THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

I can’t help it!!  I have created a monster, but everyone is soooooooo respectful of my training time really, so stopping to talk for a sec is working out well.  Fine, they are all men, but hey……..it’s fun to say hi and wave to people like you are part of an elite club.  You know I have always loved those women who call everyone honey or sweetie, like southern women do and it sounds nice.  I think I have to get rid of the CT accent and adopt a southern one.  It doesn’t sound the same because where I come from in CT, we all have this dialect that "sounds a little New York" . It’s weird….we say DAWG and CAWFEE….heheeeeee…….

I trained chest and tris.  Probably more chest than tris and I didnt even get to the pec dec because some dude was hogging it and wouldnt let anyone near it.  Oh well, I will hit some up later this week.  I went really early, like 6pm and my usual time is about 730.  I had to share alot of stuff, but its nice to be there when its crowded, just for a change of pace.  I saw a few people I hadn’t run into in awhile and caught up a little bit.  I need a spotter for chest days, so I am scouting people.  Tonight my bench was only 125, compared to my 190 when I got a spot, thats super weak!  I did some chest presses with dumbbells, pec flies on cables, incline bench, chest/tri press machine, tris on cables, tris with dumbbells..the usual stuff. I was only there an hour or so.  Then I get to come home to 3rd grade homework…….holy crap they get alot of homework.  He’s 8 for pete sake!  Cut him some slack!  Plus, his mom needs a break too! 

Anyway, still waiting on the new pictures disk.  I saw one of me in black and white that I totally love.  Not being narcissistic, but it really represents the kind of pics I prefer to see myself in.  Im a tomboy with alot of blonde hair, what can I say?  If I was a guy I would be kicking butt in the UFC . I would be driving a badass muscle car and doing burnouts all over the place.  I’d be jacked too, lifting major weight and being like "RAAAAHHHHHHH" and dropping the weights……ok, kidding.  Men are lucky though!  All we get is "don’t look like a dude" and we have to (secretly)constantly struggle to adjust our clothes, whether is a wedgie, bikini slippage or a pain in the ass bra.  You guys scratch your nuts and no one cares……..no fair.

Ok, I better go……..Im babbling

I can’t help it!!  I have created a monster, but everyone is soooooooo respectful of my training time really, so stopping to talk for a sec is working out well.  Fine, they are all men, but hey……..it’s fun to say hi and wave to people like you are part of an elite club.  You know I have always loved those women who call everyone honey or sweetie, like southern women do and it sounds nice.  I think I have to get rid of the CT accent and adopt a southern one.  It doesn’t sound the same because where I come from in CT, we all have this dialect that "sounds a little New York" . It’s weird….we say DAWG and CAWFEE….heheeeeee…….

I trained chest and tris.  Probably more chest than tris and I didnt even get to the pec dec because some dude was hogging it and wouldnt let anyone near it.  Oh well, I will hit some up later this week.  I went really early, like 6pm and my usual time is about 730.  I had to share alot of stuff, but its nice to be there when its crowded, just for a change of pace.  I saw a few people I hadn’t run into in awhile and caught up a little bit.  I need a spotter for chest days, so I am scouting people.  Tonight my bench was only 125, compared to my 190 when I got a spot, thats super weak!  I did some chest presses with dumbbells, pec flies on cables, incline bench, chest/tri press machine, tris on cables, tris with dumbbells..the usual stuff. I was only there an hour or so.  Then I get to come home to 3rd grade homework…….holy crap they get alot of homework.  He’s 8 for pete sake!  Cut him some slack!  Plus, his mom needs a break too! 

Anyway, still waiting on the new pictures disk.  I saw one of me in black and white that I totally love.  Not being narcissistic, but it really represents the kind of pics I prefer to see myself in.  Im a tomboy with alot of blonde hair, what can I say?  If I was a guy I would be kicking butt in the UFC . I would be driving a badass muscle car and doing burnouts all over the place.  I’d be jacked too, lifting major weight and being like "RAAAAHHHHHHH" and dropping the weights……ok, kidding.  Men are lucky though!  All we get is "don’t look like a dude" and we have to (secretly)constantly struggle to adjust our clothes, whether is a wedgie, bikini slippage or a pain in the ass bra.  You guys scratch your nuts and no one cares……..no fair.

