Things I miss…
I miss Caramel Macchiatto’s from Starbucks and the major buzz it gives me. I’ve basically given up coffee, because it requires cream and sugar and I’m not replacing it with processed substitutes, so I’ll just go without! I miss buffalo wings and french fries. I really miss HAPPY HOUR! Gone are the days of Friday night Apple Martinis… 
But what I really miss the most is walking into the room and turning heads, I really miss laying on the beach in a 2 piece suit, I miss wearing tank tops and shorts and I really miss shopping for small, nice fitting clothes. Even more than that, I miss my self-esteem, feeling sexy and having dates.
I remember when I was younger and much smaller how I dreaded being approached or gawked at merely because of my physical appearance. I always felt there is so much more to me than my appearance. Unfortunately, we can’t have it all and people will almost always sum you up based on your appearance. However, now that I know who I am both inside and out, I want to go back to a time when I felt good about myself and had the confidence to walk into a room without feeling bad about the way I looked. If you want to stare based on my appearance alone, I can live with that now, because I know who I really am and that’s all that matters.
Therefore, I will continue on this journey. They say the first 2 weeks are the hardest and they certainly have been. I hope to go on a little stronger, harder and even more determined because I want that Beach Body back!
One day at a time, one day at a time. (repeat) <—–my daily mantra these days!
June 3, 2007 at 8:32 pm
Keep it up girl!!! You WILL get there….I am totally with you on the whole appearance thing! I was never what I considered to be skinny..but I was Healthy/ to most pretty hot! I would give anything to get that back!! Being on bodyspace has really helped me, there are so many people out there who know where u are coming from and encourage you every step of the way! Have a great week..please keep me poseted..I hope to talk to ya soon
June 5, 2007 at 9:28 am
Missing foods takes a while to get over! But if you eat clean long enough, you CAN actually get to the point where the bad stuff doesn’t even tempt you. In fact, you’ll look down your nose at the junk foods as just flavor fillers instead of fuel for the new hot you. You’ll realze you deserve more than any moccachino or scone can offer.
As to the physical, it might be nice if everyone saw us for what’s on the inside, but that still wouldn’t make us healthy. And advertisers have long known that while contents matter, it’s packaging that makes the initial sale, and content that makes the subsequent sales. So get the attention with the hot new you you’re working on, then show them the even more beautiful person inside if they can handle it.
You can do it!
June 5, 2007 at 10:25 am
just dont quit….
its not easy but doable… if you put your mind to it… you can do it..! good luck!
June 8, 2007 at 7:38 pm
I know exactly what you mean. I recently started going to the gym again. Its hard but in the long run well worth it. Stay focused. You can do it.