Princina’s BodyBlog

My grandmother died this morning, so my motivation has hit an all time low. I know she’s in a better place right now, and that’s the only thing that’s keeping me sane. I am only happy that I made it home in time to see her and tell her her I love her before she said goodbye. I can’t eat, sleep calls when it wants. I am so heartbroken. I missed one of my certifing classes, but I know have to continue on to accomplish my dreams. I know she would want that. We’re all here moping around and I know she would be having a fit if she saw us right now. I’m just trying to get through this. Trying to stay strong. God give me strength.

Ok, so I’m on here doing crazy research. I’m looking for the best meal replacement products and supplements for my goal. I don’t want bulk at all, just lean toned muscles. I’m been working out a little over a year and a half but so far it’s been an off and on process. But, I do know that once I stay consistent I will have no problems. I have my workouts all mapped for me. Main reason is because there is one asset on my body that I do not and cannot lose. I’m quite sure everyone knows what that is. My model career is more on the glamour side, than fitness, so I have to make sure I can stay in that class. If I keep doing what I’ve been doing, I’ll be ok. But, now that I’m going to Iraq, fresh fruit and veggies won’t be easy to come by. Bases out there do not have commasaries. So, I have to find and bring and order stuff for me to have so I can stick to my diet. It’s been a year since I’ve been there, but if I’m not mistaken the DFAC is only open 3x a day. So can anyone help me? Remember, I just want lean, not much muscle building. I do know some products are best for both, but I’m mainly looking for lean and toning.

Ok, so I feel like a fat slob. And to make it worst I had a slip today. I’ve been eating whatever I could get my hands on, not caring what it is. And my body is telling me how she feels about it. Not good. I detox come 1 Oct. and I’m very happy about that. Now, that I’m finally in my apartment, I can grocery shop the way I need to. I know it’s bad, but I’m just letting my body get all the bad stuff now. I will be getting all this crap out my system very soon. Cuz this feeling sleepy all the time is not getting it. I had some bread rolls today during lunch and I promise you, I could feel the yeast sticking to my obliques. Ugh, this is a disgusting feeling. Only a week left. A week. Detox, eat healthy, proper exercise, and no more slips (you quitters know what I’m talking about). I will get there. Everyone just pray for me.

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