Pillster21’s BodyBlog

I feel miserable.  I have gained 2 lbs back in the past two weeks.  Whatever sickness I have I just can’t kick and it seems to be turning into a slight flu bug.  I probably and just run down but I have no time to rest.  I need to be eating better and going to the gym and it is so frustrating when you feel like absolute crap (not to mention it hurts my skin to wear clothing let alone to a 60 minute workout at the gym).  I am just wondering if I am still going to able to make it to my goal?!?!? 

Ok so I had an amazing week.  You know what I credit it to?  My Lipo 6’s I just got in the mail on saturday.  You know I really wasn’t a fan of fat pills because I was taking them and didn’t feel like they were working.  I haven’t taken them in probably 2 months (maybe 3 or 4) and I really can notice a difference.  I really don’t have the cravings like I do and I am sitting here writing this entry hungry as S**T but I am thinking about my next sentance and not my next meal.  That is a HUGE accomplishment for me since I think about food 24/7. 

I have found this week I have really been about to go 100% on my jenny craig and the work paid off.  I’ve like like a lb and a half this week and I can’t remember how long ago I felt really good about that.  I am on my way and so excited.  I have a dress fitting in 2 and a half weeks.  I would like to be at 130 but I’ll take 133. 

This is actually the first time also that I have been excited to start a new day to see how I do since I tried to start loosing weight again back in May.  I am so much more focused…….Probably a good reward shouldn’t be mexican food tonight?!?!?!?  Have a great weekend!!!

So apparently I had a horrible week.  I went to the gym 4 days I was pretty good on my eating and I gained a pound and a half.  I think it’s all stress.  This wedding has gotten me crazy.  i can’t wait for the day to be over with and my life a little more normal!!!!!  This weekend I am going home for another shower.  Last weekend to go home for a couple of weeks so that is good.  I’m just going to have to keep up with the eating and working out.  I’ts been 6 weeks and i’ve only lost like 5 lbs.  That is ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  sometimes i just hate myself when I am not motivated or I let myself down.

So this past week I actually have been pretty good on my eating and only lost .6 of a pound.  Last weekend I did go out with some friends and had a few beers but I didn’t think it would affect me that much.  I will say I only went to the gym twice.  (That’s probably what it was).  I really notice a difference when I go to the gym and when I don’t go to the gym.  I think that really makes the difference. 

This weekend I AM STAYING HOME!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The first weekend in three weeks and I am so excited.  I’ll be able to go to the gym and I have 5 days available to go so I should go 5.  I also will have my food available for me so I should be okay on my eating too.  I didn’t make my goal of 135 for my dress fitting.  Suck!!! I need to get my ass into gear.  5 full weeks and I haven’t even lost 10 lbs yet.  Time to get on it but my motivation level just drops a bit every day.  Yikes!!!!  HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

SO I feel like I have finally gotten over a little "bump".  I was so good at my bridal shower and didn’t clean my plate and only ate a bite or two of each flavor of cake.  Also on Sunday I wasn’t as good as I should have been but I was still pretty good!!!!  I lost 3 lbs about this week!  What a great feeling. I just kept feeling like there was a speed bump I could just not get over.  I still feel like there is a bigger bump but this small one was a great success.  I think that if I can still loose a lb or two next week I think that the bump has been mastered !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weekend I am going home so it’ll be a challenge.  I should be okay on friday since we wont get in until late so I’ll have my food with me.  Saturday we have a birthday party in the evening that I may have to splurge a little bit at.  Sunday will be the real test.  I am going to a Jewelry show in chicago and it is an all day event.  I’ll have to bring a few snacks and be okay with lunch which I think i’ll be okay with.  It’s comforting to know that Ryan will be with me and when he is around me I tend to eat better and not cheat as much.  I just have to know that if we are going to eat food out then it is subway for me!!!!!!  I heart that place!!!!!!!!!!!!  Wish me luck everyone….If I can get through this weekend without gaining weight and loosing a pound or two then I AM IN!!!!!!!!!!   (P.s. I have 9 days to get to my goal of 135 before my first dress fitting…That’s 3 lbs.)

