2008 Transformation Contest

Good morning competitors.  Or rather, good afternoon.  Having a nice day?  I just had a great workout.  Not the best cardio, but I piled on some heavy weights for the legs.  Ahh…you should have been there to see it.  All of you would have had a fantastic time dogging my form and my style.    

I learned something a long time ago.  I have to do it MY WAY to succeed.  Part of bodybuilding to me is an active act of rebellion.  I am fighting back against so much in society.  If you are old enough, (we are talking ancient here), you will remember the grocery chain called the A&P.  Yes, I spent many long hours as a child waiting to be kidnapped from the car as my mom shopped inside the store.  I remember once sitting underneath a table when I was very, very young, eating a bag of candy that I had stolen.  My big brother was in on the gig.  He stole a dagger that retracted within it’s casing.   I didn’t tell on him.  He didn’t tell on me.  We were partners in crime.

SO yes.  I have always had my inner rebel.  

Today, I have a new meaning for the word A&P.  It is ALLOWANCE AND PERMISSION.

This is symbolic of the very breadth and depth of bodybuilding to me.

I am ALLOWED to excel.  I give myself PERMISSION to achieve.

I don’t know how many of you fellow former fatties have struggled with this, but this has been my life long wall.  You know the big wall that the competitors run through and break down at the end of their final challenge on American Gladiators?  After they have gone through all that HELL and PISS and VINEGAR??  Well this is mine.

Allowance.

Permission.

I once gave myself permission to be as big and fat and ugly as I wanted to be.  Now I give myself permission to be as strong, healthy, beautiful, and yes, SEXy, as I want to be.

Tear down the wall.