Summer is approaching and we all want to look damn good this season. Rock a pair of cargo shorts, sexy mini or tight tanks. I pictured myself looking very scrumptious mid July, but I won't get there with the base I have now.
Fact is, I was losing weight to see what muscle I'm working with beneath all the fat. Well, I see I don't have much of a base at all. Sure I can continue to lose weight, but I'll look sickly when it's time for me to hit the beach and play volleyball for a beloved case of Heineken or Blue Moon Ale.
<<<< I won't be able to get jiggy looking like that.
I'm down in pounds and now I have to be real. Losing more weight is not going to help me transform into the woman I wish to be. I've read the articles and forum posts here, so I think I'm doing my body justice by ending the cut.
My goal is to look fit, not sick. Feel healthy, not weak. Be strong, not wimpy. So I guess this means while everyone is running around in their bikinis in a few months, I'll be lying on the beach sipping a protein shake and sporting a loose fitting t-shirt, khaki shorts, and flip flops.
Yeah, I might have to sacrifice looking ripped and showing skin, but what is worse? Building a healthy body for the long haul or putting off overall health to look skinny in the heat? This will be a test of patience. Yet I am committed to doing what is necessary for me to look good in public and in private.
As a single woman I think I can afford to take the time to get my body in the best shape ever. Currently, there is no pressure for me to look 'salivating sexy' naked. At least not right now. I will eventually get there and when I do I'm sure I'll find a nice gentle sir who will appreciate my efforts and the sweet fruits of my labor.
Until then, I shall eat, lift, sleep and kiss myself each time my scale tells me I've gained more pounds. There is a method to the madness of weight gain and it's called: muscle mass.