Onward to Victory (45 pounds in 3 months)
On May 18, I weighed in at 300.0 pounds.
On August 20, I now weigh in at 255.3 pounds.
45 pounds down in 3 months yet I feel strangely unsatisfied.
I can’t control my eating like I was able to a couple months ago. I’m always eating crap.
I’m still posting losses every week but I don’t feel like I’m in control of myself. It annoys me that I feel like I’m compelled to act a certain way yet I can’t seem to find an equilibrium that will give my life peace.
The only thing saving me now is the 2+ hours I spend in the gym everyday.
How does one find balance in their life when all they know is black and white? Everyone tells me change small steps yet I’ve tried that time and time again and it doesn’t work. It’s driving me nuts yet I don’t know what to do. I can’t crash and burn again.
Already done that twice. Three strikes and I’m out. Literally and figuratively.
Here’s to the next 60 years of willpower.
