Tasha40’s BodyBlog

Summer is almost over so now should be the time I’m looking forward to putting on some muscle, the gym will be cooler (we have no air con and it gets over 30 in there) and I can get some good training sessions in.

However, I have a ringing in my ear (tho not tinnitus) and a ‘crackle’ in the back of my throat. So, am on antihistamines to sort this out. Been taking both for a few weeks and naff all difference. Not sleeping well and everything seems to ache, but not been working out, well nothing like I used to! I have zero energy and the less energy I have the less I’m inclined to do and eat right. I’m turning from a fit to fat!! I got home yesterday and slept for 3 hrs, from 5 til 8pm. I just couldn’t stay awake and then found it really difficult to wake up, totally unlike me. Then obviously, I couldn’t sleep when I went to bed!! Grrrr! I just feel like someone has turned me inside out, back to front and spun me in a circle and now I’ve lost my way.

I’m putting the lethagy down to the tablets and the medicine, initially. But then I know I’m compounding the problem by eating rubbish. I very very rarely eat chocolate or crisps.. even had a pizza the other night, god knows why, I don’t even like them but got it as a girlie night in treat for me and my eldest daughter.. won’t bother again, I think I’m still digesting it! Chocolate ice creams and bars and the like, like I’ve never eaten before. I can feel the fat bubbling and exploding as I’m typing and my god, doesn’t it make you feel complete pants, how do people live off this stuff all the time??!!

I have recently bought a horse (A Spanish PRE stallion) he is lovely and we are getting to know each so I have been riding quite a bit and haven’t ridden like this for a long time.. which has made me very stiff in the butt area! lol So, I guess a little exercise there but, not like I need to do.

I feel completely at at sea and don’t seem to be able to snap out of it. I like my routine and my new boy has got me right out of that, since as soon as I finish work I have been driving over to his stable, 30 mins from where I work, but you have to time it right or it could be hrs due to traffic! I’m there for a couple of hrs and drive home make dinner, get stuff ready for work the next day and repeat. Gym isn’t in there at all.

My life is a little busy but I’m sure given that if I can be in 2 places at once, that I’ll come up with a plan, where I can ride and train as much as I need to and stop eating rubbish. 

So, I have given myself this week off (last week was off as well but that was spent doing a lot of horsey things) to sort my head out and get a routine in place and get myself organised, otherwise I will beat myself up and procastinate even more and get myself in an even bigger knot and downward the spiral towards the land of chocolate, crisps and heaven knows I might even start liking pizzas!

I have a 25 min walk home, mostly up a very steep hill, hmmm but I could catch the bus and eat a double decker on the way.. but NO.. I SHALL powerwalk home and do constructive things today. It’s daughter no 2s 16th birthday tomorrow so need to get things ready for her in the morning, cards and the like to open. I leave at 7am, so she’s not up then but at least she’ll have her cards and presents to open. 

I can then cook a gloriously healthy dinner and make my lunch for tomorrow and a healthy snack to take riding, (instead of grabbing some rubbish from the garage on the way before my stomach digests itself). So, sorting diet out for the rest of this week, I shall not give in and buy ice creams to walk home with (I nearly did yesterday but resisted.. oh well done me!) and I shall do nice chicken something with a bucket of veg for dinner

I shall re write my training plan, uuum sometime before Monday and next week I start training, 3 days a week and fit in riding on 2 of them and then riding the rest of the days. He needs riding or at least taking out every day if I can as he’s in a stable and not a field like he’s used to, he also needs to lose some weight, a bit too well looked after before!

I shall take some pics and post them.. yikes, I’m looking much errrm ’softer’ than I was.

I shall, take all measurements and post them

I shall be accountable for my actions

I shall not wallow around in my lethagy and self pity from Monday..

OK now I HAVE to do it!

I had some pics done last Thursday by a local photographer, outside.. it was cold, especially in a bikini! It went well and I am pleased with the results.  The more arty ones have come out lovely and the posing ones.. well lets say, I know what I need to work on!

Please take a look, constructive comments and ideas/suggestions on what and how to improve are most welcome.

The results are from me starting to loose the fat and keep the muscle there since Jan 1st, so around 2 months of work. I feel I have achieved quite a bit in those 2 months and am looking forward to what I can create in the next 12!!

Diet and training are going well, though I seem to have a cold right now but that’s on the way out and I have only missed one day of training and that day I was working on our house doing DIY, so not really a proper restful day anyway. 

Well as my previous post stated, I was really fired up for my work out on Saturday and really looking forward to doing my Legs and abs and trying to get my other half to train ‘with’ me.. ha ha..

