Tim’s Awesome Blog

i decided tonight my long term goal is to squat a car. i have a video of some woman doing it. now, i don’t know how long it will take me to get there. but by god ,i’m gonna do it.strength rules!!!

i love the ladies. i keep looking for a good one. i get nervous about finding the right one.i would like to find someone that would like to be a mom.i just miss having someone to do things with during my free time.i guess i’m just lonely. oh well.

i love the ladies. i keep looking for a good one. i get nervous about finding the right one.i would like to find someone that would like to be a mom.i just miss having someone to do things with during my free time.i guess i’m just lonely. oh well.

i received a comment the other day. an unsolicitted comment by the way. this is the second one i got from this person and i thought it was disrespectful.

i am taking a lesson from my friend maddi. and that lesson is…. bite me if you don’t like me. i train for noone but me. i train cuz i want to feel better about me. it’s all about me. i don’t give a flying flip if you don’t thinkl i’m motivated enough or if i’m too lazy. all these things i get on myself about already. give me something constructive to work with here. if i want advice from you i’ll ask. i want friends to be friends. if you don’t want to be my friend thats cool but keep your freakin mouth shut . i probadly don’t want your help anyway. if you are my friend i will regard your remarks as helpful ,unless you are just being rude.

i love to train . i love weights. i also love to eat. i know where the fault lies. i am a work in progress. i survived drug addiction and to me that is the most important thing i have ever done. also the most successful i have been at anything in my life. i have never had self control . i have always been self centered. i have been learning to live differentlyfor a while now. i do however fall short in some areas of my life.i have seen a lot of people die becaus they thought they weren’t good enough for other people. but i am good enough. you can accept me for who i am or move on. i probadly don’t want to know you anyway. 

well, i finally got around to starting the pfd plan after a 2 week or so delay. what a great feeling it as to be in the gym lifting. endorphins were flying, it was awesome.                  
 

i hesitated to write anything cuz i have felt like i left myself down and i just don’t want other people to see me at my most vulnerable ,i guess. but i figure i can build from this and move forward.

so monday 9/14/09 i am starting the pfd plan by steve poynter. i did this plan earlier in the year and lost some fat. i didn’t really put 110% into tho and  i still got results. my action plan this time is to be more accountable ,not only to myself but to the poynter team as well. i want whats good for me  and tired of half assin it. if you read this blog and are my friend please help by holding me accountable to you as well. i want it. DO WORK!!!

i took my first muay thai class today. i’m doing one on one training. learned the basics and warmups. had a good workout and really enjoyed it. of course i didn’t get hit so …i am really looking forward to doing more and learning more.

went to the gym late just to do some cardio. i jog/walked 20 minutes on the treadmill. and used the elliptical for another 15 minutes after that. probadly hit legs tomorrow. maybe some light walking after.

you know what cracks m up the most… it’s when naturally skinny and /or athletic people say they are fat. i’m fat. if you have less than 20lbs.to lose you ain’t fat.

i trained back today and chest and abs yesterday. getting over the pulled back muscle took a little longer than i hoped. but i’m better now . my biggest obstacle is eating right. i know what to do, always have. i just lack the discipline to keep at it. i know it all depends on me.traing is only what 20% of the equation. nutrition is the other 80%.