Adventures of a Former Fat Girl

Ok, so my sixteen year old son got his first job at a local pizza parlor. Well to be the supportive family, we decide to go and eat there. So I cheated a little, I had this amazingly good pizza called a bacon cheeseburger. Well, It was real good going in, but not so good the other way(do ya see where I’m going with this). I paid for that pizza in more ways than one. Not to mention the calories, I don’t even want to know. But one thing is for sure, I can no longer eat greasy, cheesy pizza’s anymore! My body is very angry at me today, my belly has seriously been calling me names today. I’ve never experienced this kind of gut rot in my entire life, and I truely believe it’s because my body is use to the clean foods. It’s probably in shock right now.

So as fair warning to anyone who is thinking about cheating, DON’T DO IT! Your gut, hips, conscience, and Toilet will give you one heck of a pay back!!!!

Pam

P.S. See ya all in a couple of weeks, It’s off to VEGAS for me! If I win big, I promise to give ya some-(or maybe I’ll just buy a really expensive toilet seat, LOL)

Ok, so here is my complete program…..

Workout—

M-W-F are weight days I don’t really have a set program for this, I just try to do upper body one day and lower another. I don’t really have any certain exercises I do, I just pretty much wing it. Sometimes I’ll see some one else doing a particular exercise and I’ll do that one. Otherwise, all I really do are squats, lunges, leg raises, and leg presses. For upper body, I do barbell or dumbbell rows, tri kickbacks, delt raises and bi curls.

For my mid-section, I do crunches on the days I do my cardio, which are T-th-sat. For the cardio I do 30-60 mins. ellipital.

For my food- here is a typical day

7am-1/2 cup dry oats mixed with a tbsp of milled flaxseed and a tbsp of wheat germ. 1/4 cup mixed berries. 3 egg whites

10am-1/3 cup cottage cheese and a piece of fruit or 1c. grapes

12pm- 5oz chicken breast with a small yam/red potatoe. Or. 5oz package of Tuna and grilled veggies

2pm 1/2 cup yogurt with 1/4 mixed berries

5pm same as 12pm

7pm protein shake ( I like muscle milk lite, chocolate) Sometimes I’ll put a banana in too.

That’s it, wrapped neatly in a nutshell. Any opinions, advice, criticism, or comment will be greatly appreciated

I’ve kinda been stuck. I know absolutely nothing about weight training, supplements and food. I could never get the macro thing-a-ma-bob, and I’m stuck. I try to eat clean, or at least what I think is clean,but then I’ve lost my energy. People tell me I’m not eating enough, I just can’t get how this all works. I bought that book "Eat Clean" by Tosca Reno, but It seemed to just repeat itself alot.

As far as the weight training goes, I’ve learned everything I do from here. I’ve watched all the vid’s to make sure I’m using proper form, etc. I just don’t know what exercises I should do for what part. I’ve been wingin it since Jan. and I’ve gotten some success, but now I’m kinda a stand still. I’m frustrated cause I want to make gains and I’ve stalled.

I would like to get a personal trainer, but I can’t afford one. My Vegas trip cost less than a personal trainer. I’ve talked to the people at the YMCA, where I work out. Well, when I asked her about eating clean, she just looked at me funny and said "Well I don’t know anyone who doesn’t clean their food before they eat it." Seriously, that’s what she said.

So if anyone would like the chance to shape and mold me, and take all the credit, I’d be willing to be a guinnea pig. Yeah! Right! If not, any kind of advice from you friendly, fit and fabulous people would be fantasic! Ok…someone take the f key away from me…

I’m taking my very first adult vacation at the end of June. Seven other girls and me are flying to Vegas. I’m scared out of my wits, I’ve never been on a plane, or on any vacation without a parent or husband. I’m sooo excited that I’m almost giddy like a school girl!

Me, in Vegas! It hardly seems real! I’m sure some of you are like "It’s no big deal", but for me it’s like crossing a bridge into fantasy. My first marriage was aweful, very abusive. In fact, my first husband is in prison for pouring gasoline on my three children and himself, after I tried to leave him. Long story, short…I could never see myself where I’m at now. Married to very loving, supportive husband, Three beautiful boys who are doing well, a college graduate, with an amazingly good job. So Vegas is sooo big to me, It’s one more thing I never thought I’d be able to do.

It’s weird what this trip represents to me. Not only I’m I flying in a real airplane for the first time, but I’m out of my cage and flying on my own!!!!

So Vegas get ready……Here I come!

Do already "fit" people look at me in the gym and pity me? There is this one lady(and I use this term loosely) in my gym, who is very blunt in her thinking. One day I was on an ellipital doing my usual cardio with my ipod on, she came up to me and asked if I was almost finished. I turned my ipod down to hear her and told her politely, although out of breath, that I’d be another 10 mins. She walked behind me where there was two other "ladies" and said "I don’t know why she bothers, it’s not likely that she’ll loose any of that fat ass!"

I don’t know how to take comments like that. I finished my workout almost in tears, wiped down the machine. She stood there waiting for me to finish. For the first time since working out, I felt ashamed to be in the gym. She actually made me want to give up! I thought to myself, "maybe she right, maybe I won’t loose this fat ass!"

But then, I took a deep breath and thought, "This woman is not the authority on my fat lost." She doesn’t know how many hours I’ve put in the gym, or my eating clean philosophy. I’m not gonna let some stranger fort my efforts to be fit!

Why is it that some people are so mean like that? I would never say that to someone, I’m very supportive of anyone trying to get in shape, no matter what shape, size, or exercise ability! Isn’t it pathetic what some will say to other people just to make themselves feel better?

God Love BodyBuilding.com, sometimes this is the only place I feel accepted and supported. Thanks to All for every kind word you say to people on this site!!!!! Your the BEST!!!!

I’ve been thinking a lot about success and what that means to me. I know what I want to accomplish, but people’s bodies are different. So I’m not sure how or what for that matter I should be aiming for.

In my head, I want a body like Monica Brandt, DawnMarie, or ChickenTuna, But is that realistic to wish that for myself. I want the best body for me, but since I’ve never had a thin, trim body how do I know what to look for.

I know some of you will say, "Just Being Healthy would be a good accomplishment!" And that is a very good thing, but I want more. I want the flat tummy and the toned arms and thighs. So my question is, How do you measure your success on an individual basis? (cause I don’t think those girls are willing to just give me their bodies)

Every since I started exercising, I’ve been extermely tired. Not just "yawn" I’m kinda sleepy tired, I mean the "honey, not tonight", exhausted, go to bed at 8pm tired.

Does exercise do that, I keep waiting for the extra energy and it’s not coming! Maybe someone stole it, or maybe I misplaced it, or maybe someone lied to me! One way or another, I’m lacking in the energy department and I’m getting frustrated! I’ve been taking my multi-vitamin, eating right, etc. etc. but the eyes are still drooping.

You know what the most frustrating thing of all is, I work in the sleep field! You would think that I could figure this out, but everything I’ve tried isn’t working!

Maybe it takes time to build energy, hmmmm? Maybe my body is so busy building muscle and getting rid of fat, that it’s taking all my extra energy away? Yeah, that’s what I’m gonna let myself believe…….

cause I absolutely, positively refuse to believe it has anything to do with my age!!!!!!!