Friday night we went out, he was a little worse for wear, but I was very good and had a litre of water and a cup of tea! Had some homemade hummus on toast just before I went to bed.. my stomach was gurgling A LOT. It didn’t taste ‘right’ but like was going to stop me! Around an hour after going to bed.. I started to feel sick. This theme continued most of the night and then around 6.30 am, it all came out.. yuk! The rest of the day was spent feeling decidedly sorry for myself and laying on the sofa, sleeping and drinking cups of white tea. Walking round doubled up due to the cramps and having the heater on full, cos I was so cold. We were supposed to be going out that night to a police do, but there was no way I could face eating a thing. Even though I had rang the restaurant and asked them to cook things in a certain way.. like no double cream in the red pepper sauce, I was having.. they must love me now! The other half still went.. I stayed on the sofa! Put my electric blanket on full and went to bed at 10pm, I was sleeping on the sofa anyway!

Sunday, I was much better (had my usual oats and egg whites for breakfast - yum!) but due to illness on Saturday hadn’t done a thing I had meant to do. Like shopping, decorating my daughters room, as promised, house work and the general stuff you have to fit in over the weekend, as a mum, on your days off ‘work’! So, headless chicken mode was assumed and we legged it round the supermarket, then other half went to Spain to pick up stuff from the house there, make sure it was ok etc.. I painted daughters room and she helped a bit. Just have one more wall to go but that was a different colour and we didn’t have that, something I should have got on saturday! Then cooked sunday roast, ironed, cleaned up etc.. by then it was 10.30 and time for me to go to bed.. so training done that day, buto i guess I was ‘active’ all day.

So, a new week for me now.. legs and abs today.. I’ll get them done, honest I will! Tho not feeling so fired up now.. still a bit ‘tired’ from feeling ill on Saturday. Though the weight/fat loss is coming on ok.. so things are going in the right direction, even if I do seem to have little hiccups every so often.. like every weekend it seems! But onwards and upwards!

I was worried about working my back out yesterday, since my left shoulder is sore I thought it wasn’t going to be a such a great workout and I was going to be disappointed. BUT NO, had a fab workout, shoulder was ‘there’ but not sore.. sooo was great, actually managed 12 wide grip pull ups and held the last one for a few seconds too.. been a long time since I have done that many straight off.. so was quite pleased with my little self. I’ve been doing around 8 or 9 and struggling to do any more! Bent overs I put the weight up too and rowing good.. and did more on the straight lat pull down at a higher weight.. then did a 5k row in my best time.. so was well chuffed with my little self.

Went to meet someone who I was hoping to recruit as a masseur for moi on a regular basis, was thinking once a week would be good, but  can’t afford 30quid a pop, so was hoping that we could come to an arrangement, but she mentioned it first.. since I’m qualified as a PT and she needs to get fit, I train her and she massages me and no need for money to exchange hands.. bloody great! Cracking good, old school, deep massage, just what I was looking for!

So, missed a meal as I was out with her, in the pub.. I had water and then a coffee, something that I very rarely drink, as in I can count the number of coffees I have in a year, on one hand!   Got in around 8.30, so late for me to eat, shoved a load of fish and veg and bulgar wheat in a dish and nuked it, before I raided a bin of cooked the cat! Hunger was abaited and I had a yoghurt before going to bed.. (A little habit, I’m finding really hard to break!)  Then I read my book, feeling all chuffed with myself, training and meeting had gone well and I’m building up the PT at bit as well..Lights off a midnight.. and I lay there and lay there and lay there. 0215, I has hungry again.. tried to ignore it but the noise and the cramp wasn’t going to go away, plus I still couldn’t sleep! Got up, had some yoghurt with sunflower seeds, and a white tea… then a lump of tuna.. read my book some more.. then decided at 0430, that since it was 2 hrs til I needed to get up, I really ought to get to bed. 0630 alarm went off and I have to say apart from a meeting at work, where I could really have fallen asleep (but then most meetings have the effect on me!) I’ve felt ok! Though was my day off from training, so not sure I would have done so well today on 2hrs sleep!! And kind of ready for my bed now and its only 2100hrs, but all in all.. surprisingly I don’t feel totally shattered.. maybe its still the effects of the coffee I had - lol

Bring it on tomorrow!!!
Night!
x

Trained Chest last night and really enjoyed it   I’ve got over my self beating up session for not going over the weekend.

Left shoulder is still sore and does impact on what I can lift, more in terms of I don’t want to really hurt it more by pushing harder but I do feel like I could at the time. During training, its a bit tender I guess and ok for an hr or so later, but later last night and today it’s hurting quite a bit more.. though isn’t feeling too bad now.. who knows!! Back to physio next week anyway for some more deep muscle stuff.

