THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

I know alot of motivational stuff is a little cult like or just plain weird, but some of it does work.  You just have to tell yourself that you are WORTHY.  I mean whether its someone putting you down or setting you up to fail with weight loss or anything else…you just have to get insulted and indignant.  Like "YOU can’t say that to ME".  "I am GOOD ENOUGH" and "I will NOT fail".  For years and years I let others define me or supress me.  I was afraid of everything and rarely ever looked anyone in the eye.  I thought there must be something wrong with me because bad stuff always happened to me.  I was very negative and kind of like Pavlov’s dog who still loved him even though he punched them in the stomach as a reward.    Often we are subservient to our signifigant others and that plays a role on it too.  We do anything to make them happy even if it’s not something that makes us happy.  Like choosing where to eat or even dressing or acting like what pleases them.  I may have had opinions, but I never expressed them for fear of rejection.  So, after a divorce…one which came about because I wasn’t happy……as one day I looked at him and said to myself "this is my life at 50, 65? and IM NOT HAPPY".  Time is precious, don’t waste it being unhappy.  I essentially quit men and started working on myself and thats when things all came together.  Yes, it is a little bit of selfishness on my part, but I really am having the time of my life right now. I work hard and its paying off very well.

I know there are prettier and younger girls than me out there, more jacked chicks, better figure girls, etc etc….and I can deal with that.  I am doing very well and it’s only been three years since I got off the couch.  You arent different than me and it’s there if you want it.  I have done maybe 15 figure shows, shot with about 25 photographers, worked for Gaspari and Ironman Magazine at the Arnold, I write articles, do videos and now am being included in a fabulous cutting edge website.  I sometimes get bummed and want to quit just like everyone else, but I don’t because I don’t want to live with "what if’s?". 

So stop giving yourselves excuses to fail.  get the crap out of your cabinets, find some positive friends and get going.  You can blink your eyes and be 65 years old…….look how fast life has gone by already!!! And everyone deserves a chance to be who and what they want….dreams shouldnt die after highschool.

xo

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