Adventures of a Former Fat Girl

Every morning when I wake up, I weigh myself. I sing in my head the song by Beyonce To the Left, cause that’s what I want the damn scale to do, drop to the left. It just seems like it’s taking forever to get to my goal weight. So in my frustration and a little advice from the nutrition forum, I went to my gym and retook my BF % and my BMI. I originally took it on Jan. 8th and it was BF % was 39.1% and BMI was 31. I’m happy to report that it is now BF% 33.7 and my BMI is 27.

Eventhough these numbers have changed, why do I still see myself huge. I still have the blubbery tummy and if I waved at someone, hopefully noone would be standing behind me or I’d knock em out with my tricep jiggle. I mean "Seriously" (yeah, I’m a Gray’s Anatomy fan).

I so wanted to be at my goal weight by the time I took my Vegas vacation, but that would have meant I would need to lose 5# a week over the next 9 weeks. And the girls on the forum say it’s just not healthy, I’d be losing too much muslce. I worked really hard for the muscle I’ve got, I’m not willing to surrender it for a number on the scale.

So…. I will continue with my workout program, my clean eating and I will try really hard not to focus so much on the number of the scale. So my goal has changed, I no longer just want to be 125#, but I want to be a healthy 125# or whatever number comes with a toned sexy healthy body!!!

TO HELL WITH THE SCALE!!!

Yeah, He’s finally gone! I’m so obsessed with American Idol, and I don’t know why. I guess it’s because it’s the last common interest my teenagers and I have together. I swear it’s the only time they come out of the room or get off the phone is when American Idol is on. And you know, it gives us something fun to talk about, rather than chores and school. So yes, I’m proud to stand up and say…..I’m a American Idol Buff!!!!

So who do you think should win? Me, I absolutely think it should be Jordan or Melinda! Lakisha, she seems to be getting a little diva like, there’s just something there that bothers me. Chris Richardson…. he’s so adorable, if I wasn’t an old broad, the things I’d like to do..(Shhh, now…don’t get me excited) I just wouldn’t want him to serenade me. Although, I think he’s Rascal Flatts song wasn’t too aweful. But Blake… I like the bee boopin thing, but that only goes so far.

Anyhoo, seeing as this is a bodybuilding sight, I’m doing cardio today. Did Chest and Arms yesterday. Anyone got any advice on getting rid of the belly fat. I can’t seem to get rid of it there and on the back of my arms, if I was waving at someone I’d knock out the person next to me. Damn wobbly parts!

Later,

Me

I’m really starting to notice some changes in the old bod! My hams and calves are really progressing nicely. Shoulder and biceps, I’m noticing some definition. However, I need to work on the the three b’s (Butt, Belly, Boobs). I’m having a hard time getting any progression there. The three seems to be going more north than the rest of me. I’m not sure if I need to ramp up the cardio, or if I should do more lifting. I do at least 30 mins. of cardio everday, but lifting I do a split. Arms/chest on Mondays. Legs/back on Wednesdays. Abs/butt on Fridays. I try to lift heavy enough to bring me to failure on my last reps, but maybe I need to do them more often?

I can’t wait until taking a picture doesn’t make me cringe! I’m taking new progress pictures tonight and I’m a little nervous about it. What if I don’t see any progress on them. I know I’ve seen it on the scale, and I feel so much better. I just want to see it in my photos. I really want the bathing suit to look better on my body, rather than my head! But… It’s is good camoflage, it does do the trick at hiding my fat face!!!

On another note, I was called a regular at the gym today! Me…. A regular! You don’t even know how proud that made me feel. The girl handing out towels, knows my name! That in itself is a huge accomplishment for me. I’ve actually been at a gym long enough to be called a regular. I’ve never been a regular ever, well except for the local buffet line. But to be a regular at a gym, that’s so much better.

Well see ya, (hey maybe even at the gym…. you know us regulars)

What is it with friends and family trying to sabotage you? They all know that I’ve been working out, doing cardio, weight lifting and watching my diet, so why do they have to say and do the meanest things.

For instants, a friend of mine says to me " Why do you spend all that money for a gym membership, when you can just walk or something?" First of all, just walking is not going to get me to my goals, and just because you spend all your money in the bars, doesn’t mean the whole world has to. Come on! She is one of these people that worry about everyone else’s buisness, but her own. My family too, I have two teenage sons, they know that mom’s really trying to focus on her goals and eat right. So what do they do, bring home Mcdonald’s. "Oh mom, you can have a cheeseburger once in awhile!" Why is it that noone wants me to reach my goals but me?

Oh and another thing, who said I have to like this. Another of my friends, who happens to be very very obese, says to me " Well at least you like it."  WHAT! I Like it! Please… what I like is knowing that I’m doing something to help myself, not destroy myself.  I absolutely hate not being able to eat McDonalds and Burger King, if I could get the results I’m looking for from eating this, don’t ya think I would be. COME ON! Who wouldn’t? Yeah, I like eating raw veggies and salad and tuna, sure…… we all do! Right?

I just have to come to the realization that they don’t understand what I’m trying to do. Oh well, when I have my smokin hot bod, guess who’ll be laughing then?

Wholly Muscle! Not that long ago, I was whining that I wasn’t noticing any difference in my body. Well, I sat down and got really honest with myself. Turns out that I was not putting every effort into my goal. So I refocused….

Have I noticed big changes, big for me that is!!!

I have calf muscles, and hamstrings, and my biceps… look out Arnold! I can’t believe the difference. My clothes fit so much nicer, and I actually have an Ass!!! No more soggy bottom butt.

Well, I still have a long way to go. I’ve only lost about 12 pounds so far, would like to lose about 40 more. And get some more muscle, I like muscle on me, it makes me feel (dare I say) SEXY!!!! Hey Justin maybe I’m bringing sexy back????

Later gator