Ok, I better go……..Im babbling

I can’t help it!!  I have created a monster, but everyone is soooooooo respectful of my training time really, so stopping to talk for a sec is working out well.  Fine, they are all men, but hey……..it’s fun to say hi and wave to people like you are part of an elite club.  You know I have always loved those women who call everyone honey or sweetie, like southern women do and it sounds nice.  I think I have to get rid of the CT accent and adopt a southern one.  It doesn’t sound the same because where I come from in CT, we all have this dialect that "sounds a little New York" . It’s weird….we say DAWG and CAWFEE….heheeeeee…….

I trained chest and tris.  Probably more chest than tris and I didnt even get to the pec dec because some dude was hogging it and wouldnt let anyone near it.  Oh well, I will hit some up later this week.  I went really early, like 6pm and my usual time is about 730.  I had to share alot of stuff, but its nice to be there when its crowded, just for a change of pace.  I saw a few people I hadn’t run into in awhile and caught up a little bit.  I need a spotter for chest days, so I am scouting people.  Tonight my bench was only 125, compared to my 190 when I got a spot, thats super weak!  I did some chest presses with dumbbells, pec flies on cables, incline bench, chest/tri press machine, tris on cables, tris with dumbbells..the usual stuff. I was only there an hour or so.  Then I get to come home to 3rd grade homework…….holy crap they get alot of homework.  He’s 8 for pete sake!  Cut him some slack!  Plus, his mom needs a break too! 

Anyway, still waiting on the new pictures disk.  I saw one of me in black and white that I totally love.  Not being narcissistic, but it really represents the kind of pics I prefer to see myself in.  Im a tomboy with alot of blonde hair, what can I say?  If I was a guy I would be kicking butt in the UFC . I would be driving a badass muscle car and doing burnouts all over the place.  I’d be jacked too, lifting major weight and being like "RAAAAHHHHHHH" and dropping the weights……ok, kidding.  Men are lucky though!  All we get is "don’t look like a dude" and we have to (secretly)constantly struggle to adjust our clothes, whether is a wedgie, bikini slippage or a pain in the ass bra.  You guys scratch your nuts and no one cares……..no fair.

Ok, I better go……..Im babbling

I can’t help it!!  I have created a monster, but everyone is soooooooo respectful of my training time really, so stopping to talk for a sec is working out well.  Fine, they are all men, but hey……..it’s fun to say hi and wave to people like you are part of an elite club.  You know I have always loved those women who call everyone honey or sweetie, like southern women do and it sounds nice.  I think I have to get rid of the CT accent and adopt a southern one.  It doesn’t sound the same because where I come from in CT, we all have this dialect that "sounds a little New York" . It’s weird….we say DAWG and CAWFEE….heheeeeee…….

I trained chest and tris.  Probably more chest than tris and I didnt even get to the pec dec because some dude was hogging it and wouldnt let anyone near it.  Oh well, I will hit some up later this week.  I went really early, like 6pm and my usual time is about 730.  I had to share alot of stuff, but its nice to be there when its crowded, just for a change of pace.  I saw a few people I hadn’t run into in awhile and caught up a little bit.  I need a spotter for chest days, so I am scouting people.  Tonight my bench was only 125, compared to my 190 when I got a spot, thats super weak!  I did some chest presses with dumbbells, pec flies on cables, incline bench, chest/tri press machine, tris on cables, tris with dumbbells..the usual stuff. I was only there an hour or so.  Then I get to come home to 3rd grade homework…….holy crap they get alot of homework.  He’s 8 for pete sake!  Cut him some slack!  Plus, his mom needs a break too! 

