The_Dark_Knight’s BodyBlog

It’s Monday 31st December 2007 and it New Years night and mostly everyone i know is out celebrating, my friends my family but for me i chose to stay at home. Reason being is i don’t really feel confident about myself, with the way i look and they way i am compared to my friends or even my twin brother who is a lot healthier and in shape than i am. I’ve been down this road once before and i really want to get back into shape and to get into the right frame of mind.

Ok, this seems to me more like a diary than a blog but i suppose it the same as you write your thoughts and feelings for the day and this is something i really would like to document throughout my transformation and maybe some of you guys could comment and help me through.

Reasons for me starting are simple i’ve always been bigger than most people, putting on weight more easily than others and its not that i eat junk because i don’t, i dont go out of my way just to go to the shops or to make a specific journey to find rubbish food to eat because i truthfully don’t my problem is eating more than i should or at the wrong time, this is my weakness which needs to be stopped and put into check.

I’ve been down this journey once before due to a relationship where i was with my ex for 2 years and the reasons for breaking up were not really spoken of but maybe one of the reasons was that i she saw someone out of shape and not looking his best so that was my motivation whilst i was at uni and trying to get back into shape. And guess what it worked i looked amazing, i was living away from home, buying and cooking the right food and going to gym reguaraly and when i came back from uni in only 3 months i was healthy, with a six pack (i assure never in million years thought i would get one) and putting on some nice definition and growth into my muscles, and even my twin bro was speechless asking how i did it and saying wow next time you and me go out we could meet some nice girls go talk to them etc bla bla bla and he only said this when i was in supreme shape and now im back at square one and does he say it now, no unfortunately, but would i accept his invite if he did the answer would be no.

This is exactly why i want to be healthy because i know in the long run i would be more confident, more happy and more sociable but u know how it is when u see yourself not looking your best.
i know deep down inside no ones in more fault then yourself, i know i could come up with so many reasons such as my new job in london and having to travel a far just to get there makes it more difficult for me but this by any means is not an excuse but it has been hard for last 4 months strictly living a long way from london and getting up a 5.30 in morning and then not getting back home till 9.30-10.30 as i have to catch the train and by the time im home i wanna eat anything and when it comes to training and the gym well im so tired for that.

So this is where i going to change im going to get gym membership close to where i work in london so then i can go before or after work with no excuses, i am already paying for gym membership at home but i cannot fault with my excuses and yes gym in london is sooooo expensive but when it comes to my health and well being money is not an object ive spent money on stupid things so at least if i use it it will be beneficial!

so tonight im going through my diet, what supplements i will need and what exactly i will do in the gym for my transformation. Im still a rookie when it comes to this training and exercising whilst i was at uni it was only when some housemates turned me into the gym i noticed something, at first i did everything wrong and it wasnt until i had a proper program that i stuck to it and everything fell into place. Today i still feel like a rookie and its been 2 years since i properly trained since i was at uni so i have forgotten what needs to be done but i ill get there im sure.
Well im rambling on and i would be pretty embarrassed for anyone to read this but this is my blog and my transformation and well i need all the help i can get! 2008 watch out, and not hopefully, i will make this change and for the rest of my life!

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