THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

Im  sure there is some science behind all those funky, complicated laying on a ball, walking while putting arms on one side then the other while looking like a little kid playing "mother may I?" (take GIANT steps).but I gotta tell you,tried and true i"old school " training cannot be beat.  Somehow I do get away from it, but Im back in it now.  I am back into the free barbell squats and the stiff arm deadlifts and it felt great.  How did this happen?  How did I step away from it?  I got lazy and used the smith machine and to be honest, I can lift more on free squats and my knee didnt hurt!  WTF……Im an IDIOT!!  Perhaps I cannot get a proper stance on the smith, but 100 lbs on there was so much harder on my knees than the weight I put up tonight.  Granted, it wasnt alot because I was out of practice……..but not too shabby at all.  You do have to rely more on your balance than with the smith, but a strong back and core will help you out.  I did legs for 2 hours and here is my list……

free squats and smith squats

free romanian deadlifts barbell and dumbbells

laying and seated leg curls

glute isolator machine

leg press , feet high and wide, knees to armpits for hammies

linear hack press for quads

roman chair with a 45 lb plate &reverse leg raises (head down) for glutes and erectors

calf slide machine (getting stronger on this as 200 lbs is easy)

donkey calf raises

assisted pull ups and chin ups 50 lb counter weight set

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I think thats it.  No cable kickbacks or adductor machine as we ran out of time..but we did go back to the extensions and seated curls to do some light finishing sets……

ya, thats it I guess.  I had lots of energy and had a good time, so that counts the most.

one last thing……..I was doing db deadlifts and low and behold…….noticed I was wearing 2 different shoes!!  Holy crap, they are both black and white but pretty different and the soles are different colors.  No one noticed and I am thinking I wore the same set to work and never even noticed myself. Blonde moment I think!

I hope you all had a good day. CHECK your FEET!!

So next week Im going to train with the AnabolicDoc , we are going to try and get in some pics and videos too.  He is very entertaining to say the least.  I saw one of our website videos and I didnt know the camera was on me because he was talking and I look like I have an IQ if about the equivalent of a Froot Loop……..Anyway, things are going great and the website is being done.  he is also going to do my labs and make sure Im healthy as a horse.

Last night was just chest.  I did

flat bench 85..can do about 12 reps but I dont see the point about doing more weights with ‘you know"

pec flies 85 lbs….same thing….I hold the handles in a high position so its only upper chest.

DB pullovers, 12 reps with 30 lbs

seated presses 85 lbs

chest press/di[ machine 60 lbs

It was what I call a "maintenance workout" as obviously buildoing my chest in not necessary and can be a little painful if I do a heavy workout.

Tonight I am doing all legs for 2 hours!!! 

Then next week I more into all dropsets to try and spark a little growth.  I love my dropsets.  Ill talk more about them later. 

Still no letter from the Arnold, but I found a couple other women who are waiting as well.  One is doing the open, but I think my odds are better as Masters is usually a smaller group anyway…………fingers crossed!!

\xox

No gym today I had an ISSUE, so I tok the night off.  Im working on my article for BB.com and answering some mail.  I went 4 days in a row, so it’s ok with me.

Like I said yesterday, I’m having a tough mental time with bodyfat.  The anorexic old me is still in there, so I just have to fight that feeling.  I look good in clothes, I have a butt…..just feel so SMOOSHY lately. But like I also said, very low bodyfat 365 days is a BAD idea. I will be kicking myself in the ass if/when I get the Arnold Amateur approval and I wasted my 3 month bulk and gained nothing at all. Shoulders and legs baby!!!  Im not going to bitch too much because I know there are some women out there wanting the "skinny bitches" to stop complaining, right? Better than a stick in the eye I suppose.  I was walking past 2 ladies at the gym and as soon as I walk past.one says to the other "she is my hero, I wanna look like her".  So I will keep my demons to a low roar and try to be happy..promise.

