moment too soon
Yesterday you’d forgiven me
And now I sit back and wait til you say you’re sorry

There are seven days left in this competition.  Thats right.  Seven days to make it happen.  Seven days to make every meal, every thought, every workout count.  Well, it should be easy to do right.  Nope.  This week I am completely swamped at work and lots of activities at home.  i wont let it get in my way.  

I look at where I was and compare it to where I am and I am just amazed.  I havent lost a lot of weight.  I have dropped quite a few inches.  I think I have put on some muscle.  My strength has definitely increased.  

Here are this weeks pics:

This competiton maybe coming to a close but my journey isnt over.  I have tossed around several new plans to keep the momentum going.  I will be changing my workouts beginning Monday. I will start the P90X program.  I am very excited about it.  I also plan on entering the Muscletech challenge.  I have to give SCT some competition.  Seriously, I doubt I am what they are looking for but I will give it a 100% and it will help keep me motivated and making the changes I am wanting.  I am also going to start on my personal training certificate.  Thats right.  I have a passion for wellness. I know the struggles. I can relate.  Plus occasionaly I can be considered a people person. I should wrap up the training about the time I drop the rest of the weight so I should fit the part.  Plus helping people increase their intensity and make positive changes will only help me to move forward myself.  Its a win-win situation.

Anyway, have a great day.  

Pass the Kool-Aid.  Better yet.  Make that Crystal Light.

Well my camera is shot, so I will not be able to take pictures or video at least until I find someone I can borrow it from. But I can share some of my thoughts with everyone willing to read this journal.

I have intentionally placed everyone in the category because this post is about everyone in this competition. I would like to share my opinion about the competitors and how I have seen them in short time I spent in this competition, and also, I would like to encourage others to write the same in some of the next blogs as we near the end of this game we play.

As I said this blog post is about everyone taking part in this competition, not only the competitors but the people made all this possible. I would like to avoid sounding like a miss pageant so I will skip "thank yous" to the sponsors and yada yada yada…I believe they know we are grateful for the opportunity.

Anyways I would like to say special thanks to the man Richard, our admin. Without his efforts we would be lost half way. Thank you Richard.

What can I say about Isaac? Well I learned he’s got great taste in music and I always enjoyed his videos he posted, and I enjoyed some of the great stories he told us, some were true adventures. I must admit I am a bit jealous of him, after all he is a great photographer, something that impresses me a lot. What ever happened to your shaping goals man, we are still backing you up!

And there is Josh. I still hate my self for entering this competition through his misfortune. Life is one big, well I guess you know what. If I understood correctly, SCT is almost fully recovered from his injury and already planning a new challenge by Muscletech, and I want to wish him all the best with his future goals.

Jason is another mystery for me. I have a feeling he is such an emotional person, in a good way of course, and the fact he found his happiness with his wife and daughter just makes me warm in the heart. I know you can’t see much progress but there is a great achievement behind you already. OK, maybe you didn’t lost much weight, or achieved the look you desire, but you made a positive change in life. Sometimes, no matter how hard we fight, sometimes life gets the better of us. I just wanted you to know you have my full support, and when this thing ends in a couple days, don’t think I will forget about you, you can count on me any time.

Dave is a big man, in more than one way. I found we have much more in common than it could be seen in the beginning. This man has a great sense of humor but he can be serious when needed and place a right word where needed. He has a long fight before him and I just know it will not be an easy one. That just makes him a biggest fighter of us all, I mean we have to loose 20 - 30lbs and we are there, but he has to loose a whole Maddie to get where he wants to be. Dave my man mark my words: If you ever decide to quit and give up on the battle you started and start listening to that demon from Narnia, just remember there is one crazy Serb out there waiting to kick your a$$, and we all know demons can’t compare to Serbs

Maddie, well Maddie is Maddie, right I mean she is the reason we others loose motivation with every new progress pictures upload. Couple more weeks and she is ready for a fitness competition. You came a long way and you showed us all how the fine finish is done. You showed great progress both physically and psychologically, and through some of your posts you gave us insight to your librarian soul and I have seen it’s a wast and beautiful place. Which ever the path you decide to take after this competition I wish you all the best.

Finally there is Steph. I am not sure if I can write anything else about this woman I haven’t said before. I remember when she left the first post on my BodySpace page, I was thinking she was a random visitor but than she came again and again and than every week she gave me encouragement and she still remains one of rare cyber-friends I gained over the time. Determination, strength, especially strength intensity, I mean I could go on forever with these epithets that go with her and I would still not do her justice. When I take a step back and take look at this group from the day you told me there is a competition going on at bb.com to this very day, I just know you are the one who deserves the gold and highest pedestal to stand on.

~malibuilder

So getting near the end of this contest. My progress thus far has been purely in strength gains, my fat loss has been very minimal which I’m not super happy about, but progress has come.

Due to my lack of a good camera you’ll have to excuse the bad video quality, and lack of editing as my Movie Maker app wont edit .mov files which is what this camera puts them in.

Anyways, just a quick comparison of pushups from the start of the competition, until today…today I go lower, and to me seem a little faster….one day I’ll do them Malibuilder style.

Now…Please excuse the heavy breathing (still pushing allot of weight here ) and excuse the small excuse for a dog in the background.

Then…

The man that wrote the Narnia Chronicles was a great philosopher as well as a writer. In his Screwtape Letters he talks about time. Screwtape Letters is a series of letters written from Screwtape, a demon, to a demon in training. The gist of the letters is how to best temp a human to keep the human away from God and close to Satan.

