Splattered Angst

Got the month’s progress pictures up and it was a good reality check. After I took the previous pics at Christmas, I dipped down to 195 and thought, "Hey, its time to put on some muscle" and I purposely started eating more and added an extra meal per day for a couple of weeks there. Then my belt started getting pretty snug, frightened, I backed off. The remnants of my attempts at "bulking" are still evident in this month’s pics, but it is coming off. I was spitting nails for a couple of hours yesterday after I initially saw the new progress pics. I was bargaining with myself, "… it was the yellow wall, I should have taken the pics in front of the mirrors like last time… or maybe it was the shadows, yeah, that’s it! I’ll redo the pictures and delete these…" yadda, yadda yadda … hmmm. I felt like asking those around me "Are these voices in my head bothering you?" Spin … like out of control spin. It was ridiculous. I got a grip and started to think through what I have been doing the last few weeks. What I did was on purpose and when you up the calories like I did that quick, you are going to put on a few pounds. Its that easy. Relax. I have learned a lot over the last year about my body … and I know what to do to make sure the next progress pic is better than the December pic. Stay tuned …

The carb cycling diet that I have got going is up to something because I certainly feel a good deal more energy during the day and the workouts are certainly on the upswing. Cool!

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