Adventures of a Former Fat Girl

So, I’ve done this for a week now. I weighed myself this morning and weigh in at 175.5. So I lost 5 pounds! I’m happy with that, but I posted a thread in female b.b forum and apparently I haven’t done everything right, yet! From what everyone tells me, I need to up my calories, who knew! I went from eating to much, to eating to little, now I need to eat more. I guess everyone was right when they said the nutrition was 80% of getting healthy, I know it was reason I got fat.

I never realized that this was going to be so hard, but I’m willing to do whatever it takes. I’ve never been so focused on myself before, I almost feel guilty. But then I have to remember why I’m doing this. The number one reason is for me, I don’t like they way I feel anymore spiritually, emotionally and physically. I figure that I have to feel good about myself, and make my life they way I want it, before I can do that for anyone else. Also, I have two teenage boys, and I don’t want them to be embarrassed of their mother, the way I was about mine. She wasn’t overweight, but she was an alcoholic. Her health never really mattered much to her. She is a chain smoker, who recently found out she has lung cancer. As soon as I found this out, I knew that I needed to make changes in my life. That is why I need this so bad. This is why I’m so focused on this, I do not want to die because of the bad choices I’ve made. I’m not willing to let greasy food and a sedative lifestyle take me from my life.

Anyhoo, one week ago I made the most important decision of my life and I’m not willing to change that decision for a hamburger, chocolate cake or even cheese for that matter!!! For every pound I loose, I’m going to dedicate them to a new life!!

A beauty in the making,

Pam

 You can keep the cheese Wisconsin!!!

OOPS!!! I ate cheese, I don’t think I was suppose to. I read after that it has alot of fat in it, DUH!! No wonder I was fat. I wonder what else I blindly put into my mouth thinking it was healthy. I still haven’t figured this whole eating thing out. If anyone reads this, please help me!!! I know that I’m suppose to eat a complex carb with a protein. Sounds simple, until I have to apply it. I was eating a Fit N light yogurt today, thinking again that I was being healthy, then I read the ingredients. Sucralose. The dreaded ose’s!!! yikes. That’s what I’ve come to call them Fructose, Sucralose. I never, ever thought sugar was called so many other things. I’m getting kinda frustrated with the whole eating thing. I can’t begin to tell you how much I want to do right and get heathly and loose this weight, but I’m really getting lost at the eating thing. Someone please tell me what to eat???  

I will have Six Pack ABS, I will have nice sculpted shoulders, and a bikini butt!!! I’m not willing to have it any other whey(and might I add Yuk! Whey is not what I thought it was gonna be, I had fantasy’s of milk shakes not lumpy, powder chunks)

Muscles in my toes….WHO KNEW?

I woke up this morning and every muscle in my body was screaming at me, even my toes. I’m not kidding, I could barely sit on the toilet, it felt like my hamstrings were gonna snap. I literally had to hold on to the cabinet to ease myself into place. And my elbow pits are sore….I mean what’s with that? I think I’m doing to much at once, I don’t think I should be training my entire body. Maybe if I did specific groups on specific days. Cause right now, I don’t think I can lift tomorrow.

I did do cardio today, which kinda loosened me up a little. However, if my husband tries to touch me I may jump though the roof. I hope this isn’t what it’s gonna feel like all the time, I hope it gets better.

Still working on my eating plan…protein and complex carbs thing. However, I’m still 100% motivated. I don’t care how sore I get, I’m not gonna be fat no more.

Peace out!

How utterly ironic was for me today! Of all days to begin my health journey and start changing my life, I had to calculate BMI’s and Coronary Heart Disease at the Women’s health fair that the hospital puts on. Here I was in all my hideous fattness telling women that they needed to lose weight. One thing I did realize though was that to be a better health care professional, I should lead by example!!

Anyhoo, DAY TWO–

Last night, I read an article about eating clean so I immediately went online to find more info. Stubbled across the Oxygen magazine web site, ordered that mag, and the EAT CLEAN DIET book. But until that arrives, I figured I give it a go without the book. So here’s what I ate and will be eating today.

7:00am–1/2 c. Oatmeal, spinkled with 1tbsp milled Flaxseed and 1tbsp whey protein

10:00am–1 banana with a turkey sandwich on WW bread no condaments(absolutely hate mayo)

1pm (At this very moment)

1/2 c. plain vanilla yogurt with whole frozen strawberries

4pm- I plan on a chicken breast and 1/4 head of steamed cabbage

7pm I haven’t a clue maybe more chicken or a yogurt

I’m not entirely sure what I should eat, but I’m trying. NO JUNK FOOD! BACK OFF DORITO’s!!!!  Ya know, I think I can still hear them calling my name even though I threw out all the junk food. My kids still haven’t recovered, especially when they are looking for something to munch, and I’m handing them a banana.

Well in a little bit here, I’m gonna start my exercise program. I bought the body sculpting bible and some dumbbells, already have the treadmill and the weight bench, so I have no more excuses. I a little leary, cause I know I’m probably gonna be sore! Hey anyone know how long you stay sore?

Until Tomorrow—Or should I say "I’ll be back!" ( a little Arnold Joke there, I know not funny right)

Have you ever said "Tomorrow I’m gonna work out", or "Monday I’m gonna start a new diet". Well for me Tomorrow never came and Monday always went by with a Krispy Kreme or Two!! I’m soooo tired of being known as the fat "funny" girl!! I want the "Your How Old" reaction. I want my husband to have to get in shape to defend me, when 20 year olds come on to me. I guess what I’m saying is "I’m done with being fat, and unhealthy." Do you hear me…..I’m done!!!

Ok! now where do I start! I know nothing about weight lifting, eating, cardio. It might as well be Japanese, for all that I understand. I did buy me the Female Body Sculptor’s bible to give me some kind of idea, and I’ve been perusing all the body blogs and forums to pick up any insight. So if anyone has any suggestions, advice, or would like to help, I would appreciate it. So until tomorrow(which will come this time)!

Pam