Tonyastransform’s BodyBlog

Well after months of being my old self which involves eating anything and everything I want and drinking with no working out I have finally let go of some things that I couldn’t get over.  As many of you know I started here with a transformation with Marzia and it kinda all fell to pieces.  It was a new "project" to the both of us and had some kinks to it and didn’t run as smoothly as it could of…. (and I wish they would take down the videos!) but it has been a while and I have really had a hard time with it b/c not only did the transformation go to shit but I lost what I thought was a really good friend, a best friend at that (or so I thought) but I finally let go of all my negative feelings about the situation and realize it really is time to move on.  It does make a huge difference when you have someone pushing you and a commitment to make, someone to meet for a cardio or  a work out, so I really have struggled with that.  Her and Deanna have doen awesome work!  Pretty impressive!  So with the fact that I am finally getting over that and realizing that I do have the capabililty to become fit and healthy…… so all I can do is take one day at a time.  So keep checkin in, I may surprise you!

Tonya

Well I have no news to report.  I haven’t been doing my cardio or working out!  It has been almost 3 1/2 mths.  I just can’t motivate myself.  I guess I am content with being skinny fat for now and I know that is unhealthy but it really does make a difference having a work out partner and I have yet to find that.  I am active, just not heart rate up active!   We go to the lake every weekend we have a boat and I am constantly swiming, and doing water sports but thats it!  Although I am also drinking and eating whatever I want along with it.  LOL!!!  I will admit I have lost my muscle tone and am just more of a stick then lean and tone.  I do want it I guess just not bad enough yet….. I’ll get there though.  I know I will….. I really appreciate all you out there that have still cheered me on and gave me kind words even though the transformation thing fell through.  Now don’t get me wrong living a healthy lifestyle is definatley motivation for myself and for my kids but I am a really healthy person.  My blood pressure is perfect, my cholesterol is perfect, I just eat shit and drink alot and don ‘t exercise…(not healthy!) but again I am active.  So sorry this isn ‘t very intersting and not any new changes but I will post once I really decide to get serious. I do have the intentions to daily, just never follow through!  But tomorrow is another day and I can’t beat myself up over it or I will never do it!    Take Care

OK well I guess I just need to visit bb.com more and just keep hot bods, abs, muscles and aything fitness related just surrounded by me 24 7 and I will do fine!  I have been reading peoples success stories and all their weaknesses and I am just human!   lol!  anyway I will visit bb.com more often because it really does motivate me….. so I am back starting right now!  even though it is 4:40 pm and I haven’t done jack s**t all day but surf bodyspace, I am starting back NOW!  See you real soon with a new pic!!!

Tonya

Ok well I posted a recent pic….. as you can see I’m getting my belly back!  Well my own fault because I have been eating and drinking just like the old me for almost 2 months now.  (without working out or cardio)   Whats crazy is that I am even worse than before.  Maybe I hit an all time low I don’t know but I posted the recent pic of me to get me going again.  Don’t get me wrong I don’t look THAT bad, I know I have a high metabolism and could probably carry off eating like I want to and just hitting hard cardio and work outs.  But none the less I am going to try to put forth an effort to get back at it.  I know I have said it before, maybe I am still not ready and still don’t want it bad enough.  I struggle with wanting things handed to me vs working for it but hey! at least I am honest right!  Anyway summer is here, schools out and I am trying to get my kids on there summer schedule so I can make a schedule of  my own…/ I am going to make an effort to start back working out!  We are at the lake every weekend and I really do wanna wow people and myself!  So I will give you an update in about 2 weeks and hope to have good news to report that I have been sticking to a work out and better eating habits!  

Tonya

Ok well I posted a recent pic….. as you can see I’m getting my belly back!  Well my own fault because I have been eating and drinking just like the old me for almost 2 months now.  (without working out or cardio)   Whats crazy is that I am even worse than before.  Maybe I hit an all time low I don’t know but I posted the recent pic of me to get me going again.  Don’t get me wrong I don’t look THAT bad, I know I have a high metabolism and could probably carry off eating like I want to and just hitting hard cardio and work outs.  But none the less I am going to try to put forth an effort to get back at it.  I know I have said it before, maybe I am still not ready and still don’t want it bad enough.  I struggle with wanting things handed to me vs working for it but hey! at least I am honest right!  Anyway summer is here, schools out and I am trying to get my kids on there summer schedule so I can make a schedule of  my own…/ I am going to make an effort to start back working out!  We are at the lake every weekend and I really do wanna wow people and myself!  So I will give you an update in about 2 weeks and hope to have good news to report that I have been sticking to a work out and better eating habits!

