Schlot16’s BodyBlog

This is old, I wrote this back in January one night, but I thought I’d share it with you all!

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I’m in a thinker man’s state of mind right now, so I am going to free speak. It might make some sense, it might not - that’s up for me and you to decide.
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So its 3:15 in the morning on a wednesday here, and I can’t help but to ask myself - what am I doing with this life of mine? I’m nearly 19 years old, and I have to say, I’ve lived a hell of a life up until now. It has been good, bad, sad, ugly, amazing, hard, depressing, joyous, exciting, boring, thought provoking, nervous, happy, confusing, clear, broken, up, down, sideways, backwards - and even upside down.. but above all, it has been a beautiful ride.

I have lived so much, experienced things that I will never again, done some things that weren’t on the to do list, and some that were. I’ve lived through the hardest of times, and the best of times. I have made and lost friendships. I have repaired broken bridges, as well as burned some. I have acted both immature and responsible. I have loved, hated, had my heart broken, broken someone’s heart, lost a best friend, influenced someone’s life for the good, and influenced some people badly.

I have worried about my place in this world and felt right at home in this life - all in the same day. Which is a strange feeling that life tends to throw at you sometimes, a curveball if you will. Just when you feel flat on your feet, someone rips the rug out from under you - and you are off balance.

I have loved many, friends, family, teachers, co-workers, strangers. I have disliked a lot of people as well. I have held grudges, and learned how to forgive and forget.

I have cried myself to sleep, feeling lost and alone.. and I have also gone to bed with a smile that you wouldn’t believe. I have wished upon a shooting star, sat and watched the ocean tide at night by myself, poured my heart out when I felt it - and had someone do the same back.

I have had everything I could ever want in my arms, and I have pushed those things away with those same hands.. I have questioned my judgements, wondered what my purpose was in life and think about when I was going to make a difference to someone in this life.

I have been an honors student, and a student that nearly flunked out of college. I have been a leader on athletic teams with people that mean the world to me and have been worried sick about someone who wouldn’t care about me the same way.

I have been a good brother, son, grandson and cousin to many.. I have had some really great times with my best friends, whose backs I will always have from now until forever, and I have been a person who I love being, and a person who I haven’t enjoyed being….

My point of all of this?

We all go through so much in our lives.. but do we ever think to put our lives on hold for a minute? To stop and take a look around and where we have been, and where we are going? To go check out the shoreline, to look up at a beautiful sunset.. watch clouds go by, or marvel at the stars against a night sky?

Do we ever take time to thank the people who have helped you along the way? To really appreciate everything we are, and to put yourself out there to be everything you hope to be?

I know in the past, I haven’t… but I did it just now, and it only took 15 minutes to do so. I have so much to be thankful for in this life, and I’m only 18 (19 in a few days).

I just wanted to say that even though you might feel you are in a rough spot in your lifetime, that things are not always going to be that way. How do I know this? We have all hit rock bottom in our lives at some point - and it wasn’t fun.. but did it last 18 years? No way.. times change, some for the better, some for the worse.. but that is how life goes.. and besides, if it was all a straight single emotion instead of a roller-coaster ride, how would we differenciate between being dead - and feeling ALIVE?

Phase one was the beginning of my transformation from fatness to greatness. In January, I wrote my first plan that was to lose 20 pounds and or 10% body fat. Weighing in at 185 lbs and almost 23% body fat, it seemed to be a hefty task.

By May 14, 2007 – I achieved both of those goals, by getting down to 152 lbs and 12% body fat. Soon after, I lost interest temporarily, and I enjoyed the last 5 weeks off, and without any worries. I have lost strength for sure, but I am still 12% and in between the ballpark of 149-153 lbs.

I am now ready to take on my next task, which is —

Goal: 10% body fat by September 1, 2007.

To achieve this goal, I will have to work hard no doubt about it. I will have to not just run, but weight train once again. I will have to be sure not to eat poorly, but that has not been an issue since I began this whole transformation.

I will try to run 5-6 times a week and weight train both the upper and lower body. I will also not eat food at work (assuming I stay employed at bw3) and monitor what I eat. During this phase, I will not be trying to lose weight, but to lose body fat. So, in theory, if I gained weight but was at 10% body fat, I would be very happy.

The long-term goal is 5-8% body fat, and a goal weight of around 165-70 lbs, but for now I will be focusing in on body fat %, and not adding mass.

19th Week of the year, 19th week of my transformation begins. Last week I didn’t run as much has I had been, but on days where I wasn’t running, I biked outside since it was nice. Lifting wise I didn’t go as hard as I have been, but I did use free-weights  in my basement when I didn’t make it across town to the gym. Nutrition wise, I didn’t reach my goal of eating 1300-1500 calories every day, My peek days I hit 1200 but I can’t seem to get myself to eat that much, so I’m going to work up slowly. This week I will try to get inside 1000-1200, then rise it up each week from here on out. I also dropped to 12% body fat, so I can’t be mad about that.. 4% to go to reach my goal!

Monday May 7th, 2007 starts Week 18 of my total body transformation, and I’ve been doing very well thus far. I am currently less than 155 pounds and 13% body fat, which I consider pretty solid considering where I started at the New Year (185, 22% as of Jan 1st, 2007)

 I am focusing on bodyfat% now more than my ‘weight’, so I am going to try and get more calories in me compared to how I’ve been going. Even though it wasn’t healthy, I was running on about 1000 calories a day for the past 2 weeks, my goal is to get 1300-1500 in me every day this week, while keeping my grams of fat under 25 grams a day, and get over 100 grams of protein a day. I find it is hard for me to eat a lot of food anymore (even though I am supposed to have 2000+ as I am only 19) because I feel as though I am going to gain what I have lost, even though this is not the truth. I’m going to go the next 7 days on this plan to see how it works out.

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