COMPETE 2 WIN!!!!

In 11 1/2 weeks of dieting I would have to say today is the worst day yet.  I feel like I’m Bi-Polar.  For those of you who don’t know about this psychiatric disorder: The major symptom  is going back and forth between Mania to depression…usually at one state or the other for days-weeks at a time. Well, for some reason my mood has been flip flopping all day long.  One minute I’m feeling great the next I’m asking myself why in the hell am I doing this!!!  One minute I’m telling myself I’m going to do the Arnold Amateur in February to can I even maintain my weight long enough to do that show!! What?  Of course I can….but I’m having self doubt.  I’m going to attribute these mood swings to no carbs and exhaustion!!!  I pray to God tomorrow is a better day or this is going to be the longest 9 days of my life!!!

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