PhoenixLuv’s BodyBlog

So I hit an extremely low point last night, I almost had a breakdown tears and all while I was out with my friends at the bar.  Watching all the guys fawn all over them while I was left to my fat lonesome.  Listening to them talking about how all the compliments the guys were giving was such a confidence booster and all I can think of was the last time a guy talked to me he told me I looked disgusting.  My diet and exercise have sucked lately and my self confidence is completely in the toilet.  I’m still unemployed so my diet consists of in a good week: eggs, beans, rolled oats, instant grits, romaine lettuce, campbells/progresso soup (depending and if they are on sale), and top ramen.  My water consumption is less than 16oz, I made a trade for all of the crap I shouldn’t drink juice, soda, etc.  I went from going to the gym 3-5 days a week to 1-2, going to pole dance classes 6 days a week, to 1-3 times.  Cuz I am just so embarrased and disgusted with my body right now.  Instead of getting mad and hitting the pavement with my dog or hitting the treadmill at the gym I just sit and stew.  I’ve lost my motivation from weeks and weeks of not losing a single pound or a single inch and I’m not sure how to get it back and get out of this rut.  I need help, I’ll take any advice, just give it to me straight.  Thanks!