SweetNightshade’s BodyBlog

But I’m better now.

I had a not-so-minor meltdown over the weekend. I have my last week of classes this week and then finals next week, and you’d think that the homestretch would be comforting, but I couldn’t for the life of me see how I was going to get through it. I’ve been working my butt off at school and, academically, it has been paying off. Yesterday was my induction ceremony into the Golden Key International Honor Society. But I was so effing exhausted that I had trouble mustering up the energy to care. Anytime I was around sweets this weekend - and I was, a lot - I couldn’t help but stuff myself with sugar. There was a lot of coffee involved too. It took me a couple days to realize what was going on: it wasn’t simply a matter of willpower, but a matter of survival. My body was desperately reaching out for anything that would boost it. I broke down crying for half an hour yesterday because my body was teetering on the edge of functionability. After 50 billion M&Ms and a cappuccino last night the zombie-like haze lifted and I could think clear enough to realize all this. So I nixed my earlier plan to take a break from workouts and diets till school was over and decided to become chemically dependent instead - just joking (hopefully). I took an OTC sleeping pill last night, and it gave me some solid rest without waking groggily. For the daytime, I bought a six-pack of 5 Hour Energy so I can slam one around siesta-time each afternoon. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this’ll work.

Time to go workout.

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