The letter concerning time instructed the minor demon to tempt the human to focus on the past or the future and never the now. The now it was said is the only time in a human life that touches eternity. Eternity is where God wishes a human to be focused.

Now is the only thing that matters. I said it before. When I look to the future I get overwhelmed and when I look to the past I get angry or sad. Now is the only place that I can accomplish anything. Now is the only time I have control over. Now touches eternity.

My heroes are those men and women in the US armed forces, especially those who join during a shooting war.  Oh, I know that there are dirt-bags in the military, but the majority are great men and women.  There is a story that I just read written by John Renehan, a young butter-bar (2nd Lieutenant).  Prior to joining the US Army John was a 29 year old lawyer that was brought up in a privileged home.

John talked about his want to serve and fear that he would not ‘cut it".  He was a desk guy and soldiers were born the gung-ho types you see shooting pistols at a range and running Ironman races.  What he found relates to getting fit and reaching excellence.

Along this road I discovered something about myself, and about the military.

About myself, I discovered that there were within me — within everyone — latent abilities, tendencies, temperaments that only an environment such as this will bring out. And yes, I’m speaking to you bookish types now. However well you may think you know your own pacific constitution, be assured that there is someone more physical and forceful within you — someone you will meet, given the right circumstances.

About the Army, I learned that it can be a hard — and hardening — environment, but by and large the people in it are just people. They are not uniquely tough by nature, though they become so through training and preparation and habit. And their toughness is leavened with a deep sense of common humanity — a basic unquestioning take-them-as-they-are compassion rarely found in the “softer” cosmopolitan world of ambition and sophistication from which I hail.

You can read Lt. Renehan’s article here .

We are in the last leg of the race.  Throughout most of it I felt like I was able to keep up with my friends/competitors. Now that we are approaching the final turn, I feel myself slipping. I know its this plateau I hit that is wavering my thoughts. I am still determined and I have run enought races to know that I will cross the finish line.  Its almost time to begin the sprint.  That always was my favorite part of the race.  I was really good at pacing myself and then really hitting it hard in the end.  Yes I was a fierce track runner way back when.  I know my friends are waiting for me at the finishline. I can see them with their pompoms.  Lets finish this thing.  

Well the cat is out of the bag.  Read my latest blog about how my whole family has now found me on site, and seen me in my underwear.

I truly believe everything can be used for good purposes.  While honestly, I do regret losing a tremendous degree of privacy from all this, I am yet proud of my efforts.  

I have already received three letters from friends and family looking for advice.  I wanted to share this one with you.

Maddi,

You,  it is amazing about your determination.  You really are a body builder.  I have lost weight in the past but my muscles were not toned like yours.  I am trying again to lose weight but it has been hard with my diabetes .  If you know of any examples of a person in their 50s  send that to me.  I like you have dealt with alot of depression through the years.  My Mother role has been tops in my life.  I got an exercise ball and a rebounder to bounce on.  I am also trying to be an example for my Granddaughter Yvette.  I would like her to know that she can reach a goal of her own.  I will be having her see this wonderful testimony of your health.  I think on health issues first and it’s a plus to look Great.  I also believe this Maddi , it’s important to love someone just the way they are because so that they never feel like if I am not perfect I can’t fit in.  I think that your work proves a control on your body.  I want that also.  I sometimes feel like I am short circuiting and the battery is low.  I fight that depression daily but I know you have to get up again with hope in your heart.  
Again , I am so proud of you!
love forever and ever
Aunt Una

And my response:

Dear Aunt Una,

First off, I love you very much! 

Thanks so much for the nice letter!  I feel a link to all of my aunts and carry a part of all of you inside of me.  I think deep down I am most like you.     Uncle Gary was actually a big influence with me and the weights.  I was always intrigued by his rack, his weight sets,…that and the mysterious jugs of protein powders, etc, that he kept around the house.

There are ALOT of women who do this stuff well into their 50s, 60s, and BEYOND.  I will try to find some examples for you and send them to you.  Go to the bodybuilding.com transformation section.  There have been alot of very incredible transformations of people of every age.

You know, when I look at Yvette, I see alot of AMAZING possibilities.  This is a very strong young woman who has always had a very intense will of her own.  A strong will will get you VERY FAR with your body if you learn how to harness it.  A strong will can lead to creative or destructive avenues, depending on your amount of self love, and your belief that it is OK to love yourself.  I would LOVE to see Yvette get involved with the weights.  She will not bulk up.  You seriously have to dabble in steroids as a woman to get any real size at all.  

What she WILL do, is develop her strength.  And learn to take very real anger and put it into constructive avenues that builds her up rather than tear her down.  Many of us eat to stifle our feelings for things that we do not know what to do with.  We eat rather than speak our truth, and how we really feel about many situations in our lives.  Food is a great substitute for feeling.  It is an excellent substitute for facing personal truth.

In Yvette I see future excellence.  I see her making a fabulous mind and body connection and going all of the way with it.  In Yvette, I see, a FUTURE GLADIATOR. 

About the depression you face Aunt Una.  This I know that you know, is part and parcel of being human, and a very sincere part of being woman.  Strenuous exercise will do SO MUCH to take the bad feelings away.  All those endorphins are just incredible.  I advise you to JOIN A GYM.  Fall in love with it.  Lie to yourself.  lol  FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT.

Cut out ALL sugars, and ALL processed carbs.  When you are eating, ask yourself, “is the food I am putting into me BENEFITING ME?  Is it an act of self love?”

We live in a day and age where there are far too many fabulous tasting and healthy junk food substitutes, to have any real reason to eat badly.

You have always been an inspiration to me!  I look forward to seeing you make yet another incredible transformation with your body and your life.

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,

Maddi