Anyway, still waiting on the new pictures disk.  I saw one of me in black and white that I totally love.  Not being narcissistic, but it really represents the kind of pics I prefer to see myself in.  Im a tomboy with alot of blonde hair, what can I say?  If I was a guy I would be kicking butt in the UFC . I would be driving a badass muscle car and doing burnouts all over the place.  I’d be jacked too, lifting major weight and being like "RAAAAHHHHHHH" and dropping the weights……ok, kidding.  Men are lucky though!  All we get is "don’t look like a dude" and we have to (secretly)constantly struggle to adjust our clothes, whether is a wedgie, bikini slippage or a pain in the ass bra.  You guys scratch your nuts and no one cares……..no fair.

Ok, I better go……..Im babbling

I can’t help it!!  I have created a monster, but everyone is soooooooo respectful of my training time really, so stopping to talk for a sec is working out well.  Fine, they are all men, but hey……..it’s fun to say hi and wave to people like you are part of an elite club.  You know I have always loved those women who call everyone honey or sweetie, like southern women do and it sounds nice.  I think I have to get rid of the CT accent and adopt a southern one.  It doesn’t sound the same because where I come from in CT, we all have this dialect that "sounds a little New York" . It’s weird….we say DAWG and CAWFEE….heheeeeee…….

I trained chest and tris.  Probably more chest than tris and I didnt even get to the pec dec because some dude was hogging it and wouldnt let anyone near it.  Oh well, I will hit some up later this week.  I went really early, like 6pm and my usual time is about 730.  I had to share alot of stuff, but its nice to be there when its crowded, just for a change of pace.  I saw a few people I hadn’t run into in awhile and caught up a little bit.  I need a spotter for chest days, so I am scouting people.  Tonight my bench was only 125, compared to my 190 when I got a spot, thats super weak!  I did some chest presses with dumbbells, pec flies on cables, incline bench, chest/tri press machine, tris on cables, tris with dumbbells..the usual stuff. I was only there an hour or so.  Then I get to come home to 3rd grade homework…….holy crap they get alot of homework.  He’s 8 for pete sake!  Cut him some slack!  Plus, his mom needs a break too! 

Anyway, still waiting on the new pictures disk.  I saw one of me in black and white that I totally love.  Not being narcissistic, but it really represents the kind of pics I prefer to see myself in.  Im a tomboy with alot of blonde hair, what can I say?  If I was a guy I would be kicking butt in the UFC . I would be driving a badass muscle car and doing burnouts all over the place.  I’d be jacked too, lifting major weight and being like "RAAAAHHHHHHH" and dropping the weights……ok, kidding.  Men are lucky though!  All we get is "don’t look like a dude" and we have to (secretly)constantly struggle to adjust our clothes, whether is a wedgie, bikini slippage or a pain in the ass bra.  You guys scratch your nuts and no one cares……..no fair.

Ok, I better go……..Im babbling

Im not training today.  I very sore actually, mostly my glutes.  I’m ok with that.  I like my new pics, from those that I have seen, but I still think I need bigger legs.  I will keep trying! 

I’m a little overwhelmed with this moving thing.  I haven’t moved yet, but I have so much to get rid of as I can’t move it all.  Plus I haven’t even seen the inside of my remtal house because there are people renting it short term until their house they are building is finished. After they move out my landlord is putting in new hardwood floors and carpeting.  For 12 years I have been living in a 3,200 sq ft old, old house.  Old and dusty, but I used to really love it….now it’s just a big old dusty thing……..but I will miss it.  Memories, you know?  My kids pretty much grew up here and all their heights are recorded on the kitchen doorway.  The idea of something new is bittersweet. Im sure the house is 1/2 the size I am used to, but it will have heat in my bedroom!  I have slept without heat in my bedroom for 12 years and let me tell you……it gets mighty cold in January. 

ahhhhhhhhh..big changes coming…..guess I have to roll with it.  Chest and tris tomorrow.  Who can give me a spot?