Yesterday, the whole ****ty legs day thing……..holy crap, my legs are screaming today! The smith squats and then the single leg 35lb leg extensions totally killed them. I was leaning forward with every extension to get a maximum contraction and I guess I succeeded without even realizing it. Live and learn I suppose.

Tomorrow or later this week I will go over my going lean diet again.  I get asked for it alot in emails and don’t have time to write it out as I am a ****ty typist..so I will do a repost for those who asked.

Talk soon!

Right now I am up to about 128.  I think my ego is going to stop my weigh gain soon.  I know you cant be superlean all the time and anyone who is……….is not healthy. Here are some issues of being very lean:

1. Loss of insulation and organ protection

2. Laxk of fuel reserves to draw on during high stress periods

3. In creased illness and infections

4. Abnormal menstrual function and bone loss

5. Poor pregnancy outcome

6. Decreased testosterone production.

and more…………you feel weaker and can’t lift as much, you lose energy easily, and besides being lean on the outside, you are lean on fat on the inside…so like it says above…..no cushions for your organs so you risk internal issues.  Also, like anorexics, long periods of low bodyfat have outer physical effects….such as a downy like hair all over the body and faces that are too skeletal and skin does sag with little bodyfat.  Thats why the superlean pics of women here usually don’t have faces…….we get scarecrow faces.  I don’t like my face much when I am lean.  It gets all boney and I’m Native American and already got a boney face.  I can only go so far before it freaks me out and makes me look "old" and thats when I usually draw the line. I’m not into anything that makes me look older…….yuk.  So my very lean is about 119lbs, right now I am a "soft" 128. 

I went out last night, so not really feeling like I go a good workout.  I hit up my first gay bar for a charity auction.  Me and the girls out for a "sex in the city" kinda thing.  We had a good time and I didnt get hit on once!!   But I did do some shots and although not many, it affected my workout.  I  think it made me a little dehydrated and its like you can’t do enough reps before you get tired.  Plus my thighs were sore from dancing in heels.  Dancing is hard work, least I got in some cardio………..

soooooooo…………now I have to make up for lost time and do heavy legs later this week.  I only have 2 more months of bulking and then I go a little lean.  I bought all great food yesterday because I need to eat more clean stuff.  Im not eating enough for heavy workouts, so I have been craving and giving in to bad stuff.  I got my turkey burger, my bison, brown rice, almonds, tuna, cottage cheese, eggs, I cant believe its not butter spray, frozen veggies , sandwich thins…and there are awesome sales on fresh fruit and veggies on saturdays at stop & shop.  I got pineapple $1.90, apples .87, broccoli .59, and vine tomatoes for $1.00!!!

Oh.my brain hurts….need a nap

So I try and help out the ladies and now something for the men.  Wheter or not you are a steroid user or using prohormones….you can get yourself checked out.  There will be lab scrips available to get your complete blood analysis.  You will have your levels checked for heart, kidneys, liver, etc………..semen analysis and motility…levels for prostate health, etc.  And with your new found knowledge you can seek out Dr O’Connor or take the info to a local dr and discuss your options.  The problem is even with some supplemenst, you can be putting yourself in danger and not even know it.  A urinalyisis can tell you if your kidneys are starting to fail.  Many men don’t go to doctors like women do.

We also hope to get booths at expos to meet with people and I can check your blood pressure and you can get more info on how the site works.  We did videos on what normal levels are on men and you can compare your numbers with those. There is no use looking good on the outside if you are dying on the inside. Also things like cholesterol are often inherited as are some heart conditions.  Do you know your family history or do you rely on the way you look to assume you are healthy? 