I dont know if I am holding a lot of water this week or what?!?!?!?  I was good MOST days on the diet and worked out hard 4 days this week.  I would have gotten 5 but we were cleaning and empy my fiance’s house.  Saturday night we did go out with my sister for Mexican food and I just couldn’t resist.  I was on track the rest of the week and really hit my workouts good. When I weighed myself I was 141.7…..That’s only a half pound lost from last week.  I should have at least lost a full pound.  Who knows.

This weekend I am going home for a day for my first bridal shower.  I am excited!!!!!!  It’s kind of nice too because the shower isn’t around a time I have to eat so I can eat before hand and then after when it is over.  I am also coming home that night because we have a marriage counsling class all day on sunday (Who would do that on a sunday with football!!!!!).  I’ll be in my own enviroment most of the weekend and I definately will bring the jenny craig food with me.  I guess I should celebrate the loss because at least it was a loss and not a gain like last week.

I changed my workout schedule. I am doing monday, tuesday, wednesday, friday, saturday lifting and cardio schedule (A different body part each day)  Thursday I rest completely and go to my jenny meeting and sunday  I would like to do an active rest….such as walking the dogs (which I do almost every day already) or being up and about and not sitting on the couch.  I am so sore from the workouts but it feels good!!!!!  Have a great weekend everyone!!!

So it’s been two weeks.  Week one was great.  Week two not so great.  We went to Kings Island over the weekend and I was NOT GOOD with my eating at all.  I also have not been feeling well the past two weeks so I haven’t worked out like I should have been working out.  This week I think I gained weight from last week.  I sure hope not but if it is at least it wont be a significant amount. I think that this is truely a wake up call.  If I don’t stick to my diet and exercise I am not going to get anywhere near my goal.  I’d like to at least get to 135 before my first dress fitting at the end of October.  I am so determined now.  Last night I had a near breakdown and wanted pizza and chips and chinese and mexican…..all at once probably.  I know that I am going to have a few more of those days but after about 2 weeks of really being good it subsides.  ON TRACK are the only words I should have.  Time to put the blinders on!!!

So this was my first weekend back on the JC and it did pretty well.  I did have a snack or two (like a handful of crackers or something) but that was about it.  I need to get used to the smaller portions.  It’ll be two weeks of hell but it’ll be better in the long run.  Usually the first two weeks I go on food withdraw like a druggie.  I make a workout program and have split it up like this:

Monday: back and chest.  30 minutes cardio

Tuesday: 45 minutes Cardio

Wednesday: Legs. 30 minutes Cardio

Thursday: Rest (Jenny Meeting)

Friday: Arms. 30 minutes Cardio

Saturday: Rest or 45 minutes Cardio (Depending on what is going on)

Sunday: Shoulders and Abs. 30 minutes Cardio

 I went to the gym for the first time in 2 weeks on sat. and sun.  It felt really good to get back into it!!!!

So my Jenny consultant called me today to confirm my appointment and they wrote me down for the wrong time.  Now  I can’t go until Sat. morning.  Oh well I guess that just gives me a couple more days to stay on track.  I am so disappointed because I was really pumped to go in and get started today.  FRUSTRATED!  I am so ready to just get started…..even though  I am doing really well this week on my eating.  What can you do.  Stick to what I’m doing and hopefully i’ll be low on the scale on sat. morning.  The only thing I am worried about it week one on the Jenny.  Since I am going first on a sat. morning i’ll have an empty stomach.  The next meeting will be on a thursday night so not only will I have eaten all day I also won’t have a full week in.  I’ll just have to push hard.  Have a great weekend everyone!

So I weighed myself this morning and i’m at the lowest I have been in a few months!!!!  I am so excited too because I start jenny craig tomorrow.   I know it works when I stick my mind to it and I am going to do it!!!  I am so motivated and just giddy today.  I haven’t been to the gym in a while which makes me sad but I’ve been so stressed out with everything and the weight and trying to get to the gym I figured this will be a good way to meditate and reset so  I can hit the gym full force on friday.  I’ve been trying to keep busy so I dont just want to snack.  I like to take the dogs to the dog park and just sit and take everything in.  No computers or date books.  I can just relax and not think about anything. 

Today is a new day and tomorrow is the start of a new me.  There will be no going back and the weight loss will be maintained!!!!