TexasTorch’s BodyBlog

Back from vacation at the beach with my family…shall I get "you need to gain 20lbs" tattooed on my forehead so I can see it EVERY day??  I know they mean well and want to me to be healthy…but I long for the day (and honestly I though it would actually occur on this vacation) that SOMEONE in my fam would say "wow, you look good.  I can tell you have been working out hard".  while there, I was having a little trouble with my upper back and asked my dad to massage my shoulders for a sec to try and work the knots out…as he helped me  I directed him to the muscle where the biggest knot was, and he says (now, I adore my father so I am not saying by any means that he is a big ogre…) "there is no muscle back there, you are all bones!!"  I hang my head and walk out wondering wtf I am trying to do…Yes, I know I am too thin for many people’s tastes, and that’s fine (I get reminded now and then with random comments) but it’s not like I am sitting on my ass, doing nothing but starving myself.  At least I have squashed the notion that I am anorexic, they saw how much I eat…so I guess that’s good.  So, time to pick myself up and dust myself off…