Random thoughts

Its funny how we work so hard to get something that we "think" we want really badly only to realise later that we don’t really want it at all.  This has occured in a few instances during my life; like that job I wanted so badly and worked hard to get to then realise that its not what I thought it would be.  That house that I had to have because it was new and "perfect" only to
find after living there that it was so overly perfect that it was sterile, had no character and it couldn’t feel like home no matter what I did.  That someone I admired and thought the world of and did anything for their attention then only to realise that, that someone was not who or what they pretended to be.

Today at the gym I had another realisation, but a good one.  I was jogging on the treadmill and I could see this woman on the equipment in front of me.  Yes, I check out other women and how they look and what exercises etc they do at the gym.  I’m probably as bad as the guys but I’m sure I’m not the only chic that does this.  This woman must have been in her late 30’s or early 40’s and she was really fit, a lot fitter than me.  She was probably the
leanest and most muscular chic that I’ve seen at the gym, her entire body is bulging with muscle and must not have an inch of fat or curves.  I then realised that this was not what I wanted even though for the past 12 months I thought that it was.  Although I appreciate and admire how hard this woman has worked for her physique, at a glance you would think that she was a man which is what I initally thought.

I thought about how much I love my womanly curvy body and realised how I don’t want to let it go.  I usually critisize myself for not being as fit and muscular as I thought I should be but for the first time I was really satisfied with the way I have progressed and realised I am much closer to my fitness goals than I thought.  This is a good feeling and its given me that extra motivation to just tone (not build) what I have with a focus on my legs and only build my shoulders, arms and back just a little bit more for proportion.  So this is what I want NOW.
It will be interesting to come back and read this to see if what I want changes again.  I will come back and post another update if it does

I wanted to stop by and write this today as I’ve just got back from a hiking trip and I want to write how I feel while this is still fresh in my mind.  I went hiking in Tasmania on the Overland Track, I did this over 5 nights and 6 days and did the side trips up the mountains and to the lakes each day.  Most of the people that started the track the same day I did competed it at a similar pace, most of them were between 20 to 40 years old.  There was one guy I met right at the start, he was 71 years old and he come across as a really really fit 50 year old.  After getting to know this fella throughout the hike I learnt a lot about his life and lifestyle, he was in the army for some years then the special forces in Germany.  He never smoked and only drank on special occasions.  His diet was most foods in moderation but very low in fat and almost no processed foods with a lot of it coming from his own organic vege garden.  He swears that he has not been sick in almost 15 years, no colds, flus or anything and if you seen this guys health you would believe everything he had to say.  Although to some people it may seem like he had sacrificed a lot of the good things in life, to me after hearing about some of his life experiences it seemed like he had lived the most fulfilling life ever.  He makes me want to be a better person and live the healthiest life possible so I can to enjoy good health when I’m old and be as active as possible. My hat comes off to you Hans as you are my biggest inspiration!