I try, I fail, I try again, I fail, I try harder, I fail, I give it everything, I fail. I tell myself I couldn't have given it everything because I'm back at the starting pointÂ and that I can push harder, I fail.Â Every time I try I fail. I eat well, very well, I don't even like most rubbish foods. I eat healthy by choice. I train hard, I really push my body to do more and more. I try and try and every time I come out second best. Why do I aspire to achieve these things I can never get within reach of? Why am I so stubborn? What's driving me? I'm in a constant battle with my body. I know I can, my body doesn't seem to know it though. Mental strength is what keeps me going but sometimes it's hard. It's hard knowing that what knocks me every time is out of my control. Something I can't stop. My health. I'm fed up . . . . . .Â I'm soÂ fed up. This body will give up on me because it can. So, why go again, why????? Because one day I will win. I will get there because I have an unyielding drive. I have personal expectations. I want it. Success doesn't come easy, it comes onlyÂ to those willing to step up, lift their headÂ every time and go again. So . . . . lets go for it, this time might justÂ be mine. Today is mine, happy gyming.