COMPETE 2 WIN!!!!

I have been experiencing several bi-polar moments the last 3-4 weeks. It’s so annoying/frustrating when my mood fluctuates from being on top of the world to I’m not going to make it. During those times I just do it (train) b/c I have to. But, I really enjoy training b/c I want to and it’s healthy for my body. I try to keep an even head and remember the true reason why I workout which is b/c it makes me feel better. I try not to get so pre-occupied w/ the “I won’t be ready for the show”. But, it isn’t easy.

This Monday I started the week 6 pounds heavier. Many of you don’t know, but my grandmother passed away on May 17. We traveled to Florida for the funeral, so needless to say I was off the diet for about 4 days…it’s amazing how fast I put on weight, when although I wasn’t on the diet, I wasn’t pigging out like a total fool either. The hardest part was that we drove so I was unable to get the water in. I’ve been back a week and I’ve dropped 4 pounds. Although my gmom passed, it was a great trip. She was 80 years old and the funeral was sad, yet funny. You should have heard some of the stories her cousins told. So, it was like a homecoming for me, b/c I hadn’t been to Florida to visit in several years. All my cousins are grown w/ there own children….WOW!! I need to get on the ball!

I’m not so sure how often I’ll post pics of my progress…I’m sure it will just depend on how I’m looking. Mainly b/c I don’t want to get caught up in the hoopla of comparing myself to other competitors, and I don’t want other competitors comparing themselves to mine. I’ve decided to not look at other ppl’s pics b/c for me, it does cause me to question myself and what I’m doing….I need to stay focused on my prep and not worry about if what I’m doing will be enough or not. I just need to follow my plan and I think it’s soooooo much easier to follow your own plan when you aren’t caught up w/ what other ppl are looking like and who you think will show up that day to compete.