Besides the videos, we did some fun and entertaining photos.  I was comfortable the moment I met the doc.  he is a powerlifter, so he has that mentality that most of us here have…..no Bullsh*t.  So I jumped at the chance to come aboard and educate and hopefully aid in saving some lives.  Steroid abuse is a common problem guys.  Its time to stop judging and get realistic about it’s abuse.  Society only speaks of it when someone has supposed "roid rage" and kills someone..then it is blamed.  I know some men who use and they are sweet men and never hurt anyone.  If that was the case……..a million men would be murderers. Oh and some athletes would just be kicking everyones ass in the dugout!!! They DO have bats in there you know.  

So……watch for the new videos on the site.  I will attach some clips here as well when they become available.  And in Muscular Development you can see our pictures and my alter ego……the anabolic nurse of course.  

Thanks for reading!!! 

I know alot of motivational stuff is a little cult like or just plain weird, but some of it does work.  You just have to tell yourself that you are WORTHY.  I mean whether its someone putting you down or setting you up to fail with weight loss or anything else…you just have to get insulted and indignant.  Like "YOU can’t say that to ME".  "I am GOOD ENOUGH" and "I will NOT fail".  For years and years I let others define me or supress me.  I was afraid of everything and rarely ever looked anyone in the eye.  I thought there must be something wrong with me because bad stuff always happened to me.  I was very negative and kind of like Pavlov’s dog who still loved him even though he punched them in the stomach as a reward.    Often we are subservient to our signifigant others and that plays a role on it too.  We do anything to make them happy even if it’s not something that makes us happy.  Like choosing where to eat or even dressing or acting like what pleases them.  I may have had opinions, but I never expressed them for fear of rejection.  So, after a divorce…one which came about because I wasn’t happy……as one day I looked at him and said to myself "this is my life at 50, 65? and IM NOT HAPPY".  Time is precious, don’t waste it being unhappy.  I essentially quit men and started working on myself and thats when things all came together.  Yes, it is a little bit of selfishness on my part, but I really am having the time of my life right now. I work hard and its paying off very well.

I know there are prettier and younger girls than me out there, more jacked chicks, better figure girls, etc etc….and I can deal with that.  I am doing very well and it’s only been three years since I got off the couch.  You arent different than me and it’s there if you want it.  I have done maybe 15 figure shows, shot with about 25 photographers, worked for Gaspari and Ironman Magazine at the Arnold, I write articles, do videos and now am being included in a fabulous cutting edge website.  I sometimes get bummed and want to quit just like everyone else, but I don’t because I don’t want to live with "what if’s?". 

So stop giving yourselves excuses to fail.  get the crap out of your cabinets, find some positive friends and get going.  You can blink your eyes and be 65 years old…….look how fast life has gone by already!!! And everyone deserves a chance to be who and what they want….dreams shouldnt die after highschool.

xo

I came across my Myotape and decided to check my stats.  THis can sometimes be a depressing thing, but I am happy to say I have grown or maintained size , yet have gotten leaner from when I started.  My legs are 21 inches and I thought they were 20.  My calves have grown, but I hate to measure them as they are 1/2 inch or so different as I hold more fat on the left side………..weird, huh?   My bi’s are a solid 12 inches and really lean, chest is now 39……….but ya, we all know thats a little off.  Im going to give myself an in because I did measure above the enhanced portion and got a 4 inch aqddition…….so I won’t cheat, but I do know my lats are bigger.  My waist is still 27, not so bad seeing as I stopped doing obliques and havent gained inches there. Forearms are 1/2 inch bigger, now at 10.5 without a smidge of fat in that area and shoulders are about 43, thats a hard part to measure alone.  I have to see what they were the last time as I forgot already.   Oh, hips have grown, which means glutes have because you measure around the widest portion.

Thats it I think………..progress.  what is more satisfying than progress?

I did back and bi’s tonight.  bent over smith rows, seated rows, lat pulldowns in front and in back, pressdowns with short bar, lat pulldowns wirth single arms, assisted pull ups and chin up.  Mixed it up with some bi’s…..machine preachers and dumbbell curls.

Oh, and hopefully, hopefully………we get in before the deadline and I will be in the Feb Edition of Muscular Development with my new boss!!