Adventures of a Former Fat Girl

Disclaimer:  I’m not judging anyone with the following post it’s just my observation!

I’ve noticed since I stubbled upon this website that the "popular women profiles" are always some little girl in a bikini. I understand that those particular girls are beautiful, but what about the average girl? Maybe, someone who’s transformation was more than exceptional! I don’t begrudge the girls that are on the "popular" page, I just would like it if some more of us visited someone who’s body is maybe more attainable. For instance, ChickenTuna, Her body is(for lack of a better word) bangin. I know she’s been on the popular page for a while, I just wish there were more women like that, one’s that took the average so-so body and transformed it. Or maybe someone who took an obese body and worked it into a muscular hard body.

Please, don’t get me wrong..I’m not in anyway trying to be mean, or jealous. I just wish there could be more women to relate to on the "popular" page. I know that I’m never gonna be 20 (been there, done that), working at Hooters ( been there, got the t-shirt) with a little butt, and winning bikini universe titles just give me someone I can to aspire to. Maybe someone that used to be fat like me, wouldn’t that be the best to see someone like that be "popular", along aside those 20 somethings. Cause aren’t all women beautiful, in one way or another????

Ok, so I’ve been slacking off the last week or so! I’ve been doing what I call "The Executive Workout." You know it’s when you go to the gym and sit in the sauna, hottub, watch T.V. and then take a shower( like you worked up a sweat).

Speaking of the Hottub, I don’t know about other gyms, but we have separate locker rooms for men and women. The women at my YMCA, are rather large, and they like to get into the hottub naked.  Now, I’m not scared, or embarrassed of a naked woman, but I’m somewhat annoyed by torpedo boobs( Fat boobs that float and wander toward me, like I was a target or something). I really would appreciate it they keep them to theirselves. Also, another annoyance is…when I’m in the hottub with my eyes closed, relaxing…and these women get in wanting to talk to me. Can’t they see, I’m relaxing! Don’t get me wrong, I’m a nice person, but I just don’t want to hear about your arthrititis, bunions or any other aliment you might have. Sorry, but I just want to relax and quiet my mind, not hear about your recent bout with diarrhea. Is that wrong? (speaking of diarrhea, should you even be in the hot tub, Yikes)

Ok, since I’m on my soap box, I’d like to get this off my chest too. When in the sauna, with other people….don’t lay down on the bench when your naked. It’s just rude! Leave some space for me ( I really don’t need that much now, but it would be nice not to have your yuky feet rubbing against me!) And if you are naked, please put a towel down before you sit, it’s just nasty! How do I know if you wiped the last time you went to the bathroom!

Now that I think about it more, maybe I just give up the Executive Work Outs for good!!

The other night while lying in bed, with my lap top. I was checking out the BB.com web site. I was looking at some other girls profiles, when my husband, looking over my shoulder, caught site of a particular girl. His eyes practically popped out of his head and he said " When will I get a body like that?"

Now, mind you I am trying my hardest to get a body like that, but I kinda got offended. I really don’t know how to take it. One part of me is now more than ever determined to get the best body I can have, but another part of me is Jealous that his eyes popped out of his head over another girls body.

I’m really not sure how to feel! If he see’s this girls body as being so attractive that he’s wishing mine looked like that one, how does he see the one I’m stuck with for now? What if I can never obtain that kind of perfection?

In a way, I’m more self concious now then I ever was!! He’s eyes have never popped for me!

I’m I wrong to feel this way, or I’m I being ridiculous?