SamCia’s BodyBlog ;)

"Take a walk with your fear

And allow it to run 

For the courage you gain

Is the fear you overcome."

Ty Higgins

Let’s just say, I am not doing a very good job.  I am getting my workouts done, eating pretty clean, but that’s about it.  I learn a new word, but then a day later, I forget it.  For me to really learn the word, I need to use it.  Wouldn’t you agree?  So this week, which is the last week of the challenge, I shall learn a new word by using it.  Lets see how that goes.

 The word for today is plutocracy.

Plutocracy is the way of life in many countries.

Saturday afternoon, I attended the USBF Northern Virginia Natural “Battlefield Classic” Bodybuilding & MsUSBF Figure Championships held in Vienna, VA.  The event was hosted by Brigette Gordon, who looks even better in person.   I only caught the finals, but it was entertaining nonetheless.  I did not know any of the competitors, but I cheered them on.  I would assume that being on stage and doing the various poses has its share of pressure.  As I sat in the audience, I began think to myself, maybe I can be on stage one day.  I would not do figure, because I would bust my a$$ trying to walk in those shoes.  Bodybuilding I think would be my best bet, although I would be on the smaller side of things.  Some of my friends call me skinny and that I need to eat.  While others say I am strong for my size.  I think I like ‘the strong for my size’ comment better. J  I plan to continue getting stronger for my size, whatever that means.  I do know that I feel better about myself ever since I joined BodySpace.  I have been able to communicate with others that truly share my passion and some who are allowing me to tag along with them on their journey.

Have you ever been at work and find yourself daydreaming?  I’m sure we all have, but have you found yourself daydreaming about being at the gym?  If I asked this question to one of my friends, they would look at me like I was crazy, but I know my fellow bodyspacers would understand.   I am here at work, picturing myself at the gym, getting my pump on…grrrr!  Going heavy on chest press with my two 35lbs free weights…yeah, that is heavy for me.  I knock out my first set of 10 and then I get up and do 10 incline push-ups.  I repeat for four sets, and as I am about to move on to do some skull crushers, my phone rings.  The cloud above my head pops, and I am back at work listening to someone on the phone, but not really hearing them.  My little daydream escape is now over, but tomorrow is another day…yeah!

I have not shared in awhile, so I hope I still have a few readers out there.  The past few weeks have been a roller coaster.  From being tested at work, to having my friends tell me they can’t deal with me right now…and I should let them know when I can start eating again.  Heck, I feel like I eat more now, and like the changes, although they were not all easy.  But nothing worth having, is ever easy right?

I have uploaded a few pictures I have taken throughout the past few weeks.  I took them myself, with my cell phone, so excuse the quality.  I noticed that the changes I see from week to week, is not always a change for the better.  My ab pic from August 2nd was my best I think.  I have not bee able to improve on it.  I think may add more cardio back into my routine from twice each week for 30 minutes, to 3-4 times a week.  Anyone who can offer a bit of advice, I am listening.:-)

Have a great weekend everyone and cheers to great health.

Monday after work, my best friend and I decided to spend the evening in the mall.  We got hungry, or should I say, it was time for my next feeding.  The place of choice was TGI Friday’s.  Now, back when, Friday’s was my place to go for a well done cheese burger and fries…yum.  But that was back then.  I dined on chicken, broccoli, and brown rice.  Now guest what my bf(best friend) ordered?  You got it…a cheese burger with fries.  In my mind I was a bit worried that I would want a taste, but I said no to her offers.   As we ate, my bf decided to start making yummy noises.  The sort of noises one makes when they are really enjoying and savoring something that is oh so good, and juicy.  I’m not one to cuss, else I would have said ‘f@#* you’, but I knew I had this covered and if this was a test, I would pass. 

When I thought it was over, once she was done with her burger, she did the unthinkble.  She ordered this brownie, with ice cream on top, which had melting fudge and caramel.  Now, sitting across from her, it smelled damn good.  Once again, she ate it, savoring each spoon full.  You want some she asked…as she picked up the second spoon and handed it my way.  We use to share a dessert, but this time, she ate it all by herself.  Now, to be honest, part of so wanted to have some…it smelled so very good I tell you!  I don’t know how I was able to resist…I cannot explain.  As we walked out of Friday’s, all I could say to my bf was ‘thanks for the test’.

Alright, end of week number three of the Last Man Challenge.  Was I eating dirty before I ask myself?:-)  As I try to answer the question, I am reminded of the ginger cookies I avoided at work earlier in the week.  The old me would have seen the cookies, smiled and head straight for the table, without giving a second thought.  The new me…talks to myself,  to a point where, I cannot understand why in the past resisting such snacks were difficult.  I guess all I needed was a challenge and to know that others were working as hard and even harder than myself.  Being on this site and sharing with others, makes me wonder where am I going?  Ultimately, what am I trying to accomplish?  As corny as it may sound, I am trying to be as heathy and strong as I can…and I know I have a long way to go…but I think that’s enough of a challenge to keep me going.

Oh no, oh no…the snack table has one of my favorite cookies this week.  I walked by and had to do a double take….I could not believe my eyes.  I was like, come on now…what the heck.  Why me, maybe I should work from home this week, or maybe my co-workers will eat them all quickly…lol.  I had to snap out of it, such thoughts were craziness.  After pulling myself together, within my mind, I told myself I could not mess up now.  Everyone has been supportive and I must keep up the fight…my mind must already be gone…lol.  That was this morning and I was able to get over it and move on with my day.  Maybe when I get home I will make some protein pancakes with almonds, that should make me feel better…as I sit at my desk telling myself those cookies are not worth it.

Cheers to great health everyone!  Positive thoughts, positive thoughts…yes, it’s working….:-)