Taking Back the Sport

So last night I kicked a wall after a disappointing set of biceps and now I have a chipped bone in my right foot, ****ing figures!!!!!!

I know my goals are high, but I’m hoping when September 27th rolls around, and I will be coming in at no more then 5.5% bodyfat at an all natural contest that I will not only win my Novice class but the entire show. The show is in Scarborough, Maine. I’m not sure what the number of contestants is going to be like, but I’m surrounded by the likes of Tony Atlas and Ryan Henson for tips and guidance. If anyone just happens to be traveling up here that day to compete hit me up, but yeah I think I have a good shot to at least beat any first timer up here, but does anyone have some insight to all natural contest?

not anything too serious but a strained left bicep and tricep certainly doesn’t help matters, so I did they reasonable thing today in my shoulder arm work and just did shoulders and for the next two nights im going to take it easy and ice and prepare to have a good chest back workout Monday before touching arms on Wednesday.

So I’m lifting today and I see this guy who I haven’t talked to in a long time. He hasn’t seen my since my transformation so I looked drastically bigger. I mention to him and he’s a small dude but a cool guy that I’m doing an all natural show come september 27th. We talk and then I go about my business. I’m about to hit my t-bar row when this huge gigantic power lifting type of guy walks up to me. I though he wanted a spot because I has never seen this guy in the gym. But he comes up to me and I had to pause my ear bud headphones to see what he wanted. He reaches his hand and totally catches me off guard. He says" So I heard you saying you were entering an all natural contest." I relplied with a solid "Yes.?" And he come with "That is just freaking awesome man I really respect you. I have friend that juice and they will shoot past me sometimes, but when they’re off they shrink and I stay the same with gradual growth." I interjected with " Yea, I’m 100% all natural and I’m only 20." The guy looked at me with a holy shit look. I almost started blushing. He then said" You know congratulations, your going to be something special in the future just stay true, that way you last longer and live better." The conversation just gave me such an inspired looked to what I’m accomplishing through my naturally grueling work ethic. I love this sport and I love this community on bodyspace.

I haven’t been bald and without facial hair since my Junior year of high school. I looked at that picture recently and I looked like someone in prison who shanked a guy, and I figured I’d bring it back lol

This question that I am posing, is a new twist on the old question about Olympians. The old question, posed to many world class athlete back in the day was. "If I could give you a pill, that would guarantee you a gold medal in all your events, but would kill you a week later. Would you take it?" I can’t remember the exact statistics but I remember the amount of people who said yes, was above or at least at 50%, who said they would, just for one gold medal. So my question is not whether you personally would take a pill or an injection for guaranteed success but rather what is your opinion of the person who does decide to take that injection, and the pills and all the illegal and profoundly dangerous steps to ensure their place in this crazy world of bodybuilding. I want you people to think on another side of this. I know people who do this naturally are supposedly respected more. But think about this. These guys who are steroiding know full well the health problems that lie ahead of them. Think about the amount of dedication it take to know that in order to reach the top it means your premature death. They will not enjoy a long fore filling life like us natural lifters. They have on average 50 years tops to live, and in those final years you have organ failures, testosterone and hormonal imbalances. They pay the ultimate price for being on the top of this industry. It’s almost compared to the original Marlboro man. Yes he made his money and  enjoyed his temporary fame, but paid for it by a life with cancer. It’s like being a good person and making a deal with the devil. Because if you don’t  there is no other way to reach the top. In my honest opinion I kind of pitty and feel a rock in my stomach for what these guys are willing to do to achieve immortality by comparison of the absolutely ridiculous bodies they create. I want to know who the body building community feel when they consider this side of the ugliness of our sport?