Tonya

OK I have to admit, it is hard for me to work out by myself and push my own self.  I hate to admit that but its true.  So these past few weeks I have not worked out as hard or as often as I should and my cardio…. well it comes in spurts.  BUT…… I am still doing this, I just may not be moving as fast as I would like on my own.  So I have changed my gyms and will be moving to a new gym where I have some friends that work out there and I will be doing some classes and such.  I am also looking into getting certified as a personal trainer, I think being educated on how to train and all the details of the muscleS will help me tremendously.  But none the less, I am still maintaining my weight (just not my tone as much as I should) I fluctuate at about 134-136.  It is officially bikini season, I will be at the lake this weekend and I think that will help motivate me as well.  I am not as tone as I would like to be but it is what I make it and I have to learn to work hard and give 100% by myself and for myself.  That is my battle and I WILL FIGHT IT!!!!! LOL

Wow!  What a crazy past few weeks!!!  Unfortunately you will not see the final videos of my transformation.  I am on my own and trucking through.  I have had a lot of eye openers this past few weeks.  One being that I am so blessed to have 3 beautiful healthy children!  I had a friend in my hometown that was in a horrible car wreck and it killed his 6 year old daughter and he is on life support.  It’s just awful.  So I look at my own life and my children ( I too have a 6 year old) and really thank God I have been blessed.   So I don ‘t really have much to say except I am working away, I will post some pics up before memorial day and show my progress.  I am still thinking about doing something completely out of my box which would be a competition and am working on working up enough nerve and confidence.  I have the "just do it" attitude but seriously….I have to be able to be on stage without just collapsing, which just typing this gives me a small panic attack!!! LOL  Summer is almost here I can’t wait to be at the lake and pool with my toned body!!!!!!

so Ives decided I really enjoy rollerblading.  However my first time I somehow twisted my ankle and was forced to stay off for over a week!! Anyway so I found some hills near my neighborhood and going up them is such a workout….. Going down them whole different story and after going speeds of I swear 60 mph( that’s what it felt like)  and my life flashing before my eyes…. I decided to go down the hills in the grass which works great bc I’m actually putting forth an effort moving them vs just flying and gliding to an eventual death trap!   Other than that things are moving along.. I’m working on establishing a weght routine.  I have wrote down some work outs that marzia trained me with and will incorporate those.  In still learning and have a lot to learn!  Remember I had NEVER worked out before this!!!!! Anyway I will keep you posted!!!!
tonya

I found the perfect nightitime appetite suppressant!!!  Guitar Hero III  !!!!! YOu can get wrapped up in that and not even think about food!!!!  Plus my fingers are getting a hell of a work out! LOL

Ok well since I last blogged here is the latest.  I still haven’t been very good on my diet.  Feb is birthday month for us, as you know I just turned 32 on the 21st and My husband turned 40 on the 27th  so again I cheated and when I cheat I really go crazy, more so than ever before, that is really a mind and will power thing that I struggle with and have to over come.  I LOVE FOOD!!!  I LOVE TO EAT, even if I am not hungry?  What’s up with that b/c I know I am the only one… right??? LOL.  Anyway so with all the birthday’s and I also took off for a weekend on a girls trip, cheated of course!! (only food, nothing else, LOL) my kids are still on and off again with the cough, boogers, and strep and all the other good stuff you mom’s can relate too.  Soooo here we are today March 16th, I’ve kinda been slackin for almost a month.. NOT GOOD.  But spring is here, this is my time of year I love spring and summer even with my old self and old diet I was always thinner in summer and more active in general (can’t wait to see what is to come with summer and me working out) so this is my time to shine and I gotta get back into it 100%!!! REady for my kids to be well all the time and enjoy the sunshine!  So stay tuned we have some more shows about to come out and from here forward I am really gonna be kicking ass!! I’m telling you I am totally that person that suffers from the seasonal depression stuff!!! LOL!!!  I could never live in seattle!  I swear I was a bear in my before life, hibernating and eating in the winter and coming out to play in the spring!!  Talk to you soon!