Doesn’t Make Sense
so i quit, i give up - on everything, none of you really know me to well to know my circumstances or my background so i dont expect any sympathy - but everyday life is just dragging me down so much, i dream of a perfect life - but i cant have it, i never imagined my life would turn out how it is, an i cant focus on bodybuilding just right now cos alot of serious things are happening in my life and im in a major depression - i didnt want things to turn out this way, but the pain im going through is unbearable - and im struggling so much. im not giving up cos i cant hack it - im giving up cos i cant afford to keep shoveling steak and protein supps down my neck, im giving up cos im from a broken home an only have 1 parent who has major health problems being 65 years old, im giving up because i need to focus on supporting my girlfriend, im giving up because i need to handle other situations. im giving up cos im to depressed to do anything, im giving up cos i need to cope. im giving up cos im heart broken. i set myself such big goals cos i was told i could acheive anything - but it not as easy as it sounds, theres alot of things i CANT FIX, bodybuilding used to be an escape, now… i dont have an escape. im sorry for leaving - i made alot of good friends on here, an you all mean alot to me, but i just need time away from the world.
i wrote some lyrics… im sorry everyone, but i just need to go. these are the lyrics.
ive wasted some years, an tasted my tears, but im facin my fears the pains aint fading or clear, so im aching right here, i try my hardest an hope for the best, an because all of my tears i cried, my shirt is soaking wet. see these lyrics? im crying while writing them, finding my fears then fighting them. i aint got a shoulder i can cry on, so im tryna find a dry spot on my shirt to wipe my eyes on.
- Mike
July 21, 2008 at 4:47 pm
Hang in there, man, get your stuff worked out, and we’ll be here when you get back. Peace.
July 21, 2008 at 5:03 pm
am hear for you man,you no if i can help,even just to listen i will
July 21, 2008 at 11:01 pm
Hey man, don’t let life get you down. Do what you can, when you can, and don’t be too harsh on yourself. You’re obviously a good guy, and doing you’re best. If you need a break, take it. But don’t drop everything that you do for you. You need that to keep yourself sane.
Peace!