Disappointment
Well here we are again another blog another failure. Today I am really down for many reasons. First, it is a holiday and here I sit all alone with no one to share it with. It is hard not having friends or family yet another reason why I can’t wait to move to a place where there is more. Perhaps this will allow me to meet new people that will actually stay in my life. Secondly, my weight is up, up, up. I know that I am holding a lot of water weight but it doesn’t help that I have been eating nothing but junk for the past four days. I am certain that after the water weight I have gained around five pounds or so. What a vicious cycle it is!
I know why I eat the junk, it is out of boredom, and my soda intake it through the roof. I sit here with nothing to do and no one to talk to and I eat. I would go for a walk but we don’t have sidewalks here and the road I live on is not the safest. I am thinking about going and getting a mini stepper that I can use throughout the day. That way when I get hungry, or think I’m hungry, I can jump on and ride it out. I have also been thinking about getting a weighted vest for my workouts to try and keep it fresh. The vest would only be used on the treadmill because I am no where near Plyometrics, but it should help.
On another front I have found a Dietitian whose fees are according to your income I think this will help me greatly. She is registered and is at the clinic every Tuesday to help with your diet. I ran into that information by accident maybe this is fate telling me something. The fact is I don’t know how much I should be consuming and really what I should be eating according to how I workout. I have a general idea but I want to have a meal plan that is tailored to me and not someone else. I am going to call and try to get an appointment very soon so I can get on the right track.
Anyway, these are just a few of the things that I am dealing with right now and thought I would do an update. Of course any and all suggestions are welcomed and I hope that a few of you post so I can hear your thoughts.
Happy Thanksgiving!
November 27, 2008 at 9:48 am
Happy Thanksgiving Stryker. You’re not alone…WE’RE HERE!!!! LOL. I know it’s different not having anybody in person around but if it’s any consolation my only request from my wife was that she and the kids go away for the day. I deal with so many people on a daily basis (at both of my jobs and at home) that I am thankful for a moment of peace and quiet.
The dietician sounds like a great idea. And you probably want to start correcting your eating hobby at the grocery store. If you don’t bring it in your house you can’t eat it. But be sure to give yourself a planned "snack" so you don’t go 3 weeks without and then binge for 4 days to make up for the mental abuse you’ve put yourself through.
Hey, you got me!
November 27, 2008 at 9:56 am
I kind of know how you feel. My family is far away from me and I haven’t seen them since May. I even just had my new baby and they haven’t seen him in person yet. It’s hard, but I’m sure they would love knowing I’m taking good care of all of us. And your family would love to hear how well you’ve been taking care of yourself lately
Try to cheer up, like this guy says. We’re here. Even though not physically there. Try to have a happy Thanksgiving!
November 27, 2008 at 11:16 am
When I have days alone, I like to buy lots of magazines and/or rent videos and just waste the day away. Or even go to a movie. I do that alone. There are lots of ways to spend time alone without turning to food
Have a good holiday.
January 7, 2009 at 4:07 pm
You didn’t fail today - you tried, and you cared. That’s two thirds of what you need to do!
Hang in there girl!
Try dancing your heart out all alone in the living room. That was such fun when I lived alone… plus, it’s great exercise.
Who cares if you’re a good dancer?? It’s fun!!!
Hang in there - let me know if I can ever help you in any way.