2008 Transformation Contest

purest feeling.
purest feeling.
well i think i’m gonna push it as far as it will go.
give in to desire.
only you will know.
so tell me all your secrets.
i’ll stick it in your head.
i wish i could remember everything she said.

-NIN

I got in my double workout today.  30 minutes in the morning, 90 minutes at night.  Took my youngest daughter with me.  She thinks it’s fun…the gym has cable.  

My feet were doing some serious cramping the whole time I was on the elliptical.  Every step..ouch..ouch..ouch!  Perhaps I need potassium?  Just worked right through it. By the time I moved on to the weights, it was over with.

21 sets for my tris.  I try to do less sets, I really do.  But my body just won’t stop after 12 or 16.  So I keep on going.

Tonight I was working in between 3-4 real big guys.  All of them working their delts.  Lateral and front raises going on all around me.  

For a moment, I saw myself, the middle aged lady in between all of these young pups.  The boys working delts…the girl working triceps.  Them working hard, me working hard.  I was reminded of the Sesame Street Song…

"One of these things is not like the others,
One of these things just doesn’t belong,

Can you tell which thing is not like the others
By the time I finish my song?”

Sometimes I think it is really funny the degree to which I work out, the degree to which I strive.  I have to stifle a smile sometimes when I am down there straining away.  Tonight I was doing pullovers with a 55 lb dumbbell.  I was bench dipping with a 45 lb plate on my lap.  Close grip DB presses with 75…and would have gone higher if I had someone to hand off a DB.  

I love every blinking second of it.

But the thought does cross my mind.  

I am 37 years old!  I’m not supposed to be MORE active, I’m supposed to be comfortably settling down to LESS.  I’m supposed to be working 20 lbs on a machine somewhere.

I think these thoughts, and then I think of Ms Fitness, working the Gaspari booth with Marzia Prince at the Arnold tonight.  I think of 39 year old, mother of four, Ms Fitness, working out like a wild and crazy banshee, pumping that iron like a man, a wicked gleam in her eye…and I think….SHEESH!  I’m alright!  

It seems the only rules in this day and age…is that THERE ARE NO RULES.

I can be whoever I want to be!  It’s a GLORIOUS feeling.  

The purest feeling.