Breaking through
Yesterday, I made a breakthrough in my mental health. I know I sound crazy with that statement but, I am always nervous around large groups of people. I eventually settle down and it is what it is. So this is a good thing though. I guess I just thought I would burst into flames if someone spoke to me or touched me or was even near me. Again i am not crazy just naturally shy around people who are not family. I guess it is all too clear why I isolate myself at the gym and why I try never to linger but just keep it moving.
Last night I the desire to train was stronger than the need to hide at home. I went to the gym during the busy hours. I worked out along side the menfolk and one even touched me in an attempt to help me. He explained how I could better do my concentration curls. No I did not faint, die, cry, or run off in flames. I was ok and for me who spent sooooo much of my life at home in the house on the brink of insanity because I did not want to be in public this is a huge breakthrough. I was able to say I want health and life more than I want anything else. I am able today to see how important good health and exercise is to the body and to the mind. I am so psyched to go again today because I know I have to go during the busy time. I can do it…I really can. I know for the social butterflies this is nothing. But, to me this is like the first step in climbing Mount Everest.
February 24, 2009 at 3:53 am
Thank you so much, and you’re looking great! Keep up the hard work! By the way, somebody erased me as a friend bc I told the truth to someone else she new. And she wrote on my blog that she likes my thinking? Go figure!
February 24, 2009 at 5:48 am
Wow. Baby steps and you are on your way. Most people in the gym have the same goals and desires. Latch on to the common and just roll with it. Ggod luck.