Summer is approaching and we all want to look damn good this season.
Rock a pair of cargo shorts, sexy mini or tight tanks. I
pictured myself looking very scrumptious mid July, but I won't get there
with the base I have now.

Fact is, I was losing weight to see
what muscle I'm working with beneath all the fat. Well, I see I don't
have much of a base at all. Sure I can continue to lose weight, but I'll
look sickly when it's time for me to hit the beach and play volleyball
for a beloved case of Heineken or Blue Moon Ale.

<<<< I won't be able to get jiggy looking like that.

I'm
down in pounds and now I have to be real. Losing more weight is not
going to help me transform into the woman I wish to be. I've read the
articles and forum posts here, so I think I'm doing my body justice by ending the cut.

My goal is to look fit, not
sick. Feel healthy, not weak. Be strong, not wimpy. So I guess this
means while everyone is running around in their bikinis in a few
months, I'll be lying on the beach sipping a protein shake and sporting a
loose fitting t-shirt, khaki shorts, and flip flops.

Yeah, I
might have to sacrifice looking ripped and showing skin, but what is worse? Building a
healthy body for the long haul or putting off overall health to look
skinny in the heat? This will be a test of patience. Yet I am
committed to doing what is necessary for me to look good in public and
in private.

As a single woman I think I can afford to take the
time to get my body in the best shape ever. Currently, there is no pressure
for me to look 'salivating sexy' naked. At least not right now. I will eventually get there and
when I do I'm sure I'll find a nice gentle sir who will appreciate my
efforts and the sweet fruits of my labor.

Until then, I shall eat, lift, sleep and kiss myself each time my scale tells me I've gained more pounds. There is a method to the madness of weight gain and it's called: muscle mass.

Musclethick