I also train alone, as in there isn’t anyone in the gym at all, so I have no one to spot me if I wanted to go heavy, so I probably miss out on the last rep or 2. On the odd occasion I can get my partner to go with me (he hates training with me) I get him to spot me, but he puts me off cos he keeps counting my reps out load! lol - bless him.

Back training today, not sure how that will go, as shoulder is sore BUT I am looking forward to it. Also, meeting with a massage therapist tonight to see if we can cut a deal for massaging me on a regular basis, so hoping she is a big and strong and can get in nice and deep cos that’s what I like, none of this namby pamby strokey strokey stuff..  

Am slightly p’d off right now. Didn’t train on Friday as youngest daughter had a ‘boy crisis’ she’s only 15 and arrived at my work in floods of tears.. so didn’t go training and stayed with her in the evening and did the chocolate fountain I had promised for so long.. that seemed to help!

Then Saturday I had planned out, other half was going to Spain to work on house (wreck) there and I was going to decorate our room at home. I could then go off training when I wanted and for as long as I wanted without anyone whinging at me. Other half then decided he wanted to stay home with me and help me, weather was awful and he didn’t fancy tiling in the freezing cold - understandable! So, then ended up not going training again, though did sand, paint, sweep up, paint, sand, clean up move furniture yadda yadda…. for around 8hrs solid. A similar scenario on the Sunday - still didn’t go training.

Now, I usually go a bit nuts (on the quiet, in my head) cos I’ve now missed 2 training sessions and I hate that and if I can’t keep to it and I should have made time and and and and …. my head spirals out of control and I hate myself for not going… but I’m trying to keep that under control. My daughter and her experience with her low life of a boyfriend and best mate (you can guess what happened) should be more important than me going training. I worked relentlessly all day Saturday and Sunday and didn’t stop until late at night each day, so though I didn’t go training, I’m trying to not think its the end of the world. I was working hardish physically for the whole day each day. So, I should get over it, I think? I’m trying but still p’d off with myself for not going but I honestly don’t know when I’d have fitted it in.. hmmm.

Unfortunatley though, due to painting/sanding etc both my shoulders are sore now!!!! One was a bit dodgey anyway, the left, but it did seem to be improving and I was training very carefully around it. My right, rotacuff a jiggered but exercises to combat that seem to work most the time but today especially, its sore, down through my bicep as well, it hasn’t been that bad for a while. So, now, doubly p’d off cos the work outs I missed were arms and shoulders!!! There is no way I can left  weights now and not do myself some serious damage I think, why does this happen when my training was going so well??

So, I’m trying not to kick myself too much. Will do legs and abs tonight and then off to see the physio re my shoulders. I’m still p’d off with myself though… ugggh!

I ate more meals yesterday, like 5 times before I left work!!

I start at 7.30 and finish at 1515. I think I spent most my time in the kitchen!  It went a little like this:

0645 Meal 1, 0930 Meal 2, 11.45 Meal 3, 1300 Meal 4, 1415 Meal 5. 1545 to 1700 Training, 1800 - meal 6 and last but not least 2100 - meal 7

All was clean, I don’t have a problem with that. I never sweeten anything or use salt either. I put everything in Fitday and my calories were the same as previous days and I could have missed the last meal I think. I just panic I’ll wake up in the night hungry, which has been known.

The split worked out between calories and grams of fats proteins and carbs, are below. I’m trying to cut too, so any advice on making changes will be greatly appreciated. I have made my fitday diary public so if anyone wanted to see more on what I have eaten then you can see it there.

 Thanks in advance!

Today I had to fit in 2 training sessions into one, as I didn’t go yesterday. I was pruning my orange trees, well some of them, I have 268 to work my through and whoever had them before us, didn’t bother pruning. I now look like I have been self-harming.. I’m covered in scratches, some quite nasty ones! Orange trees grow very long thorns, around 2 to 4cms… and they bloody hurt!! Also ache a bit from climbing up and down trees and contorting myself into weird positions around branches and thorns and to avoid loosing an eye, to cut the branches off!

Anyway, 2 training sessions today.. legs, arms and abs. Circuit style and supersetting stylie, due to time (I was supposed to be at work)!

First circuit - 3 times everything and rep ranges 15, 12 and then 10. Did circuit of exercises and then rested for 2 mins, then off again.

Squats, bicep curls, skull crushes, deadlifts, stability ball crunches, dorsal raises on the stability ball

Second Circuit - 3 times everything again, rep ranges as above but only 1 min rest between circuits.

Stability ball leg curls, leg extension (single leg), reverse cable bicep curl (single arm) and reverse tricep push down (single arm) Puking was an option at one stage, but I’m harder than that! So, fortunately my protein shake from earlier, didn’t make a appearance!

