I Want It!!
I want to lose the padding and be consistent with my strength routine. I WANT. But it isn’t clicking yet.
I remember back when I was losing the baby weight after my first son was born. It came so easy. I was losing 2 pounds per week, eating clean, avoiding anything outrageously bad. If I wanted something like cookies or ice cream, I’d have one serving size and limit those kinds to treats to only once or twice a week. On the weekends, I basically ate whatever I wanted, but I limited my portion sizes so it wasn’t so out of control.
I wish I could get back into a groove like that again. I feel so frazzled and confused about everything. There’s a lot more to keep track of nowadays, my eating habits aren’t as regimented as they were when I was working full time. Actually, I have no habits to speak of which I think is my biggest obstacle.
Since I stay at home, I can shower when I want, get dress however I want. Unless I have appointments and aside from getting the kids to school, my schedule is whatever I want it to be.
I have no structure and too much freedom. I’m trying to get a grip on structuring my time as though I have a job to get to. I need to wake up earlier than I do, shower and get myself together before the kids need me….the way I used to when I worked full-time.
You’d think after 6 years of staying at home, I’d have my shit together.
Nope. I let myself become too loose about things. I think it’s because all of my life I was completely regimented, strict about my time management, scheduled up the wazoo.
Once I started staying home, my time was my own and I loved that. The pressure was off…I made up my own responsibilities, I had no one to answer to but me, I didn’t have clients and co-workers demanding anything of me anymore.
So, now in order to take care of me, I need to get back to being more strict with how I spend my time.
I wish it would click. I need that click.
