Trainer
So, I have one week before I meet with my trainer again. I have been busting my ass and doing all I can to stay focused. I don’t see any prgoress and I am afraid when she sees me she will see the same. I don’t know if I have "pre game" gitters so to speak or if I have been kidding myself this past month. All I can say is I have worked out even when it hurt even when I hated it and even when I thought you know average is ok. There are plenty of average people in the world quite happy. I still said F that. I am above average and it is time to do it. So, the long and the short of it is. I just have to stay focused it is all a mind game if I tell myself I got this then hey I got this. I have tried to develop a support system because for me weight training is just like losing weight. If I have positive people around me who support and believe in me I feel even more obligated to tow the line. It hasn’t been easy but, I have my husband’s uncle on board showed me where to buy protein over here. Have my husband’s sister who wants to do a cardio class together that will help as I hate cardio. I have my brother who I call daily to say what I’m doing that day and get some emotional support. Now, there is me. I pray daily for the strength and I truly thank God when I complete a set that I wanted to quit. So what is left? I don’t know but I will find it. I need to find it and I have to give it my all and treat my weight training like a ravenous lioness ready for the kill. Take no prisoners and take no excuses (from myself).