I missed out calf raises, standing and seated so shoot me.. I forgot in the rush! 

Tomorrow is a rest day, but I feel great now and now that I’ve had to cancel what I was going to do this afternoon due to work taking longer than expected (that’s IT for you) I want to go back.. clearly to find the screw I seem to have missing!

I just hope the rest of the week goes as well for training.

However, diet.. ugggh… this isn’t going so well. Below is a sort of average day of what I eat, I struggle a bit with an afternoon snack, as that’s when I train. So, I started getting up earlier to bring my whole schedule forward but I’m still hungry and I mean, my stomach hurts hungry in the evenings. Anyway advice, ideas all very welcome!

0630 1 whole egg, 6 egg whites, 240g spinach, 1 tsp flaxseeds (I power walk to work, takes 23 mins, start work at 0730)

0930 protein shake, 3 stick celery, nuts 

1200 3oz chicken, cup broccoli, 1tsp olive oil

1400 protein shake, green beans, 1 tsp olive oil  (this is where I struggle, but since bring my whole schedule forward I’m managing to fit it in before training.)

1530 training - weights, (cardio - sometimes), stretching, walk home.

1730 - 1800 home - 3oz chicken/fish 1 cup peas/sweet corn mixed, 1 tsp olive oil

2000 - 3oz tuna (in oil), .5 cup green beans

2200 - starving again! so I’ll have a yoghurt with some sunflower seeds.. my comfort food, apart from peanut butter and marmit on toast.. but have been good and not eaten that this year!! I know.. only 2 wks in.. but hey,  it sounded good! 

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OK, I gorged myself a tad over Christmas, a bit of it was for a quiet life and a bit of it was like a constant last supper! Knowing that come 1st Jan, I start to loose the blubber and rip it up for my 40th.. a practice run for competing next year if you will.

I am trying to keep the 500 cal deficit to get the 1 pound a week loss and using the calorie counter wotsit fitday.com. I have to say, I’m HUNGRY!!!!! To the point sometimes that if I found greasy, half eaten MacDonalds in a bin right now,  I’d eat it! And I hate MacDonalds or any fast food, but right now.. I’d eat one.

How do I stop from feeling so hungry??????

Hungry = grumpy = everyone diving for cover when I get home!

I’ve had a lovely Christmas and new year, my parents were over and they had a nice time too.. cos I wasn’t being silly and not drinking and eating all the crap you seem to ‘have’ to eat over Christmas and New Year. I was being ‘good’ and eating any rubbish within arms reach.. eeerm no, I don’t understand that either!

Anyway, for the sake of a happy Christmas with parents et al and the fact I thought I may as well, cos this’ll be it now for the next 4 months, I jumped in with both feet and ate and ate and ate.. healthy in the mornings and then slowly it’d go downhill during the day.. evenings spent horizontal on the sofa having a feeding frenzy on cheese.. (I love cheese) and possibly some chocolate, just for a good measure.. I did however manage one run… on the only day it hasn’t chucked it down… my legs ached for 2 days.. there are plenty of hills where I live, as much as I tried to run down hill, I still had to go up hill to get home again!!!

I haven’t been too worried re my massive food consumption as I knew I was going to be cutting it up from 1st Jan, still had one more meal with parents to ‘enjoy’ before they left.. post 1 Jan.. I’ve put on 2lbs in 2 weeks and I was bulking before that.. but I can’t kid myself, those 2 little pounds are extremely unlikely to be muscle! Last meal with parents was ok.. tuna salad and water.. tho was late as had been training before I met them and was running slightly late, the fact I had been training got an a look of disapproval, which I ignored  Not drinking wine? No… just been to the gym, so very thirsty and have to drive late.. wine not a good idea.. another look. .. again ignored.  Dropped them back at their place, had cuppa and no mince pies… was asked…hmmmm 4 times in the space of 20 mins and told how nice they were, the usual.. but with a lovely little smile said no… am a bit full from my tuna thanks… ugggh!!! I love my folks, I do.. but I do wish that when I say no thanks to something, they don’t have to look like I have just shot them!

They’re not back now til April, so hopefully I’ll be ripped up (oh please god) and no doubt will be told that I’m too skinny and look like a bloke.. or something equally as flattering 

Anyway, training is going well. Bar injuries, that just don’t seem to want to go away, but am getting physio’d to death at the end of the month to try and get rid of them for good!

Diet.. a complete bore.. but I’ll get used to it, never done it before and quite frankly I’m getting rather hungry, I’ve cut down on calories quite a bit, maybe a bit too much BUT I have an agreement with myself that I will do with for a month and see how I’m doing and then will re assess if I’ve not settled into it a bit better..

Man I could kill for a dollop of goats cheese on a digestive biscuit now tho!