I uploaded “successfully”  3 times, but the pics wont show in my gallery.  Does anyone else know why this is?  I have space, it says it worked and I never had trouble before. Here are the pics I was trying to load. I havent gotten the origional CD, so this is pretty much it for now.  I have some on the photographers site though and am really happy with them

This was a really cool shoot, so I hope the pics came out well.  It has been raining for about 3 or 4 days and I wasnt sure what would happen today.  Though it was warm out, there was a mist of rain.  I shot with Jim Matlock, you can see his work on onemodelplace.com or modelmayhem.com.  He actually is a cop who goes to my gym. We went to a place where they process asphalt and gravel.  It had huge blocks of concrete, old metal stairs complete with rust, traintacks and a railcard and a huge pile of gravel of which I climbed onto……..sweet.  I think we got some great shots as the enviroment always helps.  My hair was straight when I left the house, but the damn mist left me with big 80’s hair before it was over.  Sh*t happens.   He gave me a huge compliment saying "at least you know how to pose".  Modeling doesnt sound hard, but you do have to know what looks best on you.  My other guy always wants me to look up at him.  Ok, looking up with chin down= a wrinkled forehead and no neck.  I guess I get the photos by the end of the week and will post some of course.  If anyone wants to know where I get all my shoots from, just drop me a comment and I will be happy to answer of course.  And no, I didnt do NOOOOOOODSSSSSS (nudes), so dont ask.

I did a quick leg workout meaning I have to do another later this week.  I shortchanged myself bigtime.  It was hot and gummy in there anyway and I didnt want to drink too much and have to pee at the shoot because quite frankly, there was no where to pee anyway.  I did a little shot of superpump though..of course!

Ill be back later, I have to go wash my face.

Im hungry and I am pissed off.  Im out of gas, so I try to go online to see my account and I tried tons of different usernames and passwords and none will work.  Yeah, I owe them money….big whup.  So I call them and of course they are not open and its only for emergencies!!   I cant cook!  I am starving!  Yeah, I can nuke something, but I don’t want to….I want my stove to work for cripe sake.  Plus all it does in the godforsaken state is rain, rain, rain…yes im cranky.

Ok, Im back.  I ate 2 tomato sandwiches.  I have a garden and have tomatos coming out of my ears at this point.

Today was a piddling training day. I did an upper body workout consisting mostly of back.  I have trained everything this week, so after legs tomorrow , we go back to chest and tris monday.  I also did another tanning session and am a little stingy.  This photoshoot may be a wash in all this rain.  I think I need to build an ark and get it over with.  Its supposed to let up tomorrow, but I have heard than one before.  Im still game though, even if it is raining a little.  Im not afraid of a little mud.

I dont know what to write about.  I think I am going to go get some coffee at dunks and then maybe, just maybe I will be in a better mood.  I love my coffee

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Busted out the most boring burning bodyparts tonight.  yes, boring calves and forearms.

Calves: seated calf raises 150lbs , slide machine160lbs and donkeys 380lbs

Forearms: behind the back wrist curls, raises in front with the ez bar, hanging wrist curls with the ez bar, hammer curls….thats its….BORING

I threw in some 40 ez bar bicep curls, pull ups, chin ups, shoulder presses and some dumbbell lateral raises.

Lately, I have been socializing and having some fun with it. Its nice getting to know people really.  Maybe I am trying to change people’s initial impression of me?  I have heard some initial opinions of me before people actually know me and most think I am pretty unapproachable..and I’m thinking……who me?THAT has got to change.  Tonight a guy asked me about my smith bench leg presses, so I helped him try a few sets and he loved them.  It takes practice, but he liked the way they gave him a nice ham stretch and hit the quad up high without bothering the knees.  Another man I spoke with offered me a job as a shot girl in his new bar.  Its a sports bar and I will be selling shots and desserts.  The shots will be something that probably tastes like the dessert…sounds fun to me and who couldnt use some money while having fun? It will also be a chance to meet new people and possibly pick up some clients when I start training people.  Word of mouth goes a long way.  I am coming from almost paralyzing shyness to  miss congeniality I guess.  Once you start you realize you have alot to say and alot to share……I just love it. 

I hope everyone had a great friday…..its still friday.  Im going to hang out and relax and finish a book I started a couple days ago.  Im beat.

Fern