Well well, look at that weight fall. . . I knew I was loosing a lot of weight but I wouldn't weigh myself 'till today. -Not much I can do about what has been lost, not much I can do about being ill, not much I can do with training, not much I can do at all. So, do I finally give up? Should I admit I will never be as big, strong and above all healthy as I want? Should I just sit back, switch on the tv and open a bag of crisps? Should I just pack it in because I've tried so hard, so many times and I keep being kicked in the face? . . . . Afterall, anyone can give up right? It's not the hardest thing to do, you just stop trying. Well I guess right now some of you wouldn't blame me if I wanted to pack up, pack it all in, would you? -Have I fooled you into thinking I was giving up yet???

To stand up and hold it all together when some of you could understand if I had given up, that shows strength and a real personal belief. Any chance of success depends on your belief in your own abilities. I have belief, why have I kept myself going all this time? I know I will get there. To succeed, I must acknowledge failures and this is one. I made an attempt, due to reasons out of my control I've failed but that's life, that's how things go, that can happen, boo bloody hoo! But I don't think about why I can't or shouldn't try again, I think of all the reasons why I can and should and they way outnumber the can't dos'. You think life is tough? Come see me train! The way I workout, that's though! That's how I work, that's how I keep myself focused, that's why I will try each and every time because one day, I will achieve all I've ever wanted. The best way out of this slump is straight through with an attitude that is incomperable to any other. Don't get me wrong, I'm pissed! I am pissed! But that drives me and makes me want it more. I can, simple, I CAN! Happy gyming