Shannon’s BodyBlog

The house is sooooo quiet right now.  You know why?  Because my husband took the kids OUTSIDE OF THE HOUSE….OFF THE PREMISES….for dessert.  To an ice cream stand.

He originally was about to tell me that he was going to…..nevermind.

And I said, "Get something I’m not supposed to have."

"Right", he said.

I told them to make sure they finish it all at the ice cream stand.

It makes eating clean so much easier when the rest of your family believes in the benefits of it.  They’re not as strict as I am because they don’t have to be, but they appreciate it.
I haven’t cheated at all for these past 4 days, but I noticed a bag of Doritos on a kitchen counter of someone’s house on a TV show I was watching.

I was mesmerized by it for a few seconds, but then I snapped out of it and asked myself what would be the benefit of me eating something like that.  Not that I could crawl into the TV and snatch the bag followed by a proper pigging out.
On to days 5 through 30.

I took new measurements this morning and I lost 4" around my waist.  Pretty cool.

While doing my circuit training my 5 yr old son asked, "Why do people not work out more?"

My daughter said because they’re already strong.

He corrected her and said, "No.  If people exercised, it would make the fat go away and the strong will come back."

He gets it.

Breakfast:  1 whole egg

3 egg whites

whole wheat toast

coffee w/ skim
Snack:  apple

Lunch:  london broil (4.5 oz)

broccoli

romaine salad

Snack:  banana

Dinner:  swordfish

spinach

sweet potato

Snack:  cottage cheese

Circuit:  1 1/2 sets

Cardio:  550 calories

I didn’t eat all of the vegetables I was supposed today and it really made a difference in my energy level by the middle-to late in the day.  And I was ravenous by the time I started making dinner.  I think I took in too little protein as well.  Eating a fair share of each is important.  The last time I ate too little I felt the same as I do today.  I’m paying closer attention to the foods I eat and how it affects me.

So, if I eat plenty of egg whites, lean protein, apples, and broccoli I do really well throughout the day.  Those foods worked the best for me.  If I keep eating those, I’ll be an vegetarian apple laying chicken soon.

But, variety is important, so when I go out grocery shopping I’ll be sure to buy enough foods to experiment with and see what works to maintain my energy and keep my appetite satisfied.

Breakfast:  cottage cheese

whole wheat toast (dry)

coffee w/ skim

Snack:  Protein bar (160 calories, 20 grams protein)

Lunch:  Leftover Chinese takeout - steamed chicken and mixed vegetables

1/2 cup brown rice

Snack:  Apple

10 almonds

Dinner:  4 turkey meatballs

medium sweet potato

steamed baby carrots

Cardio - 200 calories (so fockin’ tired that’s all I could muster)

I’ve got to split up my circuit routine.  I made sure to time myself this time to see how long it takes to get through at least one set.  Without stopping every few exercises to check emails, Facebook, etc., it took too long!  I’d never be able to get through 3 sets in the free time I’ll have at the gym when I start going back in a couple of weeks.

I also plan to do cardio every night.  AND drink 1/2-1 gallon of ice cold water everyday since it burns 50-100 calories.
I’ve been a good girl with the clean eating (I’m calling it a day prematurely.  I promise not to cave before I go to bed):

Breakfast:  Vegetable omelette (2 whole eggs, spinach, broccoli)

whole wheat toast (dry)

coffee w/ skim

Snack:  apple

Lunch:  6 oz. london broil (too much, I know) romaine salad

Snack:  10 almonds
Dinner:  Chinese takeout:  steamed chicken and vegetables….NO SAUCE
1/2 cup brown rice

Snack:  Small sweet potato

Cardio = 550+ (forgot to get exact number)

Circuit = 21 exercises 1 set each

I was in the middle of doing ab work this morning when my 6 yr old daughter says, "I don’t want you to be in too good shape.  That would be weird."

"Why would that be weird?", I asked.

"Because I’ll have the only mom who is small and in shape."

"What do the other moms look like now?" (knowing full well what they look like).
"Not in shape."

"Don’t you want me to look in shape and better than the other moms?"

"No, I don’t want you to look better than them."

"Why not?"

"Because it’s awkward."

LMAO.  I don’t know where she gets this stuff from, but hell if I’m going to continue looking like the rest of the moms.

Let me tell you that I made homemade chocolate chip cookies for the kids (yes, I’m a glutton for punishment) and I didn’t lick a single utensil or bowl!!  I didn’t swipe a chocolate chip, nor a spoonful of batter.  I didn’t even take a nibble of the cookies when they were warm out of the oven.  Yay, me!

