Committed to The Cause

I finally worked out my arms this week.  Seems like I’ve been focusing more on legs and cardio and I can still feel the pain from Wednesday’s leg workout, but not as bad as it was yesterday.  Did really well on the weights, but could only do 25 minutes of intense cardio as opposed to my usual 1 hour session.  No doubt it has to do with the fact that I only had a bowl of cereal this morning at 8:30 a.m. and worked out at 1 p.m. with nothing else to eat until 3 p.m.  Not good, I know.  I find it hard to stick to my meal plan on the weekends because I’m not confined to a schedule the way I am during the week.  You get up when you want to, eat when you want and workout when you want to on the weekends as opposed to weekdays, when your days are very structured.  At least that’s the way it is for me.  It’s 4:20 now and have no idea how I’m going to cram another 700 calories into my day without it have adverse effects.  Maybe I’ll just stick to veggies and protein shakes.  I don’t know.  Well tomorrow is leg day again.  Can’t wait!!!  I love leg day!

Ahhh made you look!  LOL!  I see all these gorgeous bodies on here but only the ladies get really into the photo thing - some photos are border line pornographic, but whose complaining, right?!?!?!  hahaha!  My thing is that I’d like to see the guys on here with the really hot bods post up so hot booty and leg shots.  So far I have only found a few who really put it out there.  So come on guys, let’s see those butts and legs!  LOL!  I mean the chest, arms, abs are all hot, but what about the rest of ya???  Send me a PM if you fall under this category.  Let the games begin!!!!

Finally back in an actual gym and training has never felt better.  Did legs today, fully expect to be completely sore tomorrow.  Getting out of bed alone, will prove to be challenging.  I should probably invest in a walker for the day after legs.  Kidding!    My diet has been really clean and the calories steady around 1300 a day.  I’m a little concerned that I’ve only dropped 7 lbs in the last month, since I’ve been eating this way all along.  I’ve considered the possibility that perhaps I am not eating enough, but that always makes me nervous, to think that I should actually be eating more.  Hmmmmm…..  I welcome any and all input in this regard.  I do eat a little more on days that I have a lot of cardio and a more intense weight session.  We’ll see how it goes the next few weeks.

Finally got back in the gym this week.  A real gym!  I had been working out at home and doing my thing, but the intensity just wasn’t there for me, which I really need in order to stay focused.  I just wasn’t feeling challenged with what I was doing at home, even though I push myself to the point of exhaustion, it isn’t the same as hitting the gym.  I think it’s all about the atmosphere as well, everyone is really pumped up and hitting it hard and it gives you that extra push you need.  Needless to say, I’m really sore, I might have overdone it just a bit, but it’s a good feeling.  Still feels a bit intimidating, but once I plug in my iPOD, I get lost in my music and forget that I’m in a room full of people trying to accomplish the same goals or better themselves.  You almost have to take on the attitude of, "so what if they’re looking at me", otherwise you’ll never attain your goals.  I saw people in that gym yesterday, who have so much more to achieve than I do and my heart just went out to them because even though my goal is much smaller than their’s, it’s still difficult and challenging and at times seems like you’re never going to reach the finish line.  Then I thought to myself, wow my obstacles are so much smaller than others who will no doubt take years to attain their goals and it really helped me put it in perspective.  I can do this!  And it’s not going to take me years, the way it would others.   So, no more excuses…time to step it up!   And for those of you who will take a bit longer to get there, don’t quit until you do…

I miss Caramel Macchiatto’s from Starbucks and the major buzz it gives me.  I’ve basically given up coffee, because it requires cream and sugar and I’m not replacing it with processed substitutes, so I’ll just go without!  I miss buffalo wings and french fries.  I really miss HAPPY HOUR!  Gone are the days of Friday night Apple Martinis…

But what I really miss the most is walking into the room and turning heads, I really miss laying on the beach in a 2 piece suit, I miss wearing tank tops and shorts and I really miss shopping for small, nice fitting clothes.  Even more than that, I miss my self-esteem, feeling sexy and having dates.

I remember when I was younger and much smaller how I dreaded being approached or gawked at merely because of my physical appearance.  I always felt there is so much more to me than my appearance.  Unfortunately, we can’t have it all and people will almost always sum you up based on your appearance.  However, now that I know who I am both inside and out, I want to go back to a time when I felt good about myself and had the confidence to walk into a room without feeling bad about the way I looked.  If you want to stare based on my appearance alone, I can live with that now, because I know who I really am and that’s all that matters.
Therefore, I will continue on this journey.  They say the first 2 weeks are the hardest and they certainly have been.  I hope to go on a little stronger, harder and even more determined because I want that Beach Body back!

One day at a time, one day at a time. (repeat) <—–my daily mantra these days!

I’ve been busting my butt for the last 2 weeks and all I have to show for it is a 2 lb. loss and that’s probably just water weight anyway!!!!  What’s up with that?!?!?!  I could see if I weren’t working hard at it, but I am…     Well, I’m off to the GYM - all the more reason to work harder…