SmashinSnoflake’s BodyBlog

 Oh boy, now that I have lost 83lbs over the last 2 years I find myself having another problem…….leaning out and building some definition!! I struggle with weight training I want to have fab abs and awesome legs and glutes but I just can’t seem to get into a really great weight training routine!  I am good for about 2 weeks then something happens and I skip one training session then another! I know that I will never get where I want to be if I can’t be consistant.   I am tired of hearing about how I have no butt! l know that already….lol!  I never miss Cardio, but when it comes to weight training I just freak myself out or something, I don’t really know what to do at the gym, and I feel like a dork like everyone is watching me and saying what the hell is she doing, she’s doing it all wrong.  Its like I have a phobia of making a fool out of myself.   Has anyone else felt this way and how did u overcome it? 

 I think this is a great site and I am so glad I found it when spying on my now ex husband who was using it for meeting women….lol!  Lately people who were once supportive are now telling me not to lose anymore that I am becoming too skinny?  I wonder if this is true?  Or are they just a little jealous of the former "fat" friend who now is smaller than them?  I know my Grandmother dosn’t feel that way she just thinks I don’t eat enough, and that who needs to diet and exersice anyway thats just her.  However my best friends are saying enough already and saying that I am becoming addicted to this lifestyle, I don’t know how to explain to them that I am not addicted I am enjoying myself and discovering strengths I didn’t know I had?  When we go out to eat they always order loads of fatty, creamy, fried foods, and I get a chicken breast and some steamed veggies….then they harrase me about it the whole time.  How do u explain to people that just because you don’t eat the same as they do anymore dosn’t mean your not the same person?  When I get up at 6:00 am they look at me like I am crazy!  And say stuff like I could never do that, as if I am putting them down for not doing it. I am not I am just proud of myself for doing it and wanted to share that with them.  I feel like I can’t talk to them about it and now I am leading a secret exercising and dieting lifestyle.   I just wonder why people pretend to be supporting you in the begging and then stop when you start suceeding?  Is it because they never thought you would be able to do it?  Also latly I have been feeling huge when I look in the mirror I see fat here and fat there I just don’t feel good enough!  But it makes me push harder because I want to see those areas tighten up and become the woman I want to be. 

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