I figured I’m not some animal ruled by instinct.  I can control my impulses.  I will prevail!
Breakfast:  1 whole egg, 3 egg whites

Whole wheat toast (dry)
Coffee w/ skim

Snack:  apple

Lunch:  1 cup chicken with black beans and salsa

1 cup broccoli (steamed in chicken broth….sooo yummy!!)

1 cup salad

Snack:  apple
Dinner:  3 oz. London broil

1 med. sweet potato

1 cup salad

1 cup mixed vegetables
Snack:  cottage cheese

Why did the 4 cheese crispy thin crust pizza have to smell so damned good?

I made it for the KIDS.

I was defrosting chicken with salsa and black beans that I made and froze a while ago.  I had a perfect day eating clean thus far, so I was determined not to answer to the cheesy, garlicky smell wafting from my oven calling my name.

Shannon come and eat me.  Go ahead, it’s OK…everybody’s doing it.

So I did it.  I ate a good sized portion.  It was delicious.

A perfect day will be even MORE delicious.  I can convince myself of that!

I got a call from my son’s soccer coach and when she said her name, I thought it was the ex of a coach that my son had for T-ball a few years ago.

I told my husband and he said, "Oh, no.  I hope it’s not her.  I’m not in the mood to see her titties bounce all over the place."

I was like, WHAT??

But I let it go.  I just thought it was some random brain fart he let loose.

Tonight on our way to practice, I said I think it’s really her.  He said there are other people with the last name.  It could be someone else.

I said I’ll bet it’s her.

He said, "I hope it’s not.  She’s such a floozy.  Her and her titties bouncing all over the place" (sound familiar?).

I said, "How did you notice THAT??  I never noticed it."

He said, "How could you NOT?  She went around wearing low cut shirts showing off her titties."

I said, "Well I noticed the way she’d pass by you looking nonchalant as she’d give you a little smile and a wave."

He said, "That’s probably back when she was looking for some."

I said, "Oh, believe me.  I noticed THAT."
When we got to the practice, it was her alright.  And goddamn it she has a tight little athletic body.

GRRRRR………

Her and her little athletic shorts.  Get me to the gym NOW!

I have this weird anxious feeling.  I think it’s because my schedule is up in the air right now, AND for this entire summer, I’ve been hearing my husband talk about how miserable he is at his job and how he wants to start looking for something else.  He’s gone as far as discussing relocating to another state..again.  I’d rather he look in the area so we can stay where we are.  My son is going to be well taken care of at school and I hate the thought of upsetting the support we have here.
I can handle stress when I’m on schedule and can control the little things….keeping them in place while I juggle the big stuff like my son’s health and being my husband’s therapist.

But when I can’t do what I need to do for myself (like working out) I feel like I’m freefalling without a parachute.

Until I’m able to get on schedule again, I just need to shake off the angsty feeling I have right now.  Get myself preoccupied with something else until Thursday (or at the very soonest Wednesday afternoon) when I can return to the things that keep me grounded.

And I have to remember that I can’t change the things that haven’t happened yet.

I need to keep my cool.  I’m a pressure cooker here and I can’t afford to explode otherwise things will get messy.

I just got a call last night that soccer practice for my youngest son is starting Tuesday night (tomorrow).  I’m about to go out to buy him cleats and shin guards.

My oldest son is the biggest damned badger that ever existed.  We got his school supply list in the mail the minute we got home from a long weekend away and as soon as he found out he asks, "Mom, can we get my school supplies?"  I had to agree, otherwise, I’d hear that question 20 times a day for the next week and he’d be strung up by his toenails and hung from a chandelier.

My daughter wakes up and greets everyone not with a "Good morning", but with an ear piercing screech that makes  me want to crawl out of my skin.

My husband’s daughter (long story) is coming to stay with us for a few days starting today and I need to get the house clean, a room set up for her, the car cleaned out (I’ll be taking her around to the sights of NH and she can’t be smelling things that no human should endure thanks to tons of snack eating by the kids while we travel), grocery shopping so we have food to actually eat and aren’t resorting to the crap I had all weekend.

Oh yeah, and last but not least, I have to do my cardio and circuit training in the midst of all of this.

Doing all of this with 3 kids in tow.  Good luck to me!

I need to curl up into a fetal position in a corner somewhere and maybe whimper or cry a little.  Maybe that will make me feel better.