Strive4Life’s BodyBlog

So alot of time has passed and i went from doing great, to having a break, to doing nothing, straight into depression.  The past 4 months iv stoped going to martial arts, stoped eating right and became very depressed because of the people i work with.  I let it all get to me way too much, i was about to quit my job and say screw everything in life.  I started bindge drinking so much that i should be dead and it drug me down even farther to the point that it wasnt them anymore, it was me keeping myself down.  Now im angry at myself, time to get this truck back in gear and stop letting other people control my happyness.

ARGGHHH very frusterated with myself, the last 3 weeks iv gone from extreme to ill go tomarow and from eating right to, i dont have any grocerys and a taco wont hurt me as long as its just today.  Im starting to get back into old habbits, Drinking a Monster Energy drink, spending more time playing games than doing my martial arts. im getting depressed with myself, ill make it half way through the day motivated and ready to go and then somewhere ill mess up and then end up not going to the gym.  I dont want to lose my motivation but it seems to hapen after work everyday now.

By looking in the mirror i cant tell that i lost alot of the fat around my mid section. Its like your mind gets used to seeing yourself everyday that its hard to notice any change.  When i look at my starting pic and then look at todays pic, there is a major difference.  This keeps me very motivated and if you have not done progress pics i would advise you do.  You can see things change that you can’t see from looking down at your body or in a mirror.  This month is Ab’s month! i expect alot of change but i dont want to let myself down so i try and keep the excitment to a low roar. 300 sit-ups a day, diffrent types, 4-5 days a week.  i can handle this better than last months 1,000 kick’s.

Im a bit worried about my 5th meal when i work out i have to move it from 6pm to about 8- 8:30pm because of martial arts. I do take a protein shake when i get home right afterwards.  But i try to go to sleep at 9:30-10pm so i can wake up at 6am for work.  Im wondering if i could just take the protein drink after the workout and not eat since ill be going to sleep around an hour and half later, maybe take two scoops instead of one.  If anyone reads this please give a comment.

These are the songs i use to get hyped up for fighting. The ones in Bold font really get me going

Atmosphere: The Arrival

Brasco: Uh Oh

Common: Universal Mind Control

Consequence: Night Night

Dilated Peoples: Back Again

DJ Khaled: Go Hard

Fabolous: Breathe

Fort Minor: Remember The Name

Kanye West: Stronger

Kray Twinz: Round One

NAS: Hate Me Now

Nelly: Heart Of A Champion

Roy Jones Jr.: Body Head Anthem

Roy Jones Jr.: Can’t Be Touched

T.I.: Live Your Life (feat. Rihanna)

Akon: Never Gonna Get It (feat. Sean, Biggs & Topic)

Three Six Mafia: It’s A Fight