Sillytweet’s BodyBlog

Well, I am back to eating clean and taking my supplements!!  I weigh in at 116.  Considering not working out my 3 days and doing cardio along with eating kinda crappy… I havent gained anything.  What I have notice is my legs… They are getting jello again….. so… back on my diet!!!  Its another 12 weeks on my own with the help of Rachel at Beverly International. Gotta love them!!!  Wish me luck and I am posting new pictures this week …. lets see how much my body fell apart!! … It will be a good laugh!! 

When I got back from my cruise, I wasnt into working out or eating right. It took a couple of days to withdraw from the junk food. Also since the cruise, I have been having dizzy spells and have been very tired.    So I went to the dr, thinking I might have a ear infection, which I dont. I have no clue whats going on with my body.  I stop taking the supplements, thinking that might help and so far I have been fine but still tired.  I am basically taking a month off. Well, today will be a month since I stopped working out. I have done a couple of days of cardio but as of weight trainning, I have done 1 day a week.   At first it was the dizzy spells and now..  I just dont know why I dont feel like working out. I guess maybe I am happy with my body?  But I cant just stop…or I will gain again.  I have been eating clean durning the week and on the weekends I might cheat two to three times.  I guess its better than eating crappy all week and the weekends. So I’ve decided to start back up in June. So starting in June will be my next 12 week transformation.  I dont know how much more I can loose though. Its always harder to loose that last couple of lbs of fat you have on your body.  I feel really gulity for not working out that much but I was working out hardcore for 3 and half months. I guess I deserve a break. Right?  Ahhh…. 

Well, right before I left on my trip on 4/14, I weighed in at 114.5. I lost 3 lbs in a week. Finally the Beverly International Products kicked in.  It fiqures it would kick in right before my cruise.  My Cruise….. awww.. it was so nice to relax.  It was hard for me to relax and cheat at first.   I only did one day of weight training with cardio and then a separate day of cardio.  The rest of the week I took off… I heard that if you dont workout for a week then it will shock your body when you start working out again. So hopefully I will shock the hell out of my body. As for food on the ship.. I kinda ate good.. kinda ate bad.  In the morning.. I added cheese to my eggs and I ate fruit along with my oatmeal.  For lunch .. I ate bad.. pizza, burger with fries, or sometimes salad with fruit with no protein.  Dinner.. I ate good but then I had dessert. The first couple of days I had the sugar-free desserts but it just wasnt cutting it … being on vacation and all.  So I feel really guilty but yet.. I deserved a break from 4 months of intense work.  So now.. I am home.. trying to get on schedule.  I am now craving the sweets again.. and I have to get over the fact that I am not on vacation anymore.  I weighed in yesterday at 117. So.. I gained 2-3lbs which I am hoping it is all water weight. My husband .. of course said he couldnt tell if I had gained anything.  So…. I will post new pictures next Monday.  I dont know if it will be pretty!!!   So …. I hope you all will send me encouraging words… saying it was okay to cheat and not to workout. Not that its an excuse… but the gym sucked!! =)  

P.S. I would like to thank you all for your comments about my progress.  It makes me feel great and helps me on bad days.  Heres to another 12 weeks!!!    

Well yesterday I went through my whole closet!!  I figured out what my problem is….. my weight is at my hips (hip bones) and a little at my love handles. I was thinking to myself…. I was SKINNY. Back then .. I thought I was fat too.. and needed to lose some.  Now I understand how everyone told I didnt need to at that time in my life.  We are talking about size 0/1.  I wish I never complained about the weight. I was also wondering as you get older… do you tend to add weight on the hips or maybe my hips expanded for bareing childern later in life….. any other women experience this?  So anyways…I could fit in alot of my old clothes but they were snug.  Thats size 0/1’s.  I read in a magazine that today’s size 3’s is nothing compared to size 3’s back 10 years ago.  Maybe thats why its so hard to find jeans.  Anyways… I will be posting my new pictures next Tuesday. I hope I have changed in the past 4 weeks.  Otherwise.. I am doing good!!

So … I am having a bad day.  Thinking today…. I’m gonna get a pair of jeans since I lost some weight.  NOT!!  Of course …  size 3’s are still too small because I have a ****ing huge ass and my inner thighs need to be a little bit smaller. Size 5’s fit but they are a little loose.   What kind of jeans are being sold out there?  Are they promoting tooth pick women?  I am just so pissed off. All the hard work I have been doing and its down the drain going shopping. Then I get my body comp tested yesterday. Take a look from the start.  This is being done by the BodyStat 1500. It says I am 25% fat. How can that be.. doing 3 days of cardio, 3 days of weigh training, eating ****ing clean and I am only cheating one meal a week!!  They say that there is a 3-4% error with this machine.  I am real close to giving up. How much fat can you loose in a 12 week period?  I trying get to 15%. I know… just go by your looks… well.. I am back to numbers now.. because I cant fit into a size 3. That just pisses me off!!!  I think I am about to accept that I will never get in a size 3 again. 

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I was so excited today when I tried on my honeymoon shorts from last year. They were loose.  They fit better today then last year. Last year I weighed 112 and today 118!! How exciting!! My next goal is to fit into my smallest jeans Ive got. I used to wear them about 4 years ago. 

Does anyone else experience this?  You always get asked why are you eating this…. why do you need 4 ozs?  Your so small now.. why no pizza? Well… to in order to stay this skinny.. I CHOOSE NOT TO EAT THE DAMN ****ING PIZZA. Please just stop questioning my eating habits.  And NO dont feel sorry for me.  Like I said its a freaking choice!!  You make a choice to eat the cake, the pizza, the fries, ice cream, chips, candy and whatever else is out there…. . I make a choice to save it for once a week…. Not 3-4 times a day…everyday. This why I am this way and you are that way.  Comeon people!!!!  It just drives me insane and I have only been doing this seriously for almost 8 weeks. 

I am still motivated to transform my body but now we just booked a cruise in mid April. So its on…. I weighed myself this morning and I am 118. I havent been drinking at least a half of gallon of water for the past couple of days so I wonder if I weigh a little less.  So.. I have 8 weeks to loose 8 lbs of fat.  Can this be done?  I think I am at a stop right now because the first 4 weeks of the body transformation I lost the 3 lbs and now…I am on my 7th week…. and I havent lost anything.   So .. I am going to add 2 more days of cardio.  (total 5 days of cardio -30 mins)  This better do it…. or I am gonna scream!!  I never thought that loosing fat would be hard and same for building muscle.  This is what I dont understand:

4-5 years ago.. I weighed 115 and I was a size 3-5. I started working out 3 days a week. I did cardio 15 minutes before and after workouts.  At that time my job made me move around alot… enough to get me sweaty sometimes.. and in about 5-6 weeks.. I droped to a size 0.   I only had 4-5 meals if that durning that time. So I just dont understand how it was so easy before and now its not.   Would doing 15 mins before and after workouts along with 30 mins of cardio in the morning too much?

My weight was 120-121.   I now weigh 117.5 as of 2/10.  I have lost lbs but my inches are the same. So does that mean I am maintaining my muscle and loosing fat?  I asked on the forums and they said as long as I am happy with my progress and what I look like in the mirror .. that I shouldnt worry about inches.  My goal was 115lbs with 15% body fat. I dont know what my goal is anymore.  Sometimes I think about giving up because my husband and I are fighting alot more compared to once a month fight.   My mood swings are up and down within a couple of minutes.  I been trying to add more free calories to my diet .. thinking that might help.   I was thinking about entering a competition but with my mood swings now….. how am I suppose to manage them when you its really cut throat on your diet.  Gosh.. I am not really sure its the diet. 

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