Depressed
To say that the past month has been stressful in the family department is an understatement. I’ve long known that this lingering, awful cold is from all the stress breaking my immune system down. What I haven’t been facing is where some of the other ’symptoms’ are coming from. I’ve been sleeping an excessive amount. It takes me an hour to get out of bed in the morning. I feel ugly when I look in the mirror. I have no motivation to workout, much less do other things. My appetite ranges from being non-existent for 24 hours, to forming random binge urges (both I’ve which I’ve been keeping under control, thankfully.) Sometimes I just feel like crying for no reason. These things all get better when I’m not secluded at home. I have to face it. I’m lonely. But not just lonely, depressed. And it’s screwing with my training.
I’m going to the college counselors this week, because though I feel like crap right now, I have enough clarity of mind to not let this become a permanent thing. I’ll still reach my goals, this is just a small setback. I’m sure I’ll have weights in my hands again in a week or so. I just have to keep feeding myself as much positive thinking as I can manage.
January 24, 2009 at 5:55 pm
Sorry ya feel that way.Being alone does suck. Waking up alone every morning. Cooking for 1. Watching tv by yourself. Countless hours on the computer. Movie theater by yourself (guilty…haha). I can’t say anything to make ya feel better. Im going through the same thing! All I have is work, the gym, and my guitar. If the weather every f–kin warms up Im gonna be riding my ass off every day! But I’ll still be alone. Oh well, I say. Im alive, Im healthy, I can move around and enjoy this roof over my head. Plus, the internet helps. (I love bodyspace…)
I do hope ya feel better next week and get back into the gym. Keep that grin ya got goin!
January 24, 2009 at 6:03 pm
That’s a hard thing to deal with. I wish I had some magic answer for you. Seeing some counselors is probably a good idea. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
January 24, 2009 at 6:17 pm
I went through a depression like that and I hope you do see a counselor. That helped me a lot to talk through things and get perspective on everything. After that, I found something to occupy my time and gave me a sense of accomplishment and really boosted my mood.
January 24, 2009 at 6:17 pm
Hang in there, life real sucks sometimes but try to look a the good point in your life. Not the bad or try the glass half full not half empty. I wish you the best, hit the gym as soon as you feel better it help alot.
January 24, 2009 at 6:17 pm
You are not completely alone if you really think about it
January 25, 2009 at 5:13 am
Yup - definite depression there, kiddo. Good to see that you recognize that. Modifying your behavior will almost certainly help - forcing yourself to get out of the house, etc. And DO see that counselor. Hope you get some relief ASAP.
January 25, 2009 at 7:16 am
Definitely time to stop and ask for help, hopefully you’ll find somebody who understands your goals and helps you find your mojo.