Phoenixbln’s BodyBlog

So this year I turned 33. Actually, last week I turned 33 and took a trip to Holland. Of course, aftr totally letting go, I came back to Berlin not feeling as great as when I left. Of course, I gained weight while I was there and was not really paying attention to what I was eating, after all, it is a vacation.

My first couple of days back in Berlin were rather hard. I had an amazing amount of guilt sitting on my back (well, actually around my stomach). It reminded me of so many times when I began this body battle and gave up but something was different this time. When I came home and reflected and tried to put myself back in the exact moment when I was stuffing huge amount of delicious pastries into my body, I really was not enjoying it. I realised that it did not release those endorphins the same as they once used to.

Eventually, after two days of being filled with waffles, small "rose" cupcakes, and fruit tarts (the fruit was questiionable), I politely told my host that I could not continue to eat these things even though they are delicious. He was not offended and actually, was very supportive. Yes, I gained some weight and have already lost but in the end, I learned several things:

1. Forgive myself when I fail. Reflect, correct and move forward.

2. Just because it is on the table does not mean that it needs to be in the mouth. There is always a nice way to refuse things. People have more understanding than we are willing to accept.

3. Listen to your body and compare. How do I feel when I am eating healthy and how do I feel when I eat too much of something that I have given up. For example: when I eat something with too much fat (not good fat but bad fat), I immediately get unmotivated, lethargic and depressed. The body is a combination of the physical and the mental and it is not limited to food.

Ok. So maybe when you go to visit your mother it will be impossible to resist that second or third piece of banana cream pie. Mothers sort of have that effect on people. But think about why you have goals and why are they important.