Ponyboy76’s BodyBlog

It is hard being your own cheerleader all the time. I do not have the benefit of a workout partner so its just me, myself, and I when I hot foot it to the gym. When it comes to working out and wanting to change my body I have only one person in my cheering section and that is me. My family, namely my sister and mother don’t and can’t really understand why I do it. They say things like , "When are you going to stop losing som much weight." They just don’t get the struggle. Most of the women I have dated don’t really get it either. They just see it as some obssession that has taken over my life. Of course I see it totally different. I have a goal and I am trying to achieve it but it takes effort and time. I just find it hard sometimes, to get the motivation to hit the gym when everyone else is saying "why bother?" or just nothing at all. Then I remember that I am not doing it for them. I am doing it for me. Its just tough sometimes.

I need to build more muscle. I know my goal is to get that long sort after 6 pack, but all these cardio sessions are shrinking my body. I’ve been doing at least 8 to almost 10 cardio sessions for the last 3weeks.  I know I have lost some muscle. Not much thanks to supplementation. Thank you Xtends. But I don’t want to lose any more muscle. I want to gain muscle. Even if its just a little every month. My diet has also been pretty damn good. I keep my carb intake low and protein pretty high with fats at a good level, too. I’m going to try a sort hybrid weight program that is mostly for bulking but I’ll continue to do the cardio sessions. I guess I should add more calories to my diet but I’m afraid if I do that, I’ll be adding the fat back on. Not sure how to go about this. Any suggestions?

It is sometimes hard to maintain focus on your goals while the rest of the world is doing its thing. There are so many distractions that sometimes they can overwhelm you. There are a few things that help me out when I see that I am losing focus on my fitness goals. One of them is simply looking in the mirror seeing where I might be slipping and trying to visualize what I want to look like.  Another thing is actually checking out BodySpace and the profiles of people who have made alot of positive changes with their bodies which have even clearly changed their outlook on their lives. Funny enough I seem to get a little more inspiration from the women because alot of the guys on here started from a different place. There are a few that were fat and lost weight and built muscle which is where I`m coming from but its hard to relate to a guy who used to be skinny and then bulked up gained muscle. Most of the women seem to come from a I used to be fat and now I want to tighten up. The women, not surprisingly are also a little more expressive with how they were and what they want to accomplish.  The third thing I tend to do to keep focus is to just psyche myself into it. I tell myself to get off my ass and hit the gym. At the end of the day no one can do this for you. People can encourage you but in the end you alone are the person who has to live with your body. You are the one that either succumbs to the laziness, lack of desire or pushes through it to do what you want. I am at a point where I can actually see progression. I see that I can gain the body I want, but I can also see myself reverting to the old ways. The trick is making sure that doesn`t happen. So I have to Maintain focus. Its not even an option! 

Thanks to a few BodySpacers like BigNic and their encouraging words I have not given up on my goals. It has been a rough 2 weeks but ironically the thing that is going the best for me right now is my progress at the gym. I weighed myself today and I actually weigh 5 lbs more than my last weigh in but I look better now at 239lbs than I did at 234lbs. Its funny how that works. I think using the Creatine Monohydrate and Micellar Casein has helped me to put on some more muscle which is a good thing. I have also continued with my 2 a day cardio sessions which seem to also be forcing out that pesky bodyfat. I just have to keep on doing what I am doing.