Sweetpeach79’s BodyBlog

Family is so important! Who else do you have during trials, tribulations, and the happy times? Your family should be your rock when you have no one else to lean on and to give you that gentle push that we all need at some point along the way. My father is a great Christian man who really does love me. I know this and I have no question as to if he does. However he NEVER calls me to see how I’m doing, how my day went or simply ask how are you doing in school. The times I do talk to him are on his birthday, my birthday and Father’s Day. It really hurts me to know that he will not pick up the phone to see how is daughter is doing. I want to share my life experiences with him but it seems that he doesn’t reach out to me. I feel as if history is repeating itself and he is doing the same thing that he did to his own father.  I also have 2 older sisters that each have children. One of them has 4 kids the other 3 kids. I only talk or see them at Christmas. I have tried many times to reach out to them but they will not reiterate it back. Their kids do not know me and it is so sad! I hate that I have to carry this on my shoulders and it is really draining. I understand I should let go. I am 30 years old for crying out loud!!  It seems like I give, give and give some more but never reap anything back. I look at others families, and see how they are so close knit and that is what I long for.  I know it is something that I must accept and move on from but it still comes back to try to get me down. That is why this time I am writing about it rather than sulking and becoming depressed! I totally understand that everyone has a different upbringing and has had different challenges growing up, but sometimes I feel that I am the only one. I know I’m not but everyone at some point feels that way. The “oh woe is me” pity party! I am one to wallow in pity at times but I’m not going to let this get me down. I am a stronger person than that and I refuse to let anything, anyone or any situation bring me down anymore. What I will do is use it to fuel my desire to be all that I can be and all that I want to be. I will end this blog on a note that I LOVE my mom!! She is my rock and has always been there for me!!