Losing Boobs, Gaining Vision.
As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
BODY TRANSFORMATION, END OF WEEK 8.
I took a planned cheat night out with my husband this week. On it’s own I do not believe this would have been a problem.
I joke about “refeeds”, but I do believe in the principle behind them.
The problem for me, being carb sensitive,(ADDICTED! ADDICTED!), means that once I let some carbs slip in, my body does not want to give them up again.
This leaves me vulnerable to strong cravings until I get a grasp on myself.
I could waste time in regret over 7 BELGIAN chocolates I utterly lost control and binged upon yesterday.
Or I could look to the experience as one to learn from.
The fact of the matter is, no matter how strong our resolve, how great our intentions, we WILL EVENTUALLY crumble to temptation, UNLESS temptation is removed from us.
Especially when under going periods of stress, whether mental or physical.
I am still enjoying the competition. But as I have never done this before, I am learning how to pace myself.
I have no nutritionist or trainer. I am attempting to make a dramatic change with nothing but intuition, guts, and instinct.
Sometimes I second guess myself. Sometimes I lose my vision.
I am fighting a battle in my mind over the loss of muscle tissue. In my pictures, I can see a decrease in size, and it frightens me. I have had no decrease in strength. This is a good sign!
At a family birthday party this weekend, I began getting the “you are getting too thin” comments. I never wanted to be “the thin girl”. I wanted to be “the buff girl”.
I have to have courage. I know I have to strip away the fat in order to go farther.
My inner ectomorph is being revealed. As much as I like heft and bulk, I am finding that genetically, I have a body that is built to be long and lean.
I measured in last week at somewhere between 18.6-19.1% bodyfat.
How do women mentally get past the barrier of going lower than this?
Women compete at 10% bodyfat or less. How do they manage to hold onto precious muscle as they cut their bodyfat to such extreme lows?
I am sucking up my fears of loose skin (which is becoming more evident daily, especially on my backside).
I am learning. I am embracing the challenge.
I am walking through my fears of catabolism.
I will not let my fears hold me back any longer.
All I can do…is work the best to my knowledge and abilities. Relying on my body to give me the answers.
I envision a stronger, leaner me. I envision my muscles growing bigger, stronger, better defined, as my body grows evermore leaner.
My meal timing is off. I must admit, I do not time my meals. I eat when I am hungry.
This means today I ate 4 meals instead of 6.
Breakfast: 4 scoops strawberry Intra-Pro (I know…a HUGE SHAKE…a whole blenderful actually…but I was STARVED. This is what my body wanted.)
Lunch: Large Pack Albacore Tuna, 1/2 bag salad, 1 green pepper sliced, 3 vinegars, spices and seasonings,
Pre-Workout: 1 apple
Workout: Super Pump 250, BCAA’s
Post-Workout/Supper: 1 Scoop Vanilla Intra-Pro, 1/2 Scoop Caramel Protein, 1/2 apple, 1 large spoon honey, glutamine, cinnamon,
Misc: lots of Crystal Light with apple cider vinegar, 1 Diet Rockstar, 1 pack berry gum.
TOTAL CALORIES: 1800 TOTAL PROTEIN: 164
I believe taking it easy on myself was good for me this last week. It was good for me mentally, as well as hopefully rebooting my metabolism in the process.
My weight; 137.
No losses, no gains.
However, it is time to see what I can now pull out of me. This week, I will be staying 110% on task.
We are pulling around the corner bend. It is these last few weeks that count… the most.
I will give it my all. I will give it my utmost. I will keep my head in the game until the game is done.
HAVE A GREAT WEEK EVERYONE! WHAT YOU BELIEVE, YOU WILL ACHIEVE!
Post by: Maddi
February 20, 2008 - 10:30 pm MST at 10:30 pm
Competing athletes loose a significant amount of muscle mass in the extreme dieting. No one likes to talk about it, but it is the truth. Bodybuilders (male and female) use steroids to the extreme, trust me they do. I was a competitor and my jaw dropped every time I spoke to a girl who was a national and Balkan champion at the time. She used enough hormones to become a man
Anyways the bulk of season and cut with great loses but defined muscles look much bigger than ones covered with fat. It is the great illusion of bodybuilding 
Now natural bodybuilders are much more different. Most of them stay in excellent shape all year round, and that is much harder. That is a true bodybuilding lifestyle! When time comes to cut, they have 10lbs to loose and it is mostly watter weight, but they rarely grow as big as "juicers".
People close to you are just so much used on you as bigger and now that you are getting in shape they fear you are overdoing it, but only you know whats happening inside of your body. If you feel good, that is most important
February 21, 2008 - 5:59 am MST at 5:59 am
the cut will reduce the muscle for sure. but you will get it back later when you add back the cals. try a cassein protein, that will help slow down the muscle loss.
it is possible to cut and maintain muscle, but it is difficult. you might need a nutritionist to do it. but then again nutritionists who believe it si possible are not very common, especially not in MO. try testosterone nation.com dr lowry and the boys believe it si possible, and their articles are written with a mor medical tone. I recall reading about a fatless bulk there, so they probably have an article about the maintaining cut
sorry to hear about the boobs. you should take pics now before they turn into moobs. i am not sure if they come back, or if the will come back like you once knew them. this might be the start of an all photo album with a woman who does not look like the one from a few years ago.
"there is a shortage of perfect brests in the world…" Wesley, the dread pirate Roberts - The Prince’s Bride
February 21, 2008 - 11:53 am MST at 11:53 am
Beautiful back pose - love how the muscles just pop out! And wow, already at 137 and 18.6% BF - your results have been so drastic!! Awesome job
February 21, 2008 - 5:20 pm MST at 5:20 pm
You look lean,elegant and fit. You looked great in your before pictures. You look awesome in your new photographs. Are your relatives/friends comparing you to themselves, their standards, or to other superb coditioned females? Keep rocking the transformation Maddi!!!!!