TenaciousA’s BodyBlog

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

I gained 2 pounds…I know that this may seem trivial to some but I am SO FREAKING HAPPY!
Thank you God/creatine/eating/God/chicken/whatever!

Starts today with micronized powder….I am NOT excited at the prospect of some water retention but I am excited for the prospect of increased reps!  Thanks increased phosphorylation!

Decided that as a means to break the habit I have to keep a f’n journal…as in a 4th grade journal…anything to keep myself away from being a weak ass punk.  I’ve accepted the fact that to take back control of myself I have to keep myself distracted, an acceptable cognitive behavioral technique, until I am not anxious over my destructive behaviors.  I haven’t decided where this journal will be kept but it sure as hell won’t be on here as it would be too boring and too personal for everyone to endure.  I just want to get better AND to let my body show all of the work I put in, you know?

Okay y’all…I have been eating like a mofo and not doing ANY cardio compared to what I was….I know that JH is the man and knows what he’s doing but WTF?!?  I feel like I have been the same size for FOREVER…I’m pulling more weight but F not seeing it!
I suppose I’ll have to keep doing work….

I know and realized, as I have a thousand times before, that what I do outside the gym affects my performance…and my only weakness and threat thereof really may hinder my progress.  I’ve given myself a goal in place of this habit in attempt to break this habit: I want a freaking sixer by Christmas!  This four sh*t has got to be made into six.  I’m hoping to be committed to this gift to myself and hope that it will help me overcome.  I will never feel like a true competitor until I can break myself free of this freaking cycle!!!