First Day Back - the results
After taking a two-week vacation, I went back to the gym today. I have been loading up on creatine, hoping that it would allow me to lift heavier and longer. Sadly, that was not the case tonight. My left shoulder is still giving me problems - even after all this time, and this, I think, is what is inhibiting my bench presses. I’m subconsciously afraid to go heavy. I don’t want to injure myself further. At the same time, you’d think by now that I would have bitten the bullet and gone to see my doctor to get this taken care of - once and for all. I had a cortisone shot last month, but it was temporary. I think I’m hesitant to talk to my doctor for fear she will order surgery. I can’t countenance that idea at the moment. There’s far too much going on in my life for me to take a "time out" for surgery.
So here is the compromise I reached with myself. (You know you’re weird when one starts negotiating with oneself. Anyway…) I have a routine designed to strengthen the joints and ligaments in my shoulder. If there is no improvement in two weeks, I’ll go to the doctor. If there is improvement, I will lift as heavy as I can for as long as I can. What other choices do I have? Quitting is not an option. Wish me luck, fellow bodybuilders.
