NewMomma09’s BodyBlog

I finally put some pictures up and I am absolutely terrified! I don’t have a lot of self confidence usually, so it’s hard to put pics up and have people critique me, but I’m doing it for motivation. I noticed that while I’ve been working out and trying to eat right, I could be doing SO much better, (i.e. I’ve been kind of slacking off and should have made more progress by now). SO, I’ve set myself an 8-9 week goal. I’m going to bust my butt for that length of time, no cheating, strict workout plan, and at the end of those 9 weeks, my husband owes me a new "little black dress" and a date night! It might sound small to someone training for something major like a marathon or a competition, but it’s motivation enough for me, lol. So I posted the pictures because I don’t like the way I look in them, and I’m hoping it will push me to train harder so that I can replace them soon with ones that make me happier! Here I go, and wish me luck!

I know that I am one of those that is harder and much more judgemental on myself than anybody else is, but I am truly getting frustrated. I should start by saying that I am well aware that muscle weighs more than fat and that it’s perfectly normal to gain weight at first, or to seem to lose very little scale-wise, but actually be making progress. I know this, I’ve said this, I believe this….but it’s STILL so frustrating that I haven’t "lost" more. I’m trying very hard not to care about the numbers on the scale, (because numbers really aren’t as important), but it’s hard to kill old habits. I’ve gotten comments from family members who have told me that they can see a difference, I’ve seen a little difference in my clothes, I can really tell that I’m getting more "defined", and I DEFINITELY feel stronger and can feel the difference in my arms and legs….BUT, it just feels like too little. I am currently examining my diet, but having two kids and a husband that eats completely different than I do, most of the grocery bill goes towards their meals. All in all, I think I need to kick myself in the butt, and jumpstart my motivation again. Summer is coming, and I will not be unhappy with my body this year! Sigh…