Pwisnasky’s BodyBlog

I took a long look in the mirror this morning and thought about how hard i havebeen working and that everyday I am seeing alot of things I need to REALLY CHANGE.  I got realy down and in utterawe at the fact of how bad I have been in denial of denial. See I fifured it out, You get to the point that you are starting to see progress and you start slacking up like i did 6 or more months ago. ppl tell you how awesome you are looking so you get busy with daily life and think you can slack a bit…NOT i was doing damn good and then the hubby thing that some of you already know about ( the whole not approving of me working out so much and makes fun that I want to look like a man) anyway, him always saying how good looking his wife and I do not need to work out so much. Well I was in denial then that I had to keep it up and maybe he was right ….WRONG.I have been working out off and on for years and continue to do the yo you thing but that was before being almost 40 and thinking still got time but..Time catches up quicker than you think and then here we are and thinking we were ok.  who was I kidding , i was in denial forEVER, The pics I updated today are proof  it does not take long to lose it and that if you want it and the body you wish for …You have to make this a lifestyle, everything has to change. i am ridding myself of those who do not support me and I am journaling my food, my excercise and trying to figure how to deal with damn near being a single mom because I see the hubby 1 day a week- with 5 kids a full time job a sister that is like a kid  and I do mean that. two bosses that rarely do anything on their own except shop. all my needy friends who know I am a yes person but never support or help me when time comes.All the people who say I want to workout yet sit on the couch with a dr pepper and eating fast food all the time - yea those friends are no help. I do not eat fast food and have not for well over 6 months but they can real you in,One time burger does hurt some because of " denial " that it wont hurt  or lack of control for the next time they see golden arches ,after weeks of clean eating.  I realized when someone tells you u r looking good , Thank God and say well plan to look better and feel better, even if you just say it to yourself. I am 5 1 and 129 and I mean a big 129 in a size 4/5 and no better than anyone else because I got sloppy and denied it . as long as the jeans looked goood  hey no problem right . Well get this ‘all legs go up and make an ass out of themselves but ………..do I want it to look like i sit on the couch all day….HELL NO. I took my pics today and was rather embarrassed because I have not looked that bad for a while , i could see the cellulite that had crept up while I denied it and the extra handles that I also denied ( knowing the whole damn time they were coming) 

point is i am not the only one there ae several of us who say I am not that bad but let a really fit person come around and you ask who does she think she is???well she is the one with self control and , positive attitude , right frame of mind  and the ability to rrealize it is what it is , we are what we eat.Life a happens & crap happens but there is always a way to recover and Move the hell on. Not only that but Iwant my kids to see anything is possible but you have to work at it nothing good comes easy and hell bring on the sweat , tears & pain because I am tired of denial and ready for damn it get er done!   I have been working really hard the last few weeks; I post my workouts here and try to do better each time and cleaning the junk out of the trunk.I am 39 but not yet dead,think the last few weeks I have finally come back to life and getting the it’s my turn attitude helped andrealizing wake up and see the damn cellulite!    I know there are a few more me’s out there hope you  make the choice to get it together and make it a lifestyle too!

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