I’m a go getter, have been since I was a little kid. I always tried to push other kids to do things with me. To be adventurous and active. I was a different kind of leader back in the day. One that lead by example but was never afraid to embarrass myself. Growing up and moving around got to me and made me quite for a while but as soon as I got my feet planted in this beautiful state of Maine I realized something. These athletes in general were lazy F**kers. So I did what I did best shot right past them. I’ve always have set goals and no matter how big or small have gone through great lengths to accomplish them or got too seriously injured in the process. But I still didn’t just give up, I would reevaluate them and see were my next logical step was. Now my next step and probably my calling all along is bodybuilding. I’ve been given all the natural gifts I need to compete and the fire that burns inside me is forever burning. I feel though looking around that I’m a dying breed, it’s not that life gets in the way, it’s that you let it get in the way. You always have a choice and input on what your future is going to be like. I’ve always been told that I can’t accomplish my goals for whatever reason. Right now what is driving me is the fact that none of my previous gym friends think I can get my pro card in my first show, but who the f**k are they. I got started because my friend said he was going to compete in the same show and I got excited now I tell him he’s a little bitch for saying that he wants to wait. Wait for what I ask, you got to get experience by competing not watching other have more balls than yourself. I find myself being 20 years of age and seeing the world through the eyes of a wise man with centuries of experience under his belt, yet my eyes are still fresh and seeking more and more knowledge. I love life so much and want to accomplish a great amount, so when I die I’m not just another body lying beneath the earth.

So here am am working a 1 to 11 on this lonely 4th of July night, but I’m looking forward to a date with Mr sweat and hard work later in the sprint workout I will be doing on the track around 11:30ish

Its like a second breath at the end of a race, it’s like being able to dig deep in the forth quarter. It’s like sunshine on a rainy day. My wife is gone and I now find my life full of possibilities and I have more motivation than ever. Yesterday I woke up and for the first time since being engaged over a year and a half ago I felt alive. I didn’t have this overbearing weight hanging over me distracting me from my goals. I hit the weight room like a beast . I had so much energy just being high on life. I guess my lesson that I learned from my marriage was not to let someone get me down. To be true to myself, to not feel guilty of being who I am and what I am trying to achieve. I realize that we are only given one body, one soul, one chance at life and it’s way too short to be wasted arguing with another human being. I do not believe in marriage consoling or that things no matter what should just be worked out. I believe being human means we can make mistakes. No one seems to think that marriage can be a mistake because it’s sacred, but what if it was a mistake. The point of marriage is to spend your life with the person that will help you succeed, love you, support you, care for you, understand you, and know that you are who you are. But in today’s world of always on the go sometime we rush into things that we feel are right without scratching beneath the surface. I feel a divorce is the same as breaking up with a boyfriend or girlfriend, except that you have a deeper knowledge of what you want in a relationship, but just like dating and breaking up its because your still searching for what you want. So with every failed marriage you should take something from it, and I don’t mean the house and the kids and you ladies taking the poor dog, lol. But lessons, which is what life is about and that how we find happiness, though life’s lessons. I mean everything that propels us towards our goals we get closer by learning, either going to school, apprenticeships, listening to your elders or someone that went to school. Relationships are no different because their are no courses to teach you want you need and want in a relationship. So when we start it’s like trial and error, someone may go through hundreds of relationships before getting it right. But even if they feel it’s right nothing is perfect. It’s at that point when you have to evaluate the situation and see if you can be with this person and still be who are and accomplish what you need to do. I got married to try to fix my relationship with this girl but it was only a small patch on a huge leaking ship that was bound to sink, and it did. But as the final moments grew near like the captain of a ship I stayed on the ship. I tried to do my part but when the ship finally sunk I saw a life line that was thrown to me. It was my dreams and hopes in the form of letting go of that ship. To let it sink and let it be. Because when I grabbed that life line, my prospective changed. I had an enlightening of the heart, I had no hatred towards what was lost for hating her would only make me bitter. So I held my head up high and when that ship tried to salvage itself I took it upon myself to put it out of its misery. Today I feel like a new man, but its the same man that had such a drive that no one could stop him. A man who didn’t yell or get angry at the small things. A man with a vision and the tenacity and determination that could overcome any obstacle . I’m me. I feel as if this opportunity that has been presented to me is my calling to focus and get my pro card come September 27th. For my second wind is what is going to separate me